As ALWAYS THE VAMPIRE ACADEMY SERIES AND CHARACTERS BELONG TO RICHELLE MEAD. THANK YOU GUYS FOR THE REVIEWS…..I AM SOOOO SORRY I MADE SOME OF YOU SAD…I PROMISE IT WILL GET BETTER………HAPPY READING.

TERRI


CHAPTER 4

ROSE'S POV

As I sat on the floor crying, Lissa kneeled down beside me and wrapped her arms around me.

"Rose, I wish I could use spirit to make all of your pain go away." She whispered.

I looked up at her. "I know you would Lissa. I loved him so much. How am I to fulfill his last wish?"

"It's just going to take time to heal. The hurt will subside eventually. You will have the memories of the two of you forever. No amount of time can take those from you. Always cherish those memories and hold onto them tightly. But, eventually you will be able to

move forward. Believe me Rose, I should know what I am talking about." Lissa hugged me even tighter.

I felt so many emotions pour through the bond into me love, worry, fear, and devotion. But, mostly love. I could never ask for a better person in my life. Lissa is the foundation of who I am as a person. I knew she was right about moving on. I have only been back

for six weeks. Although life is moving forward and our changing futures were on the horizon. I hadn't had a chance to properly grieve and I owed it to myself to do just that.

Lissa and I laid on my bed in the dark with the only the sounds of my soft cries. She just kept her arms around me until I eventually found sleep. For the first time in six weeks I slept without nightmares.

The next morning I woke with swollen eyes and a dry, scratchy throat. Lissa went to the sink and got me a glass of water. She leaned over and kissed my forehead.

"Rose, I hate to leave you. Will you be okay while I go to class?"

I just shook my head not trusting the sound of my own voice. I wanted her to go……I needed time alone. I appreciated the fact that she was here for me, But i needed to do the rest of my grieving privately.

LISSA'S POV

I really hope Rose can pull through all this intact. She is the strongest person I have ever known and if anyone could do it, it would be Rose. I thought to myself as I made my way through the morning classes. I am so thankful there are only five more weeks

until we graduate, then Me, Rose, Christian and Adrian will be at court and going to college. I can't wait for freedom and independence. Our new life is something to be excited about and Rose will have no choice but to be happy.

I walked over to our table in the cafeteria. Adrian was sitting alone. Christian and Eddie's classes must be running behind schedule.

"Hey Cousin, Where's Rose? Adrian asked puzzled.

Its true that no one would know about the package Rose received and I wasn't sure if it was my place to divulge that information. However, Adrian is a friend of Rose also. It was at this point that Eddie and Christian found their way to our table. I proceeded to

tell them about the events that happened yesterday.

Everyone sat in silence. After a few minutes Adrian grabbed my arm and ask. " Do you think I should go see Rose?"

" I am not sure Adrian. Maybe you can give her some time, She needs to come to terms with this own her own." I said.

Adrian just nodded his head and then the bell rang. We all made our way to our afternoon classes.

I noticed Adrian walking away. He hasn't been acting like himself for the last couple days. I walked over to him and tapped his shoulder.

" Why do you seem so down lately? It's so not like you. I don't even smell booze on your breath." I laughed trying to make a joke.

Adrian gave me a weak smile, " I am just worried about Rose."

" Yeah, We all are Adrian." I replied

" No Cousin, You don't understand. I love her." He whispered.

I had heard stories about him having feelings for Rose but…WOW!! My mouth suddenly flew open and I swear my jaw hit the floor.

ADRIAN'S POV

Lissa was staring at me. " What?" I asked perturbed.

"AH….Nothing…Wait…What did you just say?" Lissa asked.

" You heard me Cousin, I love Rose and not that it makes a difference. Let's just drop it. I'm leaving. I think I hear a vodka bottle calling me name." I said sarcastically.

I left Lissa standing in the hallway. Wide eyed and jaw on the floor. I really didn't have time for this shit I thought to myself. I got back to my room, grabbed my vodka bottle and took a long drink. I promised Rose I would quit drinking, but she never agreed to

anything so I thought… FUCK IT…. I AM GETTING WASTED.

My head was spinning and my mind was working overtime. Poor me…..Adrian Ivashkov finally realizing what it feels like to have a broken heart and not to be able to have what you want more than anything in the world. It's been three days…three days since

anyone has seen Rose. I mean sure she let Lissa know she's still alive, but hell she won't even speak to any of us. My mind is going crazy with worry over this shit. I am so totally not equipped to deal with all this drama. It probably explains why I've been

drunk. Rose has been grieving and I have been drinking. It seems things will never get back to "normal" whatever the hell that is around this place.

"Give her time" I mumble to myself and then burst out laughing. GIVE…HER…SOME….TIME… Hell I am nothing if not a Pro at giving Rose time. I figured at this point, It's late, I'm smashed and I was going to try to get some sleep. I tried to find Rose in a dream,

but she was no where to be found.

Suddenly I was awakened with frantic pounding on my door.


SORRY THE CHAPTER WASN'T REAL LONG.

WONDER WHO IS POUNDING ON THE DOOR?

WILL ADRIAN NEED ANOTHER DRINK? OR WILL HE BE SURPRISED?