I'm calling him right now. I want to type while I talk to him to make sure that I get all the words correct.
He hasn't answered yet, but the phone has only rang twice.
I wish he would hurry up and answer... I'm getting more nervous each second...
"Hallo?" There it is. His sweet, deep, voice. I know he has caller ID, so he /knows/ that I'm the one calling. I want to say something, but I can't. "Kiku? Hallo? Are you there?" He's starting to sound a little annoyed.
Come on Kiku.
Answer.
"H-hi Ludwig-san." It was much harder to say that then I though it would be...
"Why are calling?" His voice sounds a little harsh.
He's angry. Just like I knew he would be.
"I-I just wanted to talk to you." My voice is hushed, I have been nervous about this enough already. His tone wasn't making it any better.
"Well, you already had that chance." I hate hearing his voice sound so stern. I'm choking back a few tears. What am I supposed to say in response to that?
Oh no. I can feel the hot tears on my cheeks.
"O-oh..." That's all that I can manage to say right now.
"Was that all you were calling for?" His voice isn't getting any lighter. He still sounds angry.
"Y-yeah..." I'm whispering into the phone now. I know that if I speak any louder, I'll probably break down crying. There's a silence. It doesn't seem to be ending...
He just hung up the phone... he hung up on me... he hung up on me...
I whispered "I'm Sorry." just after the click let me know he wasn't there anymore, "I love you."
I'm trying no to cry... I'm trying so hard...
I can't even see the keyboard anymore... I hope that I'm typing alright still... I think I need to go lie down... perhaps I'll take a nap...
I don't know.
I'm so confused.
If I hate him so much... then why am I so upset?
"I love you" Did I really say that after he hung up?
