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CHAPTER 25
ADRIAN'S POV
I have been by her bedside for one week. There has been no real changes. I just wish she would come back to me…us. I haven't left her side at all. I held her hand and talked to her until I was hoarse; telling
her about the baby, about how much we need her, and love her. I laugh at the thought of fairytales, where the prince kisses the beautiful maiden; waking her from her slumber. If only it were real, but Rose and
I have never had an easy fairytale. I just hope we get our happy ending. Hell, I am starting to wonder if such a thing even exist. The baby needed her and I was hoping beyond hope that his soft cries would stir
something inside her, awaken her. But under the circumstances he is doing so well, considering he wants his mother. I will not let another woman hold him. Lissa and Janine had understood my decision on that;
His mother would be the first woman to hold him. I would care for him until she wakes up and is able to do it herself. I won't let him leave this room; with two guardians posted at the door, no one was getting to him or her.
They would have to kill me first to get to either one of them. I trusted no one at this point; except our close group of friends and family. Janine had flown in to be with Rose and the baby; surprising she would leave her
charge. Even though it was for Rose's emergency situation. Janine had never done that before. She was a wreck; filled with remorse, and I think hoping for a chance to make things better between she and Rose.
Abe is almost as bad off as me; you can feel how devastated he is, we all are beyond points of expression. He is ready to kill anything at a seconds notice, tension rolled off his body.
I think Pavel is scared of him at this point, chuckling at that thought; which would be the first time in a week, I felt any emotion other then sorrow. I never knew so much sadness existed.
When I hold our baby in my arms and some of the anguish I am feeling, disappears. I wish Rose could see him, I have never seen a more beautiful child. He was destined for
something great, something wonderful. You just knew it when he gazed up at you with those big, brown eyes. It was like he held so much love in those eyes, like they could see through your soul.
"Adrian? Any changes?" Abe ask as he and Janine entered the room.
"No, everything seems the same." Just as I answered his question, Lissa and Christian entered in the room. This was the daily ritual; we all sat around Rose's bed, talking to her, telling her stories, and pleading for
her return to us.
Abe looked to me. "Have you come up with any more theories about who could have done this?" I knew he was beyond anxious to settle the score. You definitely don't fuck with Abe; unless you want to end up in
a gutter somewhere. If you were a smart person; you would watch your actions around him, and not try to piss him off. He and Rose were so much alike, I smiled at that thought.
I shook my head as I thought. "Rose was being harassed by Caitlin Drozdov, but I don't think she is capable of doing this to Rose. In labor or not, Rose would have kicked her ass." I gave out a weak laugh, sighing.
"My dad had a problem with Rose, but again, I don't think he would go to drastic measures like this. Besides my family is as devastated as we are. Matter of fact, they will be here tomorrow."
Abe eyes narrowed. "Is Ivan coming also?" Oh shit! I hope Abe isn't planning something against my dad. I don't need that drama added to my worries right now. Even though my dad deserved whatever Abe gave him.
Lissa interrupted our conversation, thank goodness! "Adrian? Have you tried to go into Rose's dreams?" I was shocked; shocked that the thought never occurred to me. With all that was going on, I can't believe
I never reasoned to go to her dreams. I was so consumed with everything else. I can't believe my mind was clouded to not think of the most obvious thing to try to do.
"I never thought too! I will try right now, but please I need everyone quiet because I really need to focus on her." I instructed them.
I closed my eyes; grasping her hand, and concentrated on only her, which wasn't hard for me. I tried to reach into her mind; the harder I tried, the darker it got. I was worried beyond words. I've never felt anything
like this before. I was afraid we had truly lost her. I don't know if she were ever coming back.
ROSE'S POV
I was lost; everything was so dark. Where am I? Where is everyone? I was scared, scared of the darkness that had consumed me. I don't remember anything. What happened to me? I tried to concentrate on
where I was, before this all happened to me. The lake, I went into labor, and I was attacked by two black figures. They were coming so fast, hitting me, blow after blow. I couldn't fight any longer. I couldn't
hold on. I wasn't strong enough. OH MY GOD! My baby! It was at that moment in the darkness; came the most brilliant, beautiful, life force I had ever seen. I thought my eyes were playing a trick on me. It
couldn't be, I shake my head, trying to clear my sight. The figure walked closer to me; closing the space between us, and I saw the most angelic smile I've ever seen. There was only one smile that shined like
that…..Dimitri, My Dimitri. I ran to him, throwing myself in his arms. "Are you real? … Am I dead? Am I in heaven?" I said; rushing my words in one long breath, elated to see him.
He pulled from my arms to get a better look at me, gazing into my eyes. Those gorgeous brown eyes staring straight through to my very soul . He gave me a grin; tracing his fingers down my cheek,
throwing electric shocks over my sensitive skin from his touch. God! I've missed him so much.
"Breathe Roza…!" His voice smooth as silk; each word carrying a trace of his accent. I am dead, because this is heaven. We are together.
I ask him again. "Dimitri, Am I dead? I have to be. This has to be heaven because I am with you once again..At least this is my version of heaven. I have missed you so much."
I wrapped my arms around his waist and held him tight, never wanting to let go.
"No Roza, You're not dead. And Yes! This is my form of heaven also, being with you, holding you. I've missed you much than you could ever know." I closed my eyes, breathing him in.
Drinking in every feeling I am experiencing at this moment, every smell I was smelling, and the feel of his touch, never wanting to forget it. I needed to put in my memory to take it with me for the rest of my life.
I was so afraid he could disappear from my arms at any second. I had no idea how long I would be in this paradise and I didn't want to waste a single second of it.
He placed his fingertips until my chin; tilting my face up, for our eyes to meet.
"Rose, You're are not dead and as much as I would love to keep you here with me; you need to go back, back to the people who need you."
I stared into his eyes, confused. "I don't want to leave. I want to stay here.. with you. My place is wherever you are. I lost you once and I don't think I can lose you again."
The tears stung my eyes as they flowed freely down my cheeks.
"I am so sorry….I never wanted to take your life. I wish I could go back, make different choices. I need you..please Dimitri." My words barely audible as my sobs drowned them out.
Dimitri took a deep breath; cupped my cheeks with his strong hands, bringing his soft lips to my forehead. He used his thumbs to brush the tears that had fallen on my cheeks.
"My Dearest Roza, Please don't ever think that way. You've made all the right choices. I am so thankful for you. You freed my soul. You loved me so much; risking your own life to save me from hell.
God, Roza…I love you! You given me so much in my life. I would never trade a thing. The day I meet you was a blessing from god. I thank him everyday for sending you to me.
I know our time together was not as long as we wanted, an eternity would have not been long enough to spend loving you. Please believe every word I am telling you. You are the best thing to ever happen in my life.
Do not ever forget that. Promise me."
My eyes locked with his, pain was evident. "I wanted to save you, bring you back to me. I wish there was a way. I let you down." I said, bowing my head with such a great sadness.
He lifted my chin once again. "Please listen to me Roza. If I could go back in time; I wouldn't change a thing, not one single thing. No, I would have admitted my feelings sooner, but nothing else. Not only have you
freed me, but you've given me the most precious gift a woman is capable of giving a man….A son. Ethan is beautiful." The most amazing smile graced his beautiful face, pride shining in his eyes.
I look at him, surprised. " Dimitri?…Who's Ethan?"
Dimitri smiled a genuine smile. " Rose, Ethan is our son. If you don't mind me giving him that name."
The flood gates opened; tears flowing fast. "You've seen him? He's okay? I can't remember anything."
He pulled me into an embrace, breath in my hair. I knew the end was coming. I could feel it. My chest ached from the fear of letting him go again.
"He is perfect..Roza. Gorgeous, beautiful like you. Thank you so much." He said as he kissed my hair, running his fingers through it.
I just couldn't stop the crying, no matter how hard I tried, my eyes deceived me. "It's not fair. You should be here with me…us. He needs you to teach him, show him how to become a good man. Helping me raise
him. He needs you so much."
He took a breath and sighed. "Oh Roza, How I wish I could be there to hold him in my arms, kiss his angelic face, and tell him everyday I much I love him and his momma." The tears were now flowing from his eyes.
I had never seen Dimitri cry. I knew that I was the lucky one, he was stripped of everything that involved his son. He would never teach him to throw a baseball, take him to school, kiss him when he fell down, tell him
how much he loved him, and just to watch him grow.
I was so mad at life, I screamed. "IT'S NOT FAIR…."
"I know it's not Rose. Life is not fair. We have to make the best of what we are given. I wish I could be there with the both of you. I am never far away. I'll always be with you..both of you."
"My Comrade, still giving me lessons." I gave him a weak smile, it was all I was capable of giving at this point.
He gave me that look, the 'Oh Rose, you're exhausting' look. "Roza, You've got to pull yourself together. Our son needs you and Adrian needs you. It's time to go back to them."
Shocked. "Adrian? You're not upset?" I questioned him.
"Rose, How can I be upset or dislike a man who took care of you, loved you, and is willing to do anything for you and Ethan? I've misjudged him. He is a good man, Roza. I owe him so much."
"I don't know if I can go back. I don't know if I can fight this. It is so much bigger than me. I don't want to leave you, but I want to be with our baby. I am so torn. I am ashamed of myself. What choice do I make? I have
made so many wrong choices in my life. Help me Dimitri." I pleaded for his guidance.
He held me tighter. "Roza, My love for you is infinite. You have made me so proud and I could have never ask for a better mother for my child. I will miss you both immensely."
My chest heaved with heavy sobs. "Don't leave me. Please, I need you. I want to stay with you."
"I will never leave you. Every time you gaze into our sons eyes…I will be there..with both of you. I love you more than any man is capable of loving a woman. Thank you. I love you Roza, forever."
He gently pressed his lips to mine for the last time as he disappeared.
I fell to my knees, begging, screaming. "Dimitri, Come back to me..Please!"
The next thing to happen, took me by surprise.
I heard soft cries, but couldn't focus my eyes on anything. I had no idea where I was, once again. I could tell that it was bright wherever I was. I was gone from the darkness. Gone was my time with Dimitri. I knew he was okay and
that he wanted me to move on. Although I will love him for the rest of my life, it was time to move forward, without any reservations. He said he owed Adrian and he thought he was a good man. His words gave me so much comfort;
now knowing my choice to marry Adrian was the right one. He really was a good man. With Dimitri giving me his blessing; in his own words, was enough for me to move forward, knowing he was with me…us.
I heard the soft crying again as my eyes tried to adjust to the light in the room. I had to do this. I had to get back to them; they needed me as much as I needed them. I fluttered my eyes; everything blurry, but I could see Adrian
with his head in his hands, shoulders shaking slightly from his quiet sobs. I gradually raised my hand and ran my fingers through his soft, golden hair.
He slid his hands down his face, eyes widened. "Rose, Oh God! Rose." He grabbed my hand and kissed it.
'I was so scared I'd lost you forever." His blood-shot eyes filled with relief.
I gave him a small smile. "You could never lose me. Adrian? Where's Ethan?"
He looked at me, seeking an explanation. "Who's Ethan?" I giggled because that was the same response I gave Dimitri.
"Our son." I glanced around the room and then heard his soft cry as if he knew I was awake and wanting him.
Adrian walked over to the bassinet where Ethan was lying; he picked him up, and carried him over to me. He gently lowered him into my arms. "Here you go, big guy. This is your momma."
I was amazed at how beautiful he was; I could see so much of Dimitri in him, and there was some of me in there too. He was a nice mixture of both of us. "Hello Sweetheart. I am so glad to finally meet you. You can kick
really hard. Did you know that?" I said; pressing my lips to his little cheek.
I stared into his dazzling brown eyes and sighed. I couldn't help the sad smile that crossed my face.
"What is it baby?" Adrian ask as he sat next to me; putting his arm around us.
I admired Adrian's loving face. "It's a long story. I will share it with you later."
He leaned down gently brushing his lips against mine. "Welcome back…I've missed you. We've missed you."
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