"Forever My Soul"

The darkest quickening I ever felt was an evil
I wished to be spared.
Jim, my friend was in torment and pain; I saw no
way for his release.
I pleaded to him, "Let me help you." because I
knew I had to try.
I wanted to do what he once did long ago as
Hayoka man for me.
He fought me instead with his anger and blade,
pierced my heart with his hate.
So my soul said, "Don't hurt him." While my mind
said, "You must."
As our duel continued on and it became clear to me,
I hated what was done to him.
The tears could not be spared this time if I was
to help him on his way.
When the moment arrived, although I did hesitate,
out of love, knowing what had to be done.
I looked into his eyes hoping to see his
redemption there.
Finding its absence I couldn't stop my sword
from its final justice.
The last sane thought I had before the dark
quickening began,
"It is finished, my friend. Go in peace, for now
I must take your place."
The darkness over took me then as the essence
grabbed my soul.
A voice filled my mind and taunted this phrase,
"It isn't finished, but just begun!"
The lightening made me over and changed my soul
into becoming hate.
The fire arose all around me and I enjoyed its
power and heat.
"They will fear me now!" My heart rejoiced as I
held my sword up high.
My delight for this capacity grew and found no
limit as a devil's child.
My mission was there amongst the weak, I could
finally indulge in crime.

I wanted to hurt and kill them all, and anyone
else in my way.
My evil eyes and grin betrayed what I had become,
the monster I used to fear.
I hurt them for pleasure, I hurt them for sport, I
hurt them because I could.
I fought with the one who used to be here and
wanted his soul returned.
I had his soul and body now and forever would
always be mine.
He tried to call his friends to help but I knew
what to carry out.
I made them fear me, I saw them cower, I laughed
at their stupidity.
Sean trusted the old Duncan and held out his
hand in faith.
His voice tried to sway me, his eyes looked into
me, as a friend I saw him now.
I felt the evil fearing him tremble, so I had to
kill him, and quick.
The horror of my deed pleased me, but the darkness
from that moment on.
Pulled back enough to let me feel the pain of
killing my once dear friend.
The sky turned black that day reflecting on the
darkness in my soul.
I then returned to my home in despair, searching
for those memories of peace.
Going to a church that I once knew, I thought
I saw Darius there.
Missing his company and advice because I needed
him now, more than ever.
In the sanctuary room I stood and screamed, "What
Have I Become!"
"What I was, is it truly gone?" I needed the
answers from someone.
I lay on the floor and cried to God, "Help me if
you can, I can't exist like this!"
I wanted Death to come for me, but I feared
its knowing touch.
I was the rope that evil tugged with righteous on
the boundary.

Methos found me there alone and coaxed me to
follow him away.
He took me to a small Holy spring where evil
didn't want to be.
He held before me a sword, that sword of my
ancient clan family.
If I wanted to be whole again, I had to claim it
and make it my own.
I went down to the spring alone and tried not to
fear its light.
It called to me as I drew near and felt the
comfort of a mother's arms.
I stepped into its depths and let the pureness
washed over me.
But I had to love myself first, before its magic
could work inside me.
The evil did not want to leave and fought
desperately for my soul.
Telling me, "Give up because you cannot kill now
what you have become."
But I summoned up all that I knew was good and
killed the evil within.
As the evil pulled free it tried to escape the
burning surface of the spring.
Holding out my arms I embraced the light as
it washed over me.
A voice inside my heart whispered, "Go in peace,
it is truly finished now."
I stepped from the water with a feeling of what
it was to be pure.
Freed from the evil when it dwelt in me, I was
ready, now, to proclaim.

"FOREVER IT IS MY SOUL!"