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Chapter 13
I watched as Edward and Jasper approached us and I couldn't help but wonder how this would turn out when I felt a wave of calm settle over me, I glanced at Jasper and he gave me a small smile. Great Jasper knows too, I wonder is it actually going to be possible for me to have a secret ever again? I spared a quick glance at Alice as I prepared myself and then he was in front of me.
"Bella" he whispered, getting down on his knees before me "I am so sorry" so am I, I thought to myself "I know I shouldn't have gotten angry because you went to see Jacob" he continued "Is there any way you can forgive me?" His eyes were so full of sorrow that I couldn't help but feel the vicious irony of the situation because if anyone should be asking for forgiveness it was me "There is nothing to forgive" I told him quietly. He smiled that crooked smile of his as he stood up and I felt my heart clench. He wrapped his arms around my waist and pulled me closer to him, he lowered his head towards mine - oh god he's going to kiss me I thought franticly. "Edward" Alice called and he stopped moving. "What Alice" he said still keeping his face close to mine. "We have go get to class now, otherwise Bella's going to be late" she said just as the bell rang. He let me go and pulled away as Alice grabbed his arm "Come on brother dear, I have some things I want to talk to you about" she said pulling him away "Jasper will walk Bella to class, won't you Jasper." I glanced at the blond vampire standing behind Edward "Sure I will" he said giving me a smile. "See, all sorted - now lets go" Alice said as she pulled Edward away with her. "I'll see you at lunch" he called back to me and then they were gone leaving me alone with Jasper.
We stood there looking at each other when he said "Alice wasn't kidding about being late for class Bella" he said. "What happens if I don't want to go to class Jasper?" I asked. He tilted his head a little to the left and said "Then you don't go to class." I smiled tentatively at him "You wouldn't make me?" I asked. "Well…" he said pausing to think about it "I could probably try, but I don't think that would make any difference - you being you and all." I laughed "Your probably right" I told him sitting down on the log Alice had recently vacated. "So what are we doing?" Jasper asked as he came to sit by me. "We?" I asked him. "Yes, me and you - you don't think I'm going to leave you on your own do you?" he asked me. "I guess not" I said.
"So, lets start with an obvious question" he said. "Obvious away" I told him - ok that sounded so much better in my head than it did saying it out loud. "How do you feel Bella?" he asked, and I have to admit I was surprised at the question - given the fact he probably knew how I felt better than I did, but I decided to answer him anyway. "It's probably a mixture of guilt and happiness" I told him. "How so?" he asked me. "Well, I feel happy because I've never felt love this natural before. With Edward there was so many rules and stipulations and with Carlisle I can just be myself and not be afraid about how he's going to act if I do something he doesn't like." I paused for a moment to think about my next answer… "I feel guilt for the obvious reasons" I told him, "The main one being that I fell in love with someone who already has someone else who is deeply in love with him. The next is the fact that I have to lie about it to someone who loves me deeply and that I can't love him back the way he deserves. And finally the fact that this whole situation could destroy your family and I feel responsible for that Jasper - I really do."
He smiled at me "Bella, the heart is an amazing thing - even if it is broken as long as your will to carry on is still there, it will try to work. Esme will forgive you - maybe not right away, but she will it's who she is. I'm not sure of all the details but things with her and Carlisle aren't as perfect as they seem from the outside. Then the Edward problem, that will not be easy but if he loves you - which he does then he won't want you to be unhappy. And as for the family falling apart - we wouldn't be very much of a family if we let that happen would we? There may be some short term problems Bella - But in the long run things will work out."
I sat there and thought about what he said and yes I'll admit there are a lot of problems - but both him and Alice agree that if we stick together and see this through - that everything will work out. For now that would be enough for me, after all you'd never catch me betting against Alice. "Better?" he asked.
"Yes" I told him smiling "But you know what I really want now?" I asked him. He laughed and patted my leg fondly "I do" he said, "Maybe you should go and get it." I stood up "But what about class?" I asked him. "Once in a while doesn't hurt" he replied. I laughed and I felt the excitement build in my chest "Thanks Jasper" I told him as I started running towards the truck. I heard him laugh "Your welcome" he shouted, "But be careful you really don't fall down." I smiled to myself as I carried on running.
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I took a deep breath as I walked into the hospital and headed towards the reception desk clutching my arm to my stomach. The receptionist looked up as I approached "Hi, I think I've sprained my arm when I fell over" I told her. "Name?" she asked. "Isabella Swan" I told her whilst doing my best "I'm in pain face." she typed my details into the computer "And Doctor Cullen would be your doctor, yes?" she asked. "Yes he would" I told her. "Okay, just take a seat and a nurse will come by soon to take you to see the doctor" she said. I nodded and walked over to the waiting area and sat down. I sat there nervously staring at my feet when I heard someone clear there throat. I looked up to find a nurse standing in front of me "Miss Swan" she asked. "Yes that's me" I replied. "If you want to follow me to an exam room please" she said. I stood up slowly remembering to keep my arm clutched to my stomach and followed her.
I kept my eyes on the ground as we made our way down the hall towards the exam rooms, I didn't want to risk actually hurting myself now that I had gotten this far. "Right" she said, I looked up and we came to a stop outside a door with exam room 2 marked on it, "If you just want to go in" she said holding the door open for me. I slipped past her into the room and she let the door close with a click. She walked past me "Right, if you just want to take a seat on the bed while I ask you some questions"" she said. Questions? Crap. After I sat down she pulled a stool up in front of me and sat down. "So, how did you sprain your arm Bella?" she asked. " I was running late for school this morning and when I tried to run to get there quicker, I fell and I put my arm out to stop myself from falling and landed funny on it." I told her while thinking Liar, liar pants on fire. She nodded and wrote it down "And where does it hurt?" she asked. Erm … "My wrist, I think it must of twisted a bit when I landed on it" I told her. She looked up "Not your arm?" she asked … double crap. "Well my arm hurts… but I think it's my wrist that's making my arm hurt?" I told her, my voice sounding uncertain even to me. "Uh huh" she said while writing more down, "Right well if you don't mind I'm going to have a quick look at your arm" she said standing up and putting my chart down. "Nope" I squeaked, ok that's it I was done for I thought as I watched her put some gloves on. Charlie was going to kill me when he finds out that I was lying to hospital staff.
She came and stood in front of me and touched my forearm and asked "Can you raise your arm please Bella?" I gave her a pained expression "Well I can" I said showing her "But only to here" gesturing to chest level "After that it hurts" I added. "Okay" she said "Now, I'm just going to try and move your wrist - if it hurts tell me, okay honey?" I nodded. She lightly pressed my hand back towards my arm "Ow" I said and then she started to rotate it "OW, okay stop, that really hurts" I told her. She stopped and took her gloves off "You've obviously pulled something" she said "Doctor Cullen will be here in a few minutes to have a look at it for you" she said while throwing her gloves in the bin and picking up my chart. "Thank you" I told her "I'm sorry to be a pain." she smiled and wished me better soon - then left.
I let out a sigh of relief, that was close I thought as I got down off the bed and went to look out of the window. I'm not sure how long I had stood there watching the people below when I heard the door open and close behind me. "Bella" a voice asked "Have you been hurting yourself again?" I turned around and watched as Carlisle walked towards me, the concern obvious in his eyes. I took a step forward "Well, would it be terribly wrong of me if I said not really?" I asked him. He came to a stop in front of me "I don't understand" he said "The nurse said you sprained your arm." I gave him a wicked smile "I lied" I said simply. He looked confused "Why would you lie?" he asked. "Well you see" I said slowly, taking a hold of his tie and pulling him closer "There's this really hot doctor I like and I'm too nervous to tell him that I like him, so instead I thought I'd come and get to know him at work first" I said. He gave me a slow smile, catching on to what I was doing "Really" he said "Do I know him?" he asked while letting me pull him closer still. "You might have seen him" I said coyly. "Really, when?" he asked while bringing his face level with mine. "This morning" I told him, "When you looked in the mirror." He chuckled softly "Minx" he whispered as he pressed his lips to mine. I've gotta say, if skipping school is always this good, I'm definitely going to be doing it more often I thought as I wrapped my arms around has neck and deepened the kiss.
A/N A bit of sugar for all my sweeties - remember, the more love I get - then the more you get ;-)
