Hey guys…okay, so I know I haven't updated in a while, and hopefully you guys go back to my channel and read my updates on how my life's going. Sooo, well I wanted to update for you guys every week, but I decided not to, because I've lost my inspiration. My life is just going down in a spiral and I want to give you guys the best that I can write, instead of this horrific piece of writing that nobody would want to read. So I hope you guys read both my Author's Note that are always in bold, and my channel updates. Which happen ever so randomly soo…maybe I'll update every…Friday? Sure. EVERY FRIDAY I will update my channel, and tell you whether or not I'm going to be updating that weekend. Hope you guys understand…I've become this slow updater…and I'm losing readers!!!
Okay, enough with this stupid blabbering…on with the story. I had a snow day at home, so…might as well enjoy it by doing more homework that you guys assigned me hahaha.
Chapter 38-
"Well…I've always loved Troy. He's always going to be my first love and I will always love him. But…Jake was always perfect. Always respected me and never made me question his actions…" Gabriella concluded.
Jen thought to herself. "This reminds me of a song…" Jen hopped up and ran toward her side of the room and got out her CD case, which was filled with hundreds. She flipped through it and pulled out a CD and went to the stereo and popped it in and skipped a few tracks and then hit play….
"He is sensible and so incredible
and all my single friends are jealous
he says everything I need to hear and it's like
I couldn't ask for anything better
he opens up my door and i get into his car
and he says you look beautiful tonight
and I feel perfectly fine
but I miss screaming and fighting and kissing in the rain
and it's 2am and I'm cursing your name
you're so in love that you act insane
and that's the way I loved you
breakin' down and coming undone
it's a roller coaster kinda rush
and I never knew I could feel that much
and that's the way I loved you
he respects my space
and never makes me wait
and he calls exactly when he says he will
he's close to my mother
talks business with my father
he's charming and endearing
and I'm comfortable
but I miss screaming and fighting and kissing in the rain
and it's 2am and I'm cursing your name
you're so in love that you act insane
and that's the way I loved you
breakin' down and coming undone
it's a roller coaster kinda rush
and I never knew I could feel that much
and that's the way I loved you
he can't see the smile I'm faking
and my heart's not breaking
cause I'm not feeling anything at all
and you were wild and crazy
just so frustrating, intoxicating
complicated, got away by some mistake and now
I miss screaming and fighting and kissing in the rain
and it's 2am and I'm cursing your name
I'm so in love that I acted insane
and that's the way I love you
breakin' down and coming undone
it's a roller coaster kinda rush
and I never knew I could feel that much
and that's the way I loved you oh, oh
and that's the way I loved you oh, oh
never knew I could feel that much
and that's the way I loved you"
Gabriella stared down on her bed trying not to cry or to show any emotion. Why did she have to play that song? The song that she's been avoiding for…quite a while.
"Ugh…Jenny! Did you really have to play that song? It just makes me question my feelings for Jake even more…-"
"Gabi…" Jen interrupted.
"No…let me finish! It's like Jake's…too…clingy. And too perfect and I hate it. And well…Troy is like...am-"
"Giggles…"
"I'm not done Jen! " Gabriella said finally looking up and saw Jake at the doorway.
"So you're questioning your feelings for me and you didn't even tell me? C'mon Ella…I thought we had a better relationship than that? Remember…we promised each other we wouldn't keep secrets from each other? Remember? You said you didn't want another relationship like you had with Troy…you said that you trusted me with all your heart, and it was your idea for crying out loud!" Jake said shaking his head in doubt.
Gabriella did remember. Perfectly.
Flashback:
"Jake, can I talk to you for a second?" Gabriella said peeking her head into the living room where he was sitting on the couch, relaxing and watching T.V.
"Sure. Whadya wanna talk about?" he asked, being the respectful, gentleman that he was, he turned off the T.V. and gave her his full attention.
"…well I want us both to promise, that no matter what and no matter how bad the situation, we tell each other everything." Gabriella said staring his eyes, giving him her heart.
"Of course baby…" Jake nodded.
"I just…don't want another relationship like Troy and I. I want it to be totally honest and I trust you with my heart, and I hope you can do the same." Gabriella said looking down, suddenly becoming embarrassed about what she wanted.
"I will Gabriella. I always will. You have my heart and my love and you will know my life's story by the end of today." Jake smiled at her and lifted her chin and kissed her passionately.
"And that goes both ways." Gabriella said after the kiss.
And that's where the stories began.
End of Flashback
"Do you Gabriella?!" Jake screamed at the top of his lungs.
Gabriella looked down, scared. She'd never heard him yell before. Except at Troy. And never had he yelled at her, or be angry with her for that matter. "I'm sorry Jake…I just…I didn't want you to be angry with me if you found out or if I told you…" Gabriella said quietly.
"Yeah..I'm gonna go…" Jen mumbled and ran out the doorway passed Jake.
"You thought I would be angry?!" Jake yelled.
"You're angry now…" Gabriella pointed out still looking down.
"I'm not angry with you about that thought Gabriella. The fact you DIDN'T tell me and you broke our promise that we'd tell each other everything. That's what hurts!" he said raising his voice once more.
"I know Jake…it's just I was scared and I thought everything that I was feeling would pass through quicker…but-"
"I really don't care anymore Gabriella. Now I can see why Troy cheated on you so many times. You can't seem to be truthful either. "Jake shook his head and left the room and slammed the door shut.
Gabriella curled up and stared at the bed. "I'm sorry…" Gabriella sighed and then put on her flip flops and walked out and locked the dorm door.
She walked slowly and walked out to the front lobby and she already saw Jake flirting with another girl.
Gabriella's POV:
I know I made a mistake…but…I didn't think he was going to actually…do that to me. It doesn't make him any better than me…
I stared at Jake for a few moments and rolled my eyes. He wasn't worth it anymore and there was no way that he was perfect anymore. I walked to the counter where he was flirting with this blonde.
"Can I have a strawberry shake?" I asked the cashier and he nodded and smiled at me.
"Ha, yeah. No problem." He said and began to make it and I went to sit on the couch and that's when Jake noticed that I was watching flirt with the girl and touching her hair…
I looked away. I saw his face fill with guilt. "Gabi I-"
"Shake is done!" and I walked over there and grabbed the shake and began to walk out. "Gabi!" Jake said and grabbed my arm.
I yanked my arm back and ran outside with my shake and took a left and found a bench and sat and drank my shake in silence. If Jake wanted a break, that was fine. Obviously he found someone already to replace her, and I don't need a guy right now. Troy was too much to handle right now, and Jake was being a jerk. Am I right? Or am I right?
I finished my shake and threw it away and began to walk again off of campus. I walked around and saw a huge hill with an even bigger tree right dab in the middle. I slowly walked up the hill and sat down right next to the trunk of the tree and laying my back against the tree and looked at the view. It was a beautiful view of L.A. I smiled. This was perfect. It was going to be my replacement place to think by myself. Troy had already intruded my thinking place at home.
I just sat there and got out my iPod Touch and began to play music, and each song reminding me of the perfect times I had with Troy. Why did he have to be so un-perfect to make him all the more pefect?
I began to sing a long and sway to the music and forget everything. And I finally decide to do what I haven't done since I was…7 or so. I climbed the tree to the highest branch and got an even better of the campus, though it was pretty far away. It was all so beautiful. I stared out into the distance and I saw a familiar face begin to walk towards my hill.
Okay guysI'm gonna stop there! Hope you guys enjoy and please, please, please, I beg of you…review!
