Alrightie! So I'm extremely happy today because tomorrow I'm going to a Big Time Rush concert! I finally get to go to one! Yes! Lol. Ok, I need to relax. Anyways…I'm going to try to make this chapter as long as I can. I have most of it planned out in my mind but I'm so excited that it might come out shorter than planned. Hopefully it will be good! I hope you all enjoy! I love you all! Review and rate please!

I opened my eyes to see the hut empty and dark. Propping myself up onto my elbows and looking around wondering where Kendall could be. I stretched and let out a loud yawn before getting off of the extremely comfortable bed and onto my feet. I looked around the hut once more then made my way to the bathroom to pee. Where could Kendall be? What if he decided that I wasn't right for him and left me here? What if he really doesn't love me and I'm being such a stupid fool? What if he thinks that I won't be able to satisfy him in bed enough and gives up on our relationship? Panicking I zipped up my pants and ran out onto the dock in front of the hut. I frantically ran up and down the dock looking for my missing boyfriend. I stopped for a minute and thought. Think James. Did Kendall really leave you? Would he really do that? Maybe but I saw all of his luggage in the hut. He wouldn't leave all of his stuff would he? Or would he do that because he was so desperate to get away that he didn't want to make any noise and wake me up? This thought made me freak out more and I ran back inside. I saw the window that Kendall was so interested in earlier that day and quickly rushed over to it. Sticking my head out of the window and looking down my eyes got wide with fear. What if he was looking out the window and he leaned too far and fell out? Oh my god!

"Kendall! Kendall! KENDALL!" After no answer I stripped myself of my shirt and pants and yelled, "I'm coming Kendall!" Without thinking I jumped out of the window and plunged into the cold dark ocean beneath me. I swam around yelling his name over and over. I didn't care that it was dark or that there could be creatures in there that could swallow me whole. All I wanted was to find my boyfriend and hug him tight. "Kendall!" I yelled a few more times and stopped when I thought I heard someone yelling my name. I stayed as still as possible then heard it one more time. It was Kendall!

"Kendall! Where are you? I'll swim you to shore!", I shouted at the top of my lungs.

"James! James where are you?" His voice sounded close but I still couldn't find him. He must be farther away than what I thought. I kept looking around searching for my drowning boyfriend.

"I'm in the ocean babe! Scream louder so I can find you!"

"What do you mean you're in the ocean?" I heard a gasp and then Kendall screamed, "James! Why are you down there! Get back up here!"

I looked up and saw Kendall looking out of the window with eyes wide and mouth agape. "W-what? I thought you were down here! I couldn't find you a-and I t-thought you hurt yourself or something.", I stuttered.

He ran out of the hut and before I knew it he was on the edge of the dock. "James, get up here please! You could get hurt down there!"

"I'm trying to get out! I can only swim so fast and I have to go all the way over there to the shore! I can't reach the dock from down here!" I started swimming faster scared that something might eat me now. I didn't care when I was looking for Kendall but now that I knew he was safe I really wasn't comfortable swimming in the ocean at night. It took me about five minutes to find the shore and when I finally pulled myself up on to the sandy ground Kendall was there to hold me up.

He hugged me and said, "What were you doing James? Something bad could've happened to you."

"I t-thought that y-you were h-h-hurt.", I stuttered and guessed that Kendall could barely make out what I was saying because it took him a while to answer.

"Come on Jamsey. We need to get you inside. You're freezing." He put his arm around my waist and held me up while we walked back up onto the dock and to the bed.

I didn't realize how cold I was until he took a blanket from the other side of the room and wrapped me in it. I looked at my hands and saw myself shaking uncontrollably. My teeth were still shattering while I took a sip of hot coffee that he had handed to me.

"Th-thanks babe. W-where did you g-get this coffee?"

He sat next to me on the bed and pulled me in close to him to help warm me up. "That's where I was. You fell asleep when we were snuggling earlier and I remembered seeing a coffee maker in the lobby when we walked in. I know how much you love coffee so I wanted to get you some before you woke up. I thought it would be a quick trip there but some guy was trying to work the machine and couldn't figure it out. Then he spilled coffee on me so he tried to wipe it off of me. Then there was no more coffee left in the pot so I had to make some more." He let out a breath and then started talking again. "Then I came back here and I put the coffee down and I thought I heard you screaming for me so I was looking all over the place and I found you out in the ocean and then I was sad because I thought you were drowning or something. Now we're here and you're cold."

I chuckled a bit and he looked over at me looking frustrated. "What?"

"What is so funny about that? I was really scared."

I smiled, "It's not that it's funny darling."

He stood up like he was offended by my smile and threw his hands in the air. "Then why are you laughing and smiling? I don't find this amusing at all! Something could have happened to you or something! I almost called for help!"

I stood up and grabbed his hand to pull him back onto the bed but he wouldn't budge. "I'm smiling because I think that's the cutest thing in the world. I love the fact that you were so worried about me and that you got up to get me coffee. It makes me feel more comfortable with our relationship. I like the fact that I know you care about me and would do little things for me. That stuff makes me smile. And I chuckled because you're just completely and utterly adorable."

I saw the corners of his mouth turn up into a tiny smile. I smiled back at him and then grabbed his hand. This time when I pulled him down he let me. I moved him onto my lap and kissed his cheek after discarding the blanket. I was pretty warm by now and decided that I didn't need it anymore. I wrapped my arms around him and squeezed him giving him a big bear hug.

He giggled and blushed, "That was a little girly."

I laughed, "Yes it was but I think it was cute. Just like my Kendall bear." I kissed his cheek which caused him to smile once more.

He turned around in my lap so he could face me a little more and said, "You are just absolutely perfect. I have a question though."

"I'll answer anything for you babe."

He looked into my eyes and got very serious, "Why did you go into the ocean? Why wouldn't you just walk around the dock to find me or wait a little while for me to get back?"

I looked down and sighed, "I thought that you were drowning or something. Why else would I?"

He lifted my chin up and said, "Come on. There has to be more to it than that."

I replied softly, "It's just that when I woke up I couldn't find you so I started to panic and I didn't know what to do. At first I thought you might just be wandering around on the dock so I went outside and walked around for a little while but then I started thinking…"

After I stopped talking he kissed my cheek and said, "Keep going. It's ok."

I nodded and continued, "I started making myself think that maybe you left me because you didn't think I would be sexually satisfying or good enough. Like I couldn't keep you happy and you didn't want to be with me anymore. I didn't want to think that so I went back in here and when I got back inside I remembered that you were looking out of the window earlier. So I ran over to the window and looked down and I thought that maybe you had reached too far out of the window and fell into the ocean. I didn't want to lose you so I jumped in…"

He turned around on my lap so he was actually facing me and put his hands on my cheeks. "Look at me James."

I slowly looked up at him and his eyes looked sad. It's like I had just told him that his mom died or something. I swear that he was going to cry but he just started talking again. "I would never do that to you. I will be here for you just like you said you will be here for me. I didn't mean to scare you and I'm very sorry that I did. But you have to believe me when I say that I want to be here. I want to be here with you. I want you to hold me and feel your arms around me all the time. There isn't a second that goes by that I don't want to be with you. I don't want you to ever doubt my feelings for you. Ok? Just don't forget that." He pulled me into a hug and I smiled.

"Thanks babe. You're amazing. I'm sorry that I thought that. I was just freaking out and I couldn't make myself stop thinking bad things. I'm so glad that you're still here. Tomorrow will be better. I promise. Tomorrow we'll do all the things you want. I think right now we should get a little bit of sleep though."

He nodded and we both lay down. I hugged him and pulled him in close to me. It felt good being next to him like this. It always did. It felt perfect like it was meant to be. I kissed the top of his head and pulled a blanket over us. And there we were, him lying close to me in my arms just like it should be, me still in my boxers and him still fully clothed. It just felt so right.