AN: URG!! I GOT ANOTHER TWILIGHT WEIRD DREAM LAST NIGHT! Dream one: I kissed Embry Dream 2: u don't wanna know, but Sam was there with me Dream 3: Quil and Embry were wearing knights costumes (lol, random, they said they just came back from Greece). This is a depressing chapter, at least I put this book cover into play of what it represents. If you want to see it, send me your e-mail and I'll send it (I have ones for the other books too) Oh, and please don't give me any suggestions about Seth imprinting he will… eventually… I'm surprised u haven't guessed it yet (LOL)
Breaking Eclipse: Renesmee and Jacob
Chapter 19: Broken Glass
Renesmee Cullen
"No…" I whispered. "No! SETH! You can't love me!" He rolled his eyes.
"I can… and I do." He said. "And you love me, too."
"Seth, I love you but I'm not in love with you! You're family!" I heard Jacob stir in the bedroom, that didn't stop Seth.
"Then why don't I see Jacob protecting you?" he asked. "I'm protecting you ten times better than he is."
"Because he doesn't know." I crossed my arms. "If only he knew—,"
"Why is it you trust me more than your own boyfriend?" he asked. We were beginning to raise our voices.
"I don't!" I insisted.
"Then why won't you tell him?" he said.
"You know exactly why I won't tell him. He'll die if he knows."
"They never said that. They said the dreams won't come true if he runs after them." I grunted loudly.
"You know what? Maybe I will tell him." I was about to head for the door to Jacob's room, but Seth pushed me against the wall.
"I can protect you better then he can." He started kissing my neck and I lightly pushed him away. He looked at me and started as before.
"Seth, I'm not yours to protect." He looked into my eyes.
"Until the day I die, I'll be here fighting for you." I rolled my eyes.
"That's generous of you but I'd rather have Jake on my side, thank you very much." He sighed and looked at me again, he leaned for my lips, when I my head away, he took my head in his hands and his lips met mine again.
This kiss had more anger in it, but I did get a little more passion in it. He forced my mouth open so his tongue could enter it and his hands tangled in my hair. And unlike before, something really scared me: I was feeling something as well. I couldn't put my finger on it, but I pushed him away and got out of his reach before he could kiss me again.
I didn't say anything, I grabbed my things quickly and got into my car.
"Nessie!" Seth called, I didn't turn around.
Jacob Black
I woke up to the sound of Nessie and Seth screaming at each other. It was wrong of me to eaves drop but I listened to the whole conversation… Nessie was keeping something from me? Like I was to her? What was it? Why would my life be in danger if I knew?
I was about to get up and stop the fighting, when I heard complete silence. I heard little noises, sounding like whimpers and then a gust of wind. I really didn't know what was happening, then I heard Nessie's car drive away and Seth calling out for her to stop. I figured I was going to talk to Seth.
"What did you do?" I demanded, he jumped a little from my voice.
"Nothing, Jake." He said, trying to put on a smile. That was sick.
"Sure as hell didn't sound like 'nothing' to me." I crossed my arms. Seth closed the door and walked to me in the same position as I was. He reached my level of seriousness now.
"I told her the truth." My eyes widened.
"What?! You told her about the—," he interrupted me.
"No. I told her I loved her." My anger started to build.
"You're in love with her?!" I said between my teeth. Seth shrugged, a smirk on his face now.
"Yeah." He said, now smiling. I tried to calm my breathing but I wasn't having much success in that right now.
"You're in love with my Nessie, and you know I'm marrying her soon?!" He had a fake shock expression.
"Aw, Jake already proposed? Why did I miss such an important day?" I rolled my eyes.
"It didn't happen yet, Seth. But I'm telling you—," he interrupted me again.
"See? That means she hasn't committed herself to you yet." I gave him a dark look.
"She promised." I said. "She promised she'd marry me."
"Well, then you should've put a ring on it. Otherwise, at the moment, she's a single lady." (AN: LOL!)
"She's not. She's with me." I said. "She has been for eighteen years!"
"Talk about possessing your girl much." He said, the happy voice he was using was really irritating me. My hands were already clenched but they tightened, if that was even possible.
"Get out." I said. He shrugged left the house. When he was gone, I had to fight the urge not to open it again and kill him right there and then. So I went to the couch and lay down, I saw a first aid kit… weird, I never had one in the house. Even if I did, it wouldn't be out.
I could smell alcohol and blood burning my nose. Why in the hell would it be out? I didn't see a single scratch on her, even if they were, they would've been gone by the time we got home. I assumed that Nessie possibly punched Seth and he needed it to stop irritating.
My head was pounding, I didn't know why. So much happened today, I made preparations for the date, I hear Leah's pregnant, then I suddenly get a call from Seth that Nessie was drowning, and then suddenly I hear one of my best friends is in love with my girlfriend. What kind of a day is this?
Suddenly, the phone started ringing. I groaned and picked it up, thank God I had cordless phones in the house. I pressed the speaker button.
"Hello?" I asked in a groggy voice.
"JACOB!" a high pitched voice asked. My eyes went wide.
"Alice?!" I asked. "What are you doing—,"
"Is Nessie okay? Did she drown?" Confusion swept over my face.
"No, she's fine… where did… who told you about that?" I asked.
"I… I could be wrong but, I saw her in my vision today of her drowning… not only that, I saw other things that happened too!" I sat up, interested.
"How is that possible?! You can't see her in your visions!" I said.
"That's what I said… how is this possible?!"
Renesmee Cullen
I walked into the costume room at school, it was Wednesday, a day before show night. We had to change the day a day back with Mrs. Verdonk being a strict Christian. Don't get me wrong, I loved Jesus and God but I wasn't sure if showing a play on Good Friday would be considered a sin. I have also been getting weird comments about Seth and me.
"Here are the costumes." I said putting the last two boxes on the table. I ordered them from Alice and I got them from the post office this morning. I didn't get a chance to look at them, I went straight to school after that.
"Thanks." Mr. Greene said to me marking them off the check list.
"I quit." I said. He looked at me.
"What?" he said with wide eyes.
"I can't work here. You don't need me anymore, anyways." I walked down the hall.
"What if they don't fit?!" he called.
"Not my problem anymore."
"CULLEN!" he called. I didn't turn.
Seth Clearwater
Nessie and I haven't talked since yesterday. I haven't fazed either, I called Drake to take my shift, anything to stay away from Jake. The whole school has been treating me weirdly as well. Adrene wouldn't even look at me, not that I wanted her to. The popular jerk player boys also were smiling at me a lot more. They laughed and even offered to sit with me at lunch. They kept asking me weird questions like "how was last night?" and "how did it feel?" No one would answer me when I asked what it was they were referring to.
Mr. Greene passed me my costume, it was dress rehearsal. Thank God, my days with Adrene were almost over.
I looked at it, there was a note on it "You were first." It was in Nessie's handwriting.
I had to wait until break to look for Nessie, I couldn't find her. I found David instead.
"David, where's Nessie?" I asked. He frowned.
"She quit. What did you do?" he asked.
"Nothing." I lied.
"Well, the whole school is talking about how you got some yesterday." I looked at him.
"What?!" I asked. Adrene walked up to me and slapped me.
"HOW COULD YOU?!" she asked.
"How could I what?" I asked.
"I know that I made Nessie angry about the birthday present I gave her, that doesn't mean she actually had to use them, especially on you!" she said.
"What do you mean?" I really needed an answer.
"DID YOU HAVE SEX WITH RENESMEE LAST NIGHT?!" My mouth hung open as the whole stage went silent for an answer.
"No." I said finally, after who knows how long. Adrene glared at me.
"Look into my eyes and tell me that." She said.
"I don't see why I should." I said, crossing my arms.
"You're mine." I shook my head.
"No. I never was, and never will be." She crossed her arms and gave me a dirty look. I bent to her level and said it to her face. "I. Did. Not. Have. Sex. With. Renesmee. Last. Night. And. You. Are. Not. My. Girlfriend. I. Do. Not. Love. You." She pouted and left to the front of the stage to get her water.
I just went to the boy's dressing room, stupid school couldn't afford one for everyone. I leaned back against the wall and I felt tears coming into my eyes. I haven't cried for a long time, it felt like years.
I was in love with Nessie, and I knew she didn't love me back. She loved Jacob and she was going to marry him. I really wished that I found my imprint so I wouldn't have to go through this pain. Not only that, my sister was pregnant with one of my best friend's kid! Hell, they weren't even married yet.
What if… Nessie got pregnant with Jake's kid before they got married? I knew she couldn't be right now. They haven't slept together, but Jake wanted to. It was written all over his thoughts, every thought and feeling, he was imagining having it. I never said much because I wanted that feeling too, but did I want it with Nessie? Did I want that rumor that someone spread around the school to be true? Did I really want to sleep with Renesmee? And did I want it that night that I told her I loved her?
Renesmee Cullen
"Jake," I groaned into the phone. I got a damn answering machine, he was probably sleeping. I didn't even bother going for his cell phone. "Um… is it possible that we could have the date tomorrow? I know, it's show night but… I um… quit and I don't want to watch it. I know you want to see it, but I can play it in your head if you want…um… call me." I hung up and buried my head in my hands.
I got fired from work today. Well, laid off was more of an appropriate work considering how a costumer claimed they saw a mouse in the kitchen. I was cool with it. I was getting tired of work anyways. Charlie was there when I got to work about the mouse thing. He was actually the one to close it down. He reassured me that I'd find a new job but I told him that I truthfully didn't even need the money. I could see Charlie was disappointed that I wouldn't be bringing dinner home anymore from Grant.
I remembered I needed to go hunting so I grabbed my coat and I started to run to the forests. I drank a lot more than usual and I was feeling a little sick when I was done so I had to lie down for a while. It was dark by the time Jacob tried calling me on my cell.
"Yeah?" I asked.
"Nessie, you okay?" he asked.
"I drank too much blood, that's all." I assured him.
"Nessie, you know you're not supposed to do that. Do you want me to come and find you?"
"No, I'm fine. I'll be home soon." There was a pause.
"Okay… call me if you need me." I was about to hang up. "Oh, and Nessie… I don't want to watch Seth sing as much as I wanted to, I can watch in Embry's thoughts or something, sure we can have the date tomorrow… it makes it more special."
"What do you mean?" I asked.
"Don't tell me you forgot!" he said. I felt bad, what was so important that I forgot.
"What?" I asked. I could see him rolling his eyes.
"Forget it. You'll see. I'll let you think about it." I was glad he gave me that opportunity.
"Thanks." I said. "I love you." He sighed.
"I love you, too." Then I hung up.
The grass was cool and comforting… I didn't have much to think about… all I knew was my life was falling apart: like shattering glass, as I walked over it, my feet bled and stung like it should've.
So many things are happening all at once: Seth was in love with me, and I could see in his actions and eyes, he wants to sleep with me, Leah's pregnant, I was going to be possibly killed by the Volturi and worst of all… Jacob and I were falling apart as we knew it…
AN: Depressing chapter… hm… well, I'm going to have the date in the next chapter. =D Any where you want Nessie and Jake to go (Don't worry, I have special things rolling up my sleeve, I just need some things to lead up to it) AND PLEASE WRITE LONG REVIEWS! I LIKE THOSE! What's ur fav part? Team Seth or Team Jake? REVIEW
