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Chapter 12
BPOV
I sang along with the radio as I drove to school, part of me knew it was wrong to be this happy when what I was doing could cause so much hurt. But the other part of me felt so free, and for once in my life I felt young - not older than my 18 years that I had become accustomed to. I smiled as I thought back to all the wonderful things he had said to me this morning as well as the mind blowing kisses he had given me. I wondered how it could be possible not to love Carlisle, he was so open with love - both his feelings and his touch. With Edward everything was so scattered, I knew he loved me and he told me so, more times than I could count - but I need more than declarations, I need physical intimacy and that is something Edward could never seem to allow me. How could you love someone when you were barely allowed to touch them?
I sighed as I pulled into the school parking lot and set about finding an empty place, except that wasn't necessary as I caught sight of Alice standing in front of her Porsche with an empty space beside it. I couldn't't help it, I groaned - I know Carlisle said that she was fine with us, but it wasn't going to make me feel less awkward that she knew - at least for the moment. I pulled my truck into the empty space beside Alice and was just about to turn the engine off, when the drivers side door was yanked open.
"Don't you groan at me Bella Swan, I know you feel awkward - but that's fine because you'll get over it, until then learn to deal" Alice said, her pixie like face serious for once. I couldn't't help but smile as I said "Seriously Alice, could you at least wait until I turn the engine off before you start to lecture me?" She pouted and then grinned at me "Nope, you take too long" she said. I laughed and said "Aww Isn't that nice, pick on the human, Carlisle would be ashamed of you." "Well" Alice said with a grin "You would know all about what Carlisle wants, wouldn't you Bella" I could feel my cheeks burning as I chose to ignore her comment as I turned the engine off and took the key out of the ignition. "Come on, come on - we've got lots to talk about before the others get here" Alice said bouncing up and down. "Well in that case you'd better move that Pixie ass of your's hadn't you?" I told her as I grabbed my bag. She gave a mock growl, then grinned and stepped back to let me get out.
"So, where we gong to have this chat" I asked her after I had got out and locked the truck. "Somewhere quiet" she told me as she grabbed my hand and lead me in the direction of the trees. Its rather ironic, the same place where I confronted Edward on what he was and where our relationship changed forever, was now going to be the place where Alice and I were going to talk about my secret relationship with her father. Alice turned to me and smiled "Try not to dwell on it, things will become a lot clearer than they are now - you'll see" she said. I thought about what she said as we approached the trees, "Right, this will do" she said coming to a stop next to an old log on the outskirts of the forest.
I looked at the log in question "This?" I asked her. "Yes - this" and sat gracefully down on it. I shrugged and sat down beside her. "So" she said turning to me with a serious look on her face "What are your intentions?" "Excuse me" I spluttered. "Well, I want to know what you plan on doing with my father…. Well not everything obviously - because that would be wrong, but you get what I mean" she said. "Well not really" I said slowly. She let out a sigh "Do you plan on stringing him along and breaking his heart" she asked. "What….. no!" I shouted. "Good" she said "In that case I fully support and promise to do all I can to help you." I was touched by her kindness and what she was risking helping me, I reached forward and pulled her into a tight hug "Thank you Alice!" I whispered. "Your welcome" she told me softly.
I let go of her and sat back "So, not to complain or anything - but that's it, no big lecture or anything?" I asked her. "Bella, If I know you - which I do, very well in fact - I know you're probably doing a fair bit of that yourself" she said. Most of the time - the fact that I'm so easy to read annoys me, but this time Its nice not to have to say it out loud. However just then something occurred to me, does that mean she agreed with mine and Carlisle's decision not to tell the others? "Alice….." I started. "I'm not sure about it Bella" she told me. "Well what have you seen?" I asked her, she looked a bit uneasy at my question and I panicked "Is it bad?" I asked. "No…it's just very changeable at the moment - there doesn't seem to be a set course yet" she said. "But it will work out won't it" I asked her. She looked at me, smiled and said "We won't let it not." I was about to tell her how grateful I was when she suddenly gazed off into the trees, a blank look upon her face. "Alice, what's wrong" I asked her. She seemed to shake herself out of it "It's the others" she said "There going to be here any minute."
"Edward?" I asked her. "Yes he's with them" she told me. Oh god, what do I do? Will he be able to tell what I've done, Would he be able to smell Carlisle on me…. "Bella, stop - it's fine, Edward doesn't know. He tried to talk to Carlisle this morning - but he had already gone to your house, as far as Edward knows he was working an early shift at the hospital" she said. I let out a breath, I could do this - I could, Think of Carlisle and the trust he has in you… and Alice think of her and what she's risking too. I took a deep breath "Okay" I said. I could do this - I had to. "They've just pulled into the parking lot" Alice said "There getting out - they know where we are." I felt my heartbeat quicken. I looked back towards the school and watched as two figures started to make their way towards us.
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