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Chapter 4

"So, what do we do now?" I asked Carlisle, "Because we're still out in the middle of nowhere and it's starting to get cold". "I'm not sure" he murmured and then took another step closer so our bodies were almost touching and I could feel the chill that was clinging to him. "Put your hands in my pockets" he said.

I'm sorry I think I must of passed out, and I'm at home in bed … dreaming because I could of sworn that Carlisle Cullen the blissfully oblivious star of all my fantasies had just asked me to put my hands in his jacket pockets - someone please pinch me. "What" I practically spat - nice swan, real nice - lets woo him with your manners. I was looking right at him now and I'm pretty sure yep there it goes, the twitch in the right corner of his lips just developed into a fully fledged Cullen crooked smile. "I want you" he said taking an unnecessary breath "to put your hands in my pockets" he said still with that crooked smile on his lips.

Okay, I'm pretty sure I was really gaping now so Carlisle being the gentlemen he is, he took the hand he was already holding and put it in his pocket and then reached out and grasped my free hand and placed it in his other pocket. "There now, your hands should warm up soon enough and we can continue on our conversation". "You mean were not going to the car now?" I asked and mentally slapped myself - way to go again swan, he probably thinks you can't wait to get rid of him… quick say something. "Not that I want to - I was just asking… in case we were" ok scratch that stop talking, shut up - your embarrassing yourself.

"Are you not going to ask me Bella?". "Ask you what, Carlisle?" I said puzzled by his question. Carlisle brought his hands up towards my face and I felt my heartbeat get that bit faster which he seemed to pick up on as he changed the direction of his hands to my shoulders instead. "About Edward, Bella and why he isn't the one here right now, holding you like he should be". I took my time to think about this and answered as honestly as I could "No Carlisle, I am not going to ask why Edward isn't here because if he was meant to be then he would be, but he isn't and so he obviously wasn't". "And besides" I said, feeling a lot braver than I had in a long while "Why would I need him when I have you here?"