The night was pushing itself on to Jade as she pulled into the parking lot of the park and got out before heading over to the swing set. It had been about a week since she met Tori at Nozu and confirmed that it was the half Latina that was writing the blog under the name SingsHerHeartsOut. Since then she had to have Cat tell her that it wasn't her fault, that she needed time to think things over, even if she was a cold bitch when they first met Jade and Tori had become friends, somewhat. She had seen Tori in the hallways after that and it near broke her heart to see the singer near tears because of her.
'Damn it why do I have to be such a heartless bitch?' she thought swinging her legs forward, propelling the swing that she was on, 'All Tori wants to for me to love her and here I am afraid to put myself out there for her.'
"Why am I afraid to let someone into my heart?" Jade whispered looking at the ground.
"You know I've wondered that myself," someone said startling Jade.
Looking up Jade wasn't at all surprised to see that Cat was standing there with hands on her hips glaring at the play writer. Sighing, Jade stood up and walked towards her friend before the two started down the pathway in the middle of the park. They walked in silence for a little bit when Cat finally spoke up.
"I assume that you know why I'm here," She muttered as they stopped at the pond.
"You know the whole dumb girl act is getting really annoying," Jade responded glaring at the girl.
"We're not here to talk about me Jadelyn we're talking about you," Cat said turning to face her, "do you know where I was before this?"
"…You were at her house weren't you?" Jade whispered sighing.
"She was crying her eyes out Jade," the red head said shaking her head, "all because you ran away."
Jade sighed and leaned on the railing looking at the stream that was under the bridge they were currently on. She had many fond memories on that bridge, it was the bridge that she and her father went fishing a couple of times when she was younger, and it was the bridge that her mother gave her the necklace that she wore all the time now. But now, standing there she didn't know what to do, what to think, and she was afraid of what might happen if she didn't act in the next few days.
"I…I just don't know what to do," she said as a tear fell from her face.
"Listen to your heart," Cat responded as if it were the most obvious thing.
"That's what my step mom said," Jade commented with a smile, "but I can't hear my heart over my mind."
"And what does your mind say?"
"To do what I've always done, shield myself and don't let anyone in," Jade muttered begrudgingly.
"Well then you need to silence your mind and listen solely to your heart," Cat said leaning her back against the railing opposite of Jade.
Closing her eyes, Jade attempted to tune everything out and listen to her heart, but her mind was trying to get her heart to be quite and force her to listen to it instead. Taking a deep breath Jade quieted her mind and was finally able to hear her heart, but more than that she was seeing Tori standing there, holding on to her wanting nothing more than to be with her. Opening her eyes she looked over at Cat who had a knowing smile on her face before she stood up and started off towards where her car was.
"Where are you going?" Jade asked frowning.
"I have a date tonight with Rachel, and you need to go and talk to Tori," Cat commanded with a wave of her hand.
"Does Rachel know that you're…this devious?" Jade asked curiously.
"Of course she does, I don't keep secrets from her," Cat stated as she got to her car, "now stop pushing this off and go talk to her."
Jade groaned as Cat drove off leaving her alone in the park with only her thoughts about her next task, going to the Vega household. Getting in her car she slowly made her way down the road and stopped when she got to her destination and hesitated when she saw that the light in her room was on and that she was typing on her laptop.
'Is she writing another blog?' she thought frowning.
Getting out of her car and walking up to the front door, the Gothic girl knocked on the door and waited for someone to answer. When no one did she grabbed the spare key under the plant pot and opened it before heading up the stairs and heading towards the youngest Vega's room. When she got to the door she stopped and leaned in when she heard Tori singing the song that she and Andre wrote for Trina's birth week.
"Jade, I thought that I would be over you since you pretty much just left me without telling me if you like me or not, so why do I still want to be with you?" Tori whispered as Jade slowly opened the door.
"You know I wonder why people like me as well," Jade said startling the singer, "and I did tell you to give me a little bit."
"No you didn't you told Cat to tell me," Tori said standing up, "wait how the hell did you get in my house?"
"I know where the spare key is," Jade said with a small smile, "and so what if I told Cat to tell you it still did what I wanted."
"But I want to hear it from you if you need time to think not from our friend," Tori yelled with tears in her eyes, "what does it matter I already know your answer."
"Oh you do?" Jade asked amused
"You ran Jade, what did you want me to think?"
"So if I wouldn't have run and talked to you about needing time then…"
"Then I would have understood Jade, but you ran, do you know how much that hurt me?" Tori asked crying now.
Shaking her head, Jade sat down on Tori's bed, and patted the area next to her and waited for Tori sit down. When the singer finally did sit down Jade smiled at her a little bit before taking a hold of her hand and stroking it with her thumb hoping that it would keep her calm. Closing her eye she started to think about how she could best go about this when she figured that the best approach would be the direct one, so looking back over at the singer Jade released her hand slowly before standing up and walking in front of her.
"Tori what would you say if I told you I want to be with you?"
"I would wonder if you were playing a prank on me," Tori said with a hurt look.
"Fair enough," Jade commented sighing, "but what if I told you then that it wasn't a prank?"
"Jade what are you getting at?"
"I was wrong to run Tori and I am so sorry," Jade whispered kneeling down in front of her, "I was afraid, afraid that you would hurt me just like everyone else."
"Jade if you think that then you don't know me very well," Tori said frowning, "I don't want to hurt anyone, if anything I want to help heal you."
"I know that but my mind, my past relationships, they held me back," Jade said standing up, "but I was finally able to listen to my heart because a red head talked some sense into me."
"Cat…Cat Valentine, talked some sense into you?" Tori asked unconvinced.
"She's not as dumb as she leads on Tori," Jade said smirking.
Tori gave her a look of confusion wondering who Cat, sweet, innocent Cat could be at anyway something other than the way she acted. Then again when she last saw Cat at the school she could have sworn that Cat looked older, more mature then what she normally looked like. Tilting her head to the side Tori started to wonder what was really happening with the Valentine girl when she remembered that Jade was in her room standing in front of her.
"So Cat talked some sense into you, so then what did you do after that?"
"I drove here," Jade said sitting back down.
"You…wait you talked to Cat, then you came over to my house to talk to me?" Tori asked in shock.
"Yep and now I have a question for you," Jade said as Tori bit on her lower lip.
"And what's that?" Tori asked taking a hold of Jade's hand.
"Do you still love me?"
The two sat in silence when Jade looked over at Tori and saw that she was crying. Reaching over, she gently wiped the tears away and kissed her cheek hoping to calm her down and was surprised, and also pleased, when Tori turned her head towards her and kissed her on the lips. Breaking the kiss, Jade and Tori both smiled before leaning in and kissing again, leading to what would be one of the longest nights of their lives. The next morning Jade woke up before the half Latina singer and realized that there was the feeling of warm flesh against her own and, lifting up the covers, she realized that the two of them were nude.
'Wow, that was a great night last night,' Jade thought laying back on the bed.
Looking over at the laptop she realized that Tori was in fact working on her blog and, covering herself, she walked over to the computer and sat down to read her newest lover's blog.
SingsHerHeartOut here with my latest blog! First off I want to tell you that I'm sorry for not having a blog the past couple of days but I've been having some issues. Anyway I figured that this time I would write about one of my favorite memories involving me and…
'She didn't finish it,' Jade thought tilting her head when she heard Tori groan.
"Jade?" Tori asked sitting up.
"I'm still here Tori," Jade said walking back over to her, "I was just reading your newest blog."
"Oh…"
"And I was thinking about…maybe adding me to it," Jade said making Tori smile.
"And how do we do that?" Tori asked standing up.
Smiling Jade led her over to the computer and sat back down before tapping her fingers on the desk. Finally a thought came to her mind before she started typing…
…WriterOfHorror. WriterOfHorror is the woman I fell in love with and has managed to find out who I really am. She is now my girlfriend and we decided to continue with this blog to help out other lesbian couples with their problems. So from now on if you have a question just use the blog to message us and we'll see if we're able to help you. Please remember that we're just starting our relationship so we're not sure how helpful we'll be but we'll try our hardest.
Tori looked over Jade's shoulder and read what her new girlfriend wrote and smiled before kissing her cheek.
"I love it."
"Good then you agree that this is what we'll do…together," Jade said turning to face her.
"Of course," Tori said kissing her.
The two sat there kissing when Tori heard the sound of the car being closed outside the house. Sighing the two started to get dressed when a small smile returned to Tori's face.
"You know something?"
"What?"
"We still need to tell our families and friends," Tori said making Jade groan.
"Damn it Vega if you weren't so sexy I would smack you," Jade growled putting her shirt on, "you're lucky I love you."
"I love you too, now come on I think my parents deserve to know that I got the girl I love," Tori said taking a hold of Jade's hand.
"Fine, if only to torment Trina that I'll be over here a lot now," Jade said smirking, walking down the stairs toward the rest of her life with Tori.
Author Note: And that's is that, I hope that you guys liked this story and thank you for all of the reviews! Falling Lillies
