A/N at the bottom I am sure you just want to get started reading sorry about the long hiatus.

Quick Summary- Cassidy parents died when she was 7 in a car crash and lives with aunt and uncle until she flips out on the set of her new movie and gets sent by her aunt to live in Forks with her grandmother where she meets seth ;) and the rest of the pack, her friend melanie so far- Alice, Rosalie, Emmet, and Jasper, but don't worry the rest will come soon! This is a sort of a darker chapter Cassidy is going through a rough time right now.

Chapter 9- Tired of Days of the Week

I woke up in the morning and felt trapped and suffocated. I needed to get out of there and just drive. Driving always calmed me down. So I threw on some clothes, brushed me teeth, and didn't even try to deal with my hair. I grabbed my dodger's hat signed by Andre Ethier and headed out the door.

I race out of the driveway, but immediately slow down thinking that I shouldn't speed especially now. I go down the main street and there isn't any traffic but there are too many people. I want to be by myself right now. I want some time to think. All I know for sure is I need to get out of here. I take a right down a road that looks pretty foresty and deserted.

As I drive by, all I see is tree after tree after tree. Soon they all start to blend together in a swirl of brown and green. I don't know where I am going and I want to forget about where I've been, but it seems like the faster I run away the sooner things catch up to me. I am getting so sick of running.

August 21, 1997,

I look around. It is almost pitch black so I can barely see. All I know is I am alone in some strange room. Or so I thought. All of the sudden the lights start to flick on one by one getting closer and closer. I hear someone laugh and I try to run away. I have never been that good at running so I trip and fall. I hear racing footsteps behind me. They are getting louder and louder. I try to stand up but I feel too much weight constricting me. I can't move and the shadowed man is getting closer. I can see his figure running at me with a knife in his hands. Just as he gets to me I wake up screaming and crying.

"Snowflake what's wrong?" Daddy says as he comes racing into the room.

"Shadow man…sniffle….coming to get me….daddy!" A new sob comes.

My daddy takes me into his arms and holds me close. "Shh.. baby girl. Its ok, I am here now. I know you're scared, but I promise I will always be there for you to protect you. I love you. Everything is going to be alright."

I hold on tighter to Daddy's night robe and burry my head in its softness. He always smelled like cinnamon and a warm fire. So comforting and I felt completely safe.

"Do you want me to sleep in here tonight?" Daddy asks.

"I can't sleep now the shadow man will come back!' I say terrified of my nightmare.

"Not with me in here he won't! Lets get some chocolate chip cookies and milk. Then we can see how you feel."

"Okey dokey! I love choco chips!"

We stayed up really late eating cookies and Daddy told me funny stories until I wasn't scared anymore and fell asleep on the couch. He tucked me into bed and stayed in my room the rest of the night.

I promise I will always be there for you to protect you. I love you. Everything is going to be alright….

That was the last promise he ever made to me.

He never kept that promise though. He couldn't protect me anymore. He wasn't here anymore. I need him so badly; I want to feel safe and for him to tell me everything is going to be alright. But that's never going to happen. Why did he have to leave? Why did this happen to me?

I miss my mom so much too. She is supposed to help me through all these crazy teen years and be there to support me through all the bad decisions I am going to make. I feel so alone right now and I know that's not fair because I have many people who love and care about me, but I want my family back.

I just don't know what to do anymore and everything is changing so fast and I just want my parents! I want my daddy and mommy and I don't fucking care if I sound pathetic or if I should of moved on by now and accepted their death. I just want them back, but I know that is never going to happen.

And look at my life; I am a complete mess. I flipped out on my director and ruined that movie. I was so insane that my godparents felt the need to send me away. How could my parents feel proud of me if they were watching, would they even care. No I can't even let myself think that because it just leaves a bigger hole in my heart. I know that they will always be with me.

But its not enough. I try to make it enough but its not even close. I can barely see the road anymore my eyes are pouring tears.

*Sirens*….. beep beep….. Please pull over…

You have got to be fucking kidding me. I speed constantly and the one time I am having the worst day I get pulled over by a cop. I wipe the tears away from my eyes and check to make sure it doesn't look like I have been crying in the mirror.

"Excuse me M'am, can I see your drivers license and registration?" says a man who looks like a pretty nice guy, but today I was not in the mood.

"Yes its all right here. Now what exactly did I get pulled over for?" I knew I was speeding, but we were on a deserted road its not really that big of a deal.

"Well you were going about sixty mph and since your in a residential area the speed limit is only 25 mph. Therefore-"

"What the hell are you talking about residential area? I am on a deserted road in the middle of the fricken forest? I didn't even know there was a speed limit!" You have got to be joking me. I would think I was being punked, but Ashton Kutcher wouldn't even come to the crappy town of forks.

"Well. There are people who live right up the road. You must be new to the town. Oh that's right you are Sarah Lynn's granddaughter. She was a great police chief you know I took her spot when she retired. She handpicked me. I was at the top of the class. It was a real honor-"

"Ya that's great." Seriously top of class how many were there two? "but I really have some where to be. My grandma is expecting me back so if we could get to the point?" oops might have been a little rude, but I don't want to talk to ANYBODY today. If he would just leave me alone, I am getting a little more than mildly irritated.

"Well I don't care if you are the old police chief's granddaughter or not. Here in Forks we judge everyone fairly and there is no special treatment, which is good and bad. In your case bad. Here is your ticket for speeding. It is for 100 dollars since this is your first offence. Have a nice day." And he walked away.

There is no way I just got a ticket. For your first time aren't you supposed to get a warning? Whatever I don't even care I just want to go home. And my home is NOT in Forks. I hate this town!

::::::::BACK AT THE HOUSE::::::::

I walk in the door and am immediately called to the living room.

"Cassidy you better come in here right now!" Isn't this just the topping to my fan-freaking-tastic day.

"Let me guess you aren't happy?"

"Don't use that smart mouth with me young lady. I heard you got a ticket for speeding!" Wow I really should be surprised she found out so soon, but sadly I am not.

"Yes I did and why do you care?" It was just a speeding ticket not that big of a deal.

"Don't you dare talk to me like that. You know I care about you."

"We have freedom of speech. I live in America. And if you care so much about me why the hell can't I leave this stupid town and go back to my old life!"

"That's it you are grounded. I just can't believe you out of all people would get a speeding ticket. What would your parents think?" That's it she did not just bring them up.

"Just shut up! You have no idea what they would think or say! It wouldn't matter anyway because they aren't here anymore. If you want to ground me fine. I don't really give a crap. Just stop talking to me. I am going upstairs."

"Cassidy-"

"I don't want to hear it." I ran upstairs and slammed my door and locked it. I grabbed my ipod and blasted it really loud. Even the music couldn't make my mind shut up.

I lay down and tried to go to sleep, but it was too hard. It started raining and for the first time I liked it because it matched my mood.

I finally drifted off to sleep after a very long day.

A/N I know it has been way too long. I have just been in this mood where I couldn't write and I have actually had this chapter done besides some minor adjustments for a while now, but I didn't want to post it until I was positive I could get back into the swing of posting regularly again. I have the chapter after this done besides final proof read and the chapter after that has a significant amount done. So I am BACK! Whoo hopefully I still have some of you readers with me =] like I said I am super sorry

-Jenna Starr