AN: Hey, SO sorry I didn't update sooner! After I posted up the next chapter, I had to go on a retreat for my grade 8 graduation prep. ALL the votes were tied… so I decided what I'm going to do: and you have to read this to know!

So much happened over the last time I posted anything… while I wasn't writing, I was writing on my BLOG about stuff. So here's what happened over my life if you care: I started crushing on the guy I slow danced with, now I don't and he REALLY likes me and I want to break up with him now since he's my bf now(Sorry if he's reading this… we need to talk… don't kill me… or yourself, don't hurt yourself… call me if you want to talk). I confronted the so called popular girls because I figured that they were just using me for juicy gossip even if they denied it. That's pretty much it, and I graduated.

Breaking Eclipse: Renesmee and Jacob

Chapter 25: Fear

Renesmee Cullen

I didn't know what to do. I couldn't talk to anyone about it. Jacob and I haven't talked for the longest time. I lost track of it, because it goes by so slowly. I don't talk to Seth either, but he understood why. He tried calling my phone in the beginning, but then he stopped. I guess he figured he shouldn't bother considering I would never talk to him, regardless if I was angry at him or not. I'm sure Seth got the busy signal more than me not answering since I've tried calling Jacob's house so many times. Every time, I got no answer. I've left so many voice messages that the whole thing was full. Then I just hung up when I got "Hi, It's Jacob. Kinda busy right now, leave a message." Quil told me that he hasn't phased for a while, so maybe that was why he never answered his phone.

I couldn't talk to anyone about this. Claire was too busy with her new babies that she had last week, twins. She named them Susan and Carter Attera. Leah was still having thoughts about abortion and Kevin was still debating whether or not to forget about College and just marry Leah. Babies, babies, babies! What was with Quileutes now a days?

Charlie could tell I was depressed and he said he wanted to see me go out more or else he'd send me to Alaska to live with the rest of my family. So when I told him I was going to see friends, I would just go some place alone. Like the beach, the forests, the meadow… sometimes the lonesome parks where Emmett or Jacob and I used to hang out. Now, I would just sit on the swings and sway a little.

One day, after telling Charlie I was sleeping over and babysitting Alex at Emily and Sam's house, I really went to the old house I used to live in before I moved in with Charlie, and cried my eyes out.

Every night, I slept alone, I ate alone, I had to use a blanket because wrapping my own arms around myself wasn't comforting enough. I stopped hunting too, because I was afraid that I would see Jacob and he would yell at me. Not that I didn't deserve it, I mean, I deserved everything that happened to me. I deserved to die, I just hurt the one I love and I'm in love with the one who protected me from dying even before I was born. The only thing I didn't deserve was Jacob's ring.

I shouldn't have had Seth protect me, then I wouldn't have fallen in love with him, not been able to hurt my fiancée, or him… it was wrong of me to stay with Seth when we both wanted such different things.

Other then crying, I did a lot of thinking. I thought mostly about suicide: starving to death, going to the Volturi myself, maybe stabbing myself a few times would do the trick. Other than that, I thought about the pain I put Jacob in. Would he want the ring back? Of course he doesn't want to marry anymore. Why would he if I was in love with one of his best friends? He had no idea that I loved him more than Seth.

I eventually got so desperate that I started sleeping in Jacob's bed so I could smell his scent. I tried not to cry to wipe the scent off.

One day, I woke up and Jacob was there in bed with me. His eyes were closed so I thought he was sleeping. I got up figuring that he wouldn't want me there in the morning, but then he grabbed my hand.

"Don't… please, don't leave me…" he whispered. I looked at him, his still closed but then opened showing his beautiful brown eyes. He looked like he meant it. I sighed.

"Do you really want me here?" I asked, not sure if he was just tired and wasn't thinking.

"I'll always want you." He said, louder, now awake. I didn't move at first then lay beside him. I turned to face him and put my hands on his face. He sighed and closed his eyes when I did.

"Get some sleep," I said.

"Promise you won't leave?" he asked.

"If you don't want me to." He shook his head.

"Well, if you have to go in the morning then let's talk now." I bit my lip. We were silent seeing who would speak first. I decided to.

"Jacob, I love you more than anything else—,"

"It doesn't matter now." He interrupted me. That confused me. It didn't matter that I loved him more then Seth?

"What do you… I don't understand." I said. He rolled his eyes, like the answer was obvious.

"The only important thing is that you're in danger, I want to help." I sat up on the bed and Jacob turned the bedside lamp on.

"Jake, the only reason why I've been doing all this is to protect you! You can't just throw away—,"

"I'm not going to let you die, Nessie!" he said in a hard voice. I almost flinched, but I didn't because I expected it.

"I have to, Jacob!" I said back, using the same tone.

"Do you want to die?"

"If that's what it takes to keep you safe then, yes! It's either I die and everyone's safe or I run and everyone dies, including me." He rolled his eyes.

"This isn't about me! This is about you!" he yelled. "But if you're going to include me, let's make it a party. How about Seth?" I grunted.

"Fine!" I said. "Lets say that I'm a horrible person for bringing Seth into the danger I've been in. For not telling you about me getting killed and for saying yes to marrying you!"

He was silent for a second so I guessed that was all he wanted to hear. So then I took off the ring on my hand, expecting that he would want it back. I held it to his face, he just stared at it. I rolled my eyes.

"Take it, Jake. It's not mine."

"Why'd you even say yes?" he mumbled, softer now. I went to the same level he did.

"I never knew that this would come so quickly. I thought I would have time… but I don't." he sighed.

"Time is the problem?" he said, not yelling. Just soft, as before.

"I'm dying already, Jake. Take it, it's your mom's and I have no use for it if I can't marry you." I tried to put the ring on the bedside table, instead he took it into his big hands. It looked so big compared to the ring, I thought he could crush it into dust if he wanted. But he just looked at it then at me.

"It is yours. It always has been. And if you think we can't get married, then marry me tonight… right now!" I stared at him for a minute wondering if he was joking. He had a straight face, dead serious.

"Now? Just you me and the pastor?" he nodded.

"I never wanted a big wedding anyways." I sighed and shook my head.

Then my cell phone began to ring. I looked at Jacob, he wasn't looking at me but he had a hard face on. I sighed and answered.

"Yes?" I said into it. Jacob finally looked at me but I looked away pretending not to be interested. He put the ring on the bedside table while he was at it.

"Renesmee," They said. I nodded as if they could hear me. "We just wanted to let you know when we're coming." I took a deep breath.

"Okay, when?" I said, now holding my breath for an answer.

"There are some complications now that we've discussed some things with the Volturi…Things they want to do before they deal with you."

"What is that supposed to mean?" They sighed.

"It means that we're going to let you go." My eyes widened and Jacob's face turned fast to me, him hearing the news.

"Really?" I asked.

"For a while…" my smile faded a little.

"Oh… for how long?"

"I don't know for sure. Could be a week… a month… a year, maybe ten." Jacob's eye brows raised and he took the phone from me.

"Is this some joke?" Jacob asked into the phone, his voice trying to sound angry, but was obviously happy and a little relieved at this.

"Ah, Jacob Black!" Jacob rolled his eyes.

"I know my own name." He said. "Answer the damn question." Unknown ignored his rudness and told him.

"No jokes, Jacob." They said. "The Volturi just think they have some more important things to do at the moment then go to Washington."

"Like what?"

"You don't have to know, Jacob. Private things." I smiled, Jacob didn't just yet. He sighed.

"Can you please just give us a warning and tell us when you're coming by?"

"I'm sure you're physic will know by the time the moment is decided." Jacob finally smiled. "See you soon." And Jacob hung up.

I threw myself into Jacob's arms and I was on top of him on the bed. I kissed his fiercely and he kissed me back with the same passion. I was about to put my tongue in his mouth when he pushed me away. I frowned.

"Wait," he said breathlessly. "What about Seth?" I shook my head.

"I chose you, Jake." He raised one eye brow. "Seth isn't my imprint, if I chose him, he'd leave me one day. I can't live without my soul mate, Seth isn't him… Seth isn't you." He smiled widely and attacked my lips again.

We were so happy, just being together, with each other… Unknown will be gone for a while, which means that for now, Jacob will be safe. Of course, everyone will be on the lookout until they come by… but maybe we can wait for a while. It doesn't matter as long as my Jacob is safe.

Jacob eventually flipped us over so he was on top. I don't remember much, just him taking off his shirt and I asked what he was doing.

"Is this alright?" he said. "I'm just so happy and I want—," I nodded immediately.

"Yeah, Jacob. Of course, I want to do this." Jacob took the ring in his hands again and put it back into its proper place. And with that, our clothes were on the floor.

It was the best night of my life… with many more to come. I knew I picked the right one.

AN: Awe :) I love that last part. I'm going to have one last chapter before the next book. That's my agreement with the tie. This isn't the last chapter, but the next book is coming soon. REVIEW REVIEW!