This chapter's a bit longer than usual, and I think the story jumps a lot forward at this point, but forgive me for being too lazy to write the goings of one month :I

Anyways, hope you enjoy it!

A month flew by quicker than I would have liked. Well, it was nice to know winter was coming, but I felt like I'd missed something. Something important having to do with my feels for Tav. I still hadn't told him a thing. Not a single fucking thing. And he was still together with Dave.

To be honest I had tried a total of two times to break them up. The attempts ended up both being massive failures and not really worth my time. Not like I even put much effort into them, because I didn't want to hurt Tav in any way.

The first time was a bit after they had started dating, Dave and Tavros. I had slipped some salt into Dave's drink, getting him to spit it all over Tav. It was really hilarious, but it didn't do anything to the relationship.

The second attempt had had a little more attempt to it. A lot more, actually. I had set up a little trap which almost sent Dave tumbling down the apartment buildings stairs. If it weren't for his ninja skills and that stupid backflip which landed him standing on a stair a little ways down I'm sure it would have worked. The stupid shit just got Tav worried for Dave and amazed at his ability to pull off such a stunt with no preparation.

So the two attempts failed and I hadn't tried anything after that, just slipped into the background and let them enjoy it. Watching a happy Tav was nice, but knowing Strider was the one behind it got me a bit down every time.

It was the morning of a Monday, yet again. Tav had already left for school and I was just waking up from an incredible dream. I kept my eyes closed and tried to fall back asleep. What had the dream been about?

Oh yeah. Tavros.

In my dream the two of us had been chilling at my old apartment and somehow ended up in bed. I could recall all the sweet little voices he would make, and... And-

God damnit! The thinking led me to realize I was painfully hard and I hoped Tav hadn't noticed anything. I then head for the shower to take care of business and probably clean myself while I'm at it.

I emerge from the shower drying my black hair, which apart from the times right after showering was always very tangled and sort of bushy too. I wrap a towel around my waist, too lazy to put on anything else just yet and get to the kitchen to make some food.

I notice a note on the fridge and take it off, reading it rather unenthusiastically.

I'm going to go to the cafe with Dave after school. I'll come around four to eat.

Hope to see you then!

-Tavros

I feel myself getting very angry and shred the note into little pieces which I throw into the trash. Dave, Dave, Dave. It was always something with Dave. He always had to ruin everything. He took away my miracles. He took away my yet-to-be boyfriend. He just ruined everything, didn't he?

The sound of shattering glass brings me back to reality and I notice I've broken the cup I was holding against the wall. What the fuck got to me? Oh yeah, Dave.

Quickly I clean up the mess I've made and proceed to make breakfast, taking a mental note to grab my pills. I get some sandwiches like usual, but instead of coffee or juice I decide to do what Tav always does. I decide to try out how tee tastes.

Last time I'd had tee it wasn't really good. It had been some sort of lemon, or something like that and it had tasted absolutely horrible. I just hope this will be better.

After watching Tav do it so many times I think I know what to do. I heat up some water, pour it into a mug with some tee powder and put a few cubes of sugar in before mixing it. The tee should taste something along the lines of apple. Better than lemons, I suppose.

So after waiting for the tee to cool down a bit I take a careful sip and almost burn my tongue. Oh god, how did Tav get to all up and drinking this if it wouldn't cool down? So I wait a little more and go get some clothes in the meantime.

I return and take a careful sip of the tee. This time it's cooled down to something I could drink. So I gulp down some tee, trying to figure out if I like it or not. I guess it's not too bad, but I will definitely stick to coffee. Not that I like that much either. This stuff seems to be an awful lot of work to go through every morning. How come Tav gets it to look so easy?

I continue drinking my tee and try to figure out what to do with the rest of my day. I actually end up in the library again, talking to Sollux once and burying myself in a book for the rest of the time. Karkat messages me a few times and Sollux comes by to tell me to shut my phone. There were younger kids here and the mothers wouldn't appreciate my choice of alarm.

I quickly get back to the book, which is really rare. The book itself isn't that good to be honest. I just need something else to think about than Dave and the book has lots of mystical creatures and shit like that. They sort of remind me of Tav, how he loves these sorts of things.

Sollux comes to me at around half five, dragging me to the backroom to eat. I've actually read the book I'm holding three times already, too lazy to get a new book and am very glad to get a reason to leave it there.

"Tho, why aren't you home? I bet Tav ith already there", he lisps and I chuckle lightly.

"Just wanna all up and hang with my coolest bro", I answer and he stares at me for a bit before taking another bite of his food.

"You know, John hath come up with an idea to go thwimming in the lake", he says to change the subject which narrowly missed Tavros and Dave.

"At this time of the year?" I ask confused. Who'd ever want that?

"Yeah, he thayth he liked to thwim in a frozen lake at hith old cottage in Finland. He thayth it won't be cold now compared to then", Sollux explains, sounding like he doesn't believe his own words.

"Well that sounds like motherfucking miracles to me", I say smiling and my bro gives me a look of horror.

"What, you mean you'd be willing to go thwim in winter and freeze your ath off?" he asks and I nod slowly.

"Sure, if there would be others", I answer. This is starting to sound like fun.

"I will never underthand you", Sollux says shaking his head lightly and chuckling I finish my food.

I go back to my apartment at around half six. The sound I hear from inside, though, gets me to stop at the door.

"Out", I hear Tavros yell and then there's another voice.

"Fine, I'll go. Don't come crawling back like the cripple you are!"

The owner of the angry voice then bursts out of the door. Dave stops to glare at me for a moment before he continues down the stairs three or four at a time. I stare after him for a second before I enter the apartment to find that Tav isn't anywhere to be seen.

"Tavbro? You all right?" I ask a tad worried and close the door quietly, creeping into the flat.

"Oh god, d-did you h-hear that?" I hear his timid voice from the bedroom and follow it. What I see isn't what I was expecting, even though I don't really know what I was expecting in the first place. Tav is sitting on his bed, sheets all wrinkled, eyes red and shirt tossed somewhere, hugging his chest tightly.

"What did he do?" I ask hands clenching into fists, every muscle tense.

"W-wait, Gamzee, d-don't go do anything s-stupid", he says quickly, eyeing me a bit terrified. "And I'd r-rather not talk, about it, right now."

I relax a bit and carefully sit down next to him, pulling him closer to me and rub his back. At this point he tears up and starts crying, burying his face in my chest, getting my shirt wet. I really don't care about it. I've got a lot more to worry about, like comforting Tavros.

"W-we b-broke up", he says shakily between sobs and suddenly I understand. Dave must have gone too far. He must have got Tavros all uncomfortable and Tav didn't like it. So that's what was going on.

"It's all right. Everything will turn out all right", I say soothingly and after some time I find that Tav has fallen asleep in my arms.

I lay him back in his bed and pull the covers over his head. For a second the thought of taking his pants off crosses my mind but I immediately dismiss it. That would just freak him out, and probably wake him up too.

So I just get up and go to the kitchen to make him some food for when he wakes up. Something small and light.

And maybe some tee.