This is the chapter that originally read "I walk to the room of my door" and yet again it got me to laugh as I read it. I really should have had a beta reader or at least checked these the last time I uploaded them.

We play a few rounds of chess and I keep on losing. Tav has tried many times to get me to concentrate, but I can't seem to get my mind off of him. I have a second chance. I have a motherfucking second chance!

And this time I won't fail. I'll tell Tav soon. I have to before anyone else does, but it can't be too soon. He's clearly upset about Dave braking up with him.

I jerk out of my thoughts and fall on my back when I notice Tav's face only inches from mine.

"Gamzee, you're not paying attention. I could have thrown the board out of the window and you wouldn't have noticed a thing", Tav says and I blink a few times. He must be serious, what with the look on his face.

"Sorry Tavbro, got lost all up in my miraculous thoughts", I say smiling apologetically.

"Oh, what were you thinking about then? If that's not too private, I mean", he says backing up and giving me room to sit up once again.

"Nothin' much, just about... This one person", I say, almost repeating my thoughts aloud.

"Do you, um, have a special someone?" Tavros asks. Why's he being so straight forward now?

"Yeah, I happen to have", I answer grinning widely. I just can't help myself. He looks at me for a second as if pondering whether or not to ask who, but seems to decide against it.

"Want to try some game, um, more to your liking?" he asks and I nod. So this time I'm choosing the game. Probably something easier than this one.

After an hour of playing we both get something to eat before bed. We then go to our shared bedroom and I flop onto my bed on my stomach as Tav gets his laptop onto his bed with him.

I let my mind wonder and start thinking about all the little miracles of life. Well, it's not too miraculous to see Tav like he is right now, closed around himself in his little bed, headphones on and listening to music all upset, but at least I got him to smile a few times today.

Maybe I should tell him right now. How'd I do that? Just break it to him? Or is this too soon after his break-up with Dave? Yes, it is. But it would serve Dave right to see Tav in another relationship, one that won't end just like that because even though I have fantasized about it for long now I would go at Tav's pace. If I can keep myself under control that is.

Oh, all the things I'd love to do to him. I'd kiss him, caress him, make him feel good…

Fuck. Motherfuck. Maybe thinking about that right now with Tav on the other side of the room isn't one of my brightest ideas. I don't know what I should really do now. If I get up Tav will most definitely see. But if I don't I'll probably start feeling pretty bad pretty soon. Lucky for me I'm laying on my belly and not on my back.

I only barely notice Tav leave the room, flinching slightly as he says he's going for a drink. After he's gone I sneak up to door of the room and hurry to the bathroom. Why did this keep happening to me? Twice this day!

So I quickly finish what I came to do, wash my hands, flush the toilet and head back to my room.

Tav's already there, all curled up in his bed, probably trying to sleep. I resist the urge to go over there and cuddle him. After standing at the doorway for a few seconds I make my way to my bed. It's probably best I don't do that just yet.

I fall asleep quickly and am woken up by the irritating sound of my alarm. I hate that sound. It's awful, it wakes me up in the middle of miraculous dreams that I want to continue.

But I need to get to work today. Great, just what I need. I lay on the bed for another five minutes before moving, sitting up and glancing at Tav's bed. Apparently he's already up. I quietly wonder if he got any sleep at all last night, but dismiss those thoughts as I grab a pair of pants and head to the kitchen.

Soon enough I find myself eating a sandwich while searching for my phone, which I'm sure I left in my room last night, but apparently didn't. Angry with myself for losing it I ask Tav if he'd borrow his phone so I can call my own and find the phone under my bed.

"Thanks, bro", I say returning Tav's phone.

"No problem", he says rather quietly.

"You all right?" I ask as I shove my phone into my pockets and finish my sandwich.

"Yes, I'm fine", he says barely giving me a smile. Probably worrying about seeing Dave again today. Yes, that's what he's thinking. He's thinking about Dave.

"That's great, but you're not really all up and happy looking. Wanna skip school today?" I ask as I rummage around the hall to find my keys.

"Oh no! That would be wrong!" he says this like I suggested he go jump around on a trampoline without his legs.

"Sorry, just an idea", I say chuckling a bit and shove my keys with my phone. I then find a long-sleeved purple shirt and add some make-up to my face.

I remember Kanaya once told me not to put my make-up on since it scared away all the younger customers. After giving a quick thought to this I take the clown mask off and stare at my naked face.

I'll definitely keep my make-up on anytime I can, this feels so stupid.

I message Karkat to see if he's up already, say good bye to Tavros and leave to fetch Karkat. I think this day will turn out all right.

After a short walk I open Karkat's door and walk in like I owned the place. I find Karkat in the kitchen this time with a cup of coffee in his hand and laugh.

"What's so funny dumbass?" Karkat asks not even looking at me, rubbing at his eyes.

"You're drinking that miraculous shit even as we're going to a shop where you'd get some for free from me", I say rolling my eyes and he looks at me.

"Where the hell did you leave your make-up?" he asks his expression going weird for a second or two.

"At home. Thought I'd do as Kanaya asked me to", I say shrugging it off, but he won't stop staring at my face. "What, isn't it good? You're the one always nagging about it and shit, bro."

"What? No, it's fine", he says blushing slightly and I grin.

"No need to get all embarrassed for staring. I do it all the time", I say and grab his arm, pulling him up. "Now let's go or I'll be late."