A/N: Chapter 2! Wo0t!
I know that Bella is obsessed with Edward in the books (and movie) but I was thinking:
- After he left, she has to regain the love she had for him.
- She might of had a Boyfriend in Phoniex.
But I'm not Stephanie Meyer, therefore I don't know. Like I don't know if the chicken comes before the egg (yes, that sounded dirty in my head, too)
Lulz :) x
Chapter 2
Everything was black, I could only see a pair of golden eyes staring into mine. He stepped forward, revealing himself, as if we were under a spotlight or streetlight.
"Edward..." I whispered, wrapping my arms around him. I kissed him, passionately. We parted and I looked at him, and gasped. It was Harry. "Harry?" I questioned.
"I love you Bella." He whispered.
I bolted upwards, gasping for air. I sighed with relief when I learned it was only a dream.
"Bella?" I turned and saw Edward sat on the edge of my bed. "Did you have a nightmare?"
I sighed, wiping my eyes, "Kind of." I told him, "It was nothing." I said, lying down again and shutting my eyes.
"But you were talking in your sleep," My eyes snapped open. Crap, what had I said? Worry washed through me immediately. "Who's Harry?" He asked curiously. Crap!
I sat up again, "Harry, he's uh..." I couldn't think of an excuse, "The nightmare was when I... cliff jumped, and when Harry Clearwater had that heart attack." I lied, I felt guilty, I'd never lied to Edward about anything.
He shuffled closer to me, and kissed me. "Don't worry, that's the past." He whispered.
"Right." I said. But the past was coming back for me.
I was distant on the way to school, the dream I had was on my mind. Did it mean anything? I felt a hand on my shoulder, making me jump.
"Love, we're at school." Edward told me. I sighed and nodded, smiling weakly.
We were in English, just finishing up studying Romeo and Juliet. Of course as our teacher dragged on about love, Edward slipped a note under my hand.
You seem very distant, especially in the car, are you okay?
I picked up my pen and began writing, I'm fine Edward, honestly. I'd tell you if there was anything wrong. I slipped the note under his hand, and quickly looked to the front again.
He read the note, sighed and wrote at vampire speed. Promise me there's nothing wrong?
I hesitated, I was lying again. I hated lying to Edward. But I wrote anyway, Promise. I slipped it under his hand, and dropped my pen onto the desk.
I spent the rest of the day trying to be less distant towards Edward. He dropped me off at my house, like always promising he'd be back when Charlie was in bed.
When I got in, Charlie turned with the phone in his hand.
"Bells, I need to go to the station, I'll back a bit late." He told me.
"Okay, no problem." I told him.
When he left, I went upstairs, dumped my bag onto my bed, and ventured back downstairs. Charlie's car had gone. I went into the kitchen, and put some noddle's in a pan, simmering them.
The doorbell rang. I opened the door slowly, to find Harry.
"Hey Bella." He smiled, the dimples appearing again.
"Hi, uh... come in." I said, allowing him past.
He stood in the middle of the living room. I walked past him, and checked on the noodles. I came back into the living room, an awkard silence lingering.
"So--" Out of no where, he suddenly kissed me, passinately. I tried pushing him away, which I eventually did. "Harry, what the hell?" I snapped.
"Sorry, I--" He looked down.
I turned around and back into the kitchen. I couldn't believe he did that. But I had that feeling again - the one I only got with Harry, except after he kissed me it was stronger. It felt like butterfiles fluttering my stomach. I never got it with Edward.
I went back into the living room, and saw Harry sat on the couch now. I sat next to him,
"Sorry I did that." He whispered.
"It's... okay." It was the only word I could think of.
It was silent again, that damn awkward silence. I looked at him, the same time he looked at me.
Don't do it, don't do it, don't do it... I chanted in my head repeatedly. You love Edward!
We got closer, eventually kissing. My hand was on his cheek, and his on mine. We parted soon after, I stood up and went into the kitchen. I started crying silently to myself.
After that kiss, I realized it was Harry I loved - and not Edward.
I guess you never get over your first love.
I went back in the living room again, Harry was smiling.
"Why are you smiling?" I asked, I felt horrible.
"You kissed me."
"Don't say that." I snapped.
"But you did." He told me. "Bella, the only reason we broke up was because we both knew a long distance relationship wouldn't work, we never really stopped loving each other, I couldn't stop thinking about you. Imagine if neither of us had moved, where would we be?" He smiled.
"Together." I whispered. That made everything so much clearer.
That night, after Harry left, I sat nervously in my room, trying desperately not to cry. After waiting anxiously for an hour, and he finally came through my window.
"Hey Love." He whispered, kissing me. The guilt felt like daggers in my stomach.
I pushed him away gentley, "Stop," I said.
"Why, is something wrong?" He asked, he sounded concerned.
"Yes, there is." I told him.
"What is it, are you sick?" He asked, still concerned.
"No, I'm not sick... uh..." I didn't know what to say, I don't how to word something like this.
"What is it?" He put his hand on my arm.
"It's... I..." I sighed, "I'm... in love with someone else." I finally said. He didn't react, but his hand dropped down to his side.
"Someone else, w-who?" He stammered.
"A boy I dated in Phoniex--"
"Wait, you said you didn't have a boyfriend before me." He said, he was confused, but he soon realized it was a lie. "You lied to me."
I nodded. "I'm sorry, but I thought it would never come up--"
"You lied." He repeated.
"I'm so sorry, Edward."
He looked up, he looked quite angry, "When did you see this guy." He said the words with venom.
"The reason why I was so distant these past few days was because he's moved to Port Angeles, and came round the other day and--"
"He came round here?" He asked wrinkling his nose, I nodded. "Did anything happen?"
"Well, he kissed me and, well..." I looked down.
He opened his mouth, but nothing came out. The guilt still didn't ease, in fact it stung even more. We were now facing each other on either side of my bed. "What else happened?" He asked.
"We kissed again."
"What?!" He snapped.
"We kissed again, and then we realized that we still loved each other." He put his fingers on the bridge of his nose, "I'm sorry." I whispered.
His head snapped up. "You're sorry?"
"Yes, what else so you want me to say? Shall I write it out in my own blood for you?" I snapped.
He flinched uncomfortably, "So... is that what this is, a break-up?" He questioned angrily.
I nodded and sighed, "Yes."
I saw his fists clench up, which made me back away from him. "Edward--" He snarled at me, and threw my lamp at the wall behind me. "Edward, please!" I felt a lump in my throat, like I was going to cry.
He threw my chair at the wall as well, and was shouting. I backed up to the wall, crying now.
He threw everything from my desk, "Do you know how much crap I got from my family when I started dating you?" He shouted, I'd never seen him so angry before, he was actually scary. I feared for my own life.
"Well I guess you know how I felt when you left me!" I snapped. He went quiet. "You know what just... just go, Edward." I whimpered, still firmly against the wall.
He was gone in an instant, and I broke down crying immediatly. I looked up, my vision blurred from the tears, but I could still see the destruction he'd caused. But I didn't care, I just slid down to the floor and cried.
:'( I'd never writen a break-up scene before. So, we've seen Edward's angry scary side, and now he knows how it feels to be the dumpee. And before you put 'wtf, Charlie would of heard' remember, he's at the station.
And, since I love you guys so much, here's a sneak peek of next chapter:
I looked at their table discretely. Empty. They weren't there. I guess they didn't want to see me. Then something sank in, had they left again? They had no other reason to be here now I wasn't with Edward...
Oh! Small part of it! And ZOMG, Eclipse is ou NEXT MONTH!
So, review? x
