Chapter 1

Nick's POV

17 years later...

I wipe the tears from my eyes as I fling myself into my room.

"Nick!" Mom calls, tears in her voice.

I lock the door and slam my fist against it.

My fist falls and I slide against the door, sobs racking my body.

"YOU STUPID MUTT!" I hear Dad yell.

I hear some crashing and I know that Dad's having an attack.

"Lottie!" I scream.

I fall over on my bed and yelp when I feel something on my back.

"PEETA! NO!" I hear Mom scream.

I block them out as I take what hit me in the ribs out from underneath me and look at it.

It's a notebook.

I recognize it as Lottie's notebook.

"NICHOLAS!" I hear Mom scream.

I ignore her as I open up the notebook with shaking hands.

Hey Nick.

I know I won't be here to tell you not to read through my notebook.

But this was meant for you.

So you don't forget all the good times we had together.

So read on!