Author's note: Ok so I know it's been a while. I was in the hospital and school just started. I'm really sorry for the wait. I have to admit that this chapter isn't too good and I'm really sorry about that. But anyway I hope you give me some feedback and whatnot. I should be able to start writing more often. Thank you for everything guys!
"James. Please come out of there. You've been in there for hours and we're all really worried about you. If you need to talk I'm here for you. I'm the only one out here. I promise." I heard Carlos' worried voice from behind the bathroom door. I knew I could tell him. I mean he is my best friend. I could tell him anything no matter what. I was afraid that he just wouldn't understand though. Even though I knew that he would. He always understands me. I got up from the bathroom floor and wiped away my tears. I slowly opened the door and looked out to see Carlos standing there. He tackled me to the floor and said, "I thought I was never going to see you again."
He got off of me and sat beside me on the cold tile. He put his hands on my shoulders and looked me straight in the eyes and said, "I don't know what happened between you and Kendall but you shouldn't worry about it. If you yelled at him or he did something mean to you its ok. You can tell me anything and you know that you and Kendall will forget about it soon. I mean all of your fights are just little ar-" "I tried to have sex with him!", I cut Carlos off and yelled. His eyes got wide and I looked down so I didn't feel guilty. He whispered, "You tried to do what?" I replied, "I tried to have sex with Kendall." There was an awkward silence so I continued my answer. "He was teasing me earlier before lunch. Remember? You walked in on that. And I just got really frustrated because he was toying with me and I wanted to get back at him but I tried and I couldn't do it so I ran in here because I thought that it was wrong to just use somebody like that especially when they are one of your best friends and I know that this sounds really pathetic and stuff but I'm totally and completely head over heels in love with him." I took a big breath once I finished realizing that every word that I just said sounded like it was just one giant word. Carlos was still sitting there staring at me like he was trying to process what I had just told him. Finally after a few more agonizing seconds of silence he sarcastically said, "Wow. I never knew that."
I gave him a confused look and he said, "Oh come on James. You're always staring at him and you take his side on everything. Even when he used to make fun of you in school you would never stand up for yourself. And don't say you were scared because you know you could take him. It's actually really obvious that you're crushing on him. I'm sure he even knows it." I thought about how I've acted around Kendall and Carlos really did have a point. Even when I wasn't thinking about Kendall I was actually thinking about him in some way and I did happen to take his bullying for my whole school career. But that didn't mean that it was obvious. Did it? I sighed, "It's not a crush Carlos." "Really? Then what is it?" I looked at him and thought for a while about what it was. Yeah. It was a crush. A huge crush that got bigger and bigger every day. I didn't know that I liked him until freshman year though. I wonder how long this crush on Kendall has been going on. I never really realized that it was going on. When we finally became friends junior year in high school I was just really happy and thought that it was because I knew we would be best friends.
I had always liked something about Kendall. I'm not sure if it was the way he always took control or the way he would take his shirt off in the locker room after a game we just won. I shook my head remembering that I was with Carlos and that if I got turned on at that moment he would never let it go. I sighed and he said, "James. You should go talk to him. This is just going to get more awkward if you guys don't talk." I nodded and he shot up off of the floor. I grabbed his hand and he pulled me into a hug. "You can do it dude. You'll do fine. Be strong. Be positive." I took a deep breath and opened the bathroom door. As I walked closer to the kitchen where Kendall was sitting at the table with his head in his hands I got more and more nervous. I reached the table and pulled out a chair and sat down. He didn't look at me. He didn't even move. I prepared myself for the worst possible thing that could happen and said, "I'm sorry Kendall…I didn't mean to make you feel used or anything…It was a mistake...I really do like you though and I want a chance with you…If you don't feel the same way I understand…I'm just being really stupid…" I looked down and started playing with my fingers to stop thinking about the awkward moment.
What am I doing? Why am I telling him that I like him? That will just ruin everything. I don't want our friendship to be over. It's the most important thing in the world to me. As I was questioning myself I felt something reach over and grab my hand. I looked up and Kendall was looking at me and smiling. "I would love to go on a date with you." I couldn't tell but I was pretty sure at that moment my eyes got really wide and I had a look of complete shock on my face. He laughed and squeezed my hand tighter. I pulled my hand away and crossed my arms looking over to the left instead of at Kendall. He said, "Oh come on. You know I'm kidding." Kendall got up from his chair and moved me so he could sit comfortably on my lap. He put his finger under my chin and lifted my head up so I was looking directly into his eyes. "You are too adorable for a guy like me." I blushed and laughed the most feminine laugh ever. I can't believe I just did that. I'm so embarrassing. He just chuckled and said, "Yea. Way too adorable." He kissed my forehead and I thought about how amazing my future could be.
