Last update for tonight! I managed to get it done today :)
I go make sure Gamzee is in his bed and find him already asleep. I have to admit, he looks harmless now, but I know better than that. Once I came home to find the whole apartment was a mess, and Gamzee was sobbing in the corner. He then told me about his problem, his anger issues, and I persuaded him to use the meds he had. He hated the meds. He said they made him see things sometimes.
Quietly I dig out the picture I drew for him and place it next to his alarm clock, which I turn off since he usually forgets to do it himself and I know he doesn't work on Sundays.
I go to my own bed head full of thoughts about tomorrow. I wonder what Gamzee will think of my picture.
I wake up the next morning pretty early, but I don't really mind. I get up and put on some clothes. Then I check on Gamzee. He's still sleeping, now on his back, looking peaceful.
I wheel out of the room and flip on the TV, turning the volume down. I grab some bread to munch on while watching the shows, not sure what I want to stay and watch. I simply flip through all the channels before returning to some weird show and sticking with it. For now at least.
After a while I hear Gamzee stir and get up. He shuffles around the room before a sudden silence comes in place. "Tav?" I hear him ask.
"Yeah?" I reply turning my head slightly.
"Did you draw this?" he asks voice quivering a bit.
"The picture? Yes", I answer carefully. I wonder what he might think about it.
Next I hear him walking. I turn my head and notice he's in the living room. Without a word he walks over to the couch and sits down next to me. For a bit we both stare at each other.
Suddenly Gamzee drapes his arms around me, pulling me closer and burying his face in the crook of my neck.
"G-gamzee! What's wrong?" I ask, hugging him back.
"I never thought it true. I never believed. Not after you and Dave", he mumbles. Then he starts shaking and I hug him closer. "Is it true?"
"Is what true?" I ask back and he pulls back, showing me the picture.
"This?" he asks. I stare at the picture for a few seconds before answering with a small smile.
"We can make it true", I whisper pulling him in for a soft little kiss.
I can tell he wasn't expecting that. He hesitates and I pull away smiling at him. He stares at me dumbfounded before shuddering again and I pull him in for another hug.
"I know it's too early but I motherfucking love you Tav", he says almost crushing me with a hug.
I don't know how to reply to this, so I hug him back. "Could you then, possibly, not crush me?" I ask and he immediately releases me smiling apologetically.
"I'll make you some breakfast", I say, get into my wheelchair and leave him on the couch with his picture. I quickly make him a nice breakfast and put two pills next to it before calling him to eat it. I then abscond to my room and open the computer to check who is online. Should I tell anyone yet? No, no I shouldn't.
It's Sunday and around ten o'clock, so I don't really expect anyone to be on. Well, of course I'm proven wrong and Karkat is on, but he's almost always on. And so is Sollux. I just hope no-one else comes, since someone like Vriska would want to talk to me, and I didn't feel like talking right now.
Now that I think of it I start to wonder why I still have Vriska in my chumroll. She's always mean to me and insulting me every chance she gets. Maybe I should block her. But then she would start to tease me about being a coward, like she did the last time I tried blocking her. Oh god she can be annoying.
I watch the names of my friends for a while before deciding to do something useful. I open YouTube, plug in my headphones and search for some music to listen to. Some rap would be nice. Not that it will help out that much. Not about any emotional things.
I let the music take over my world as I doodle something random on a piece of paper. It ends up being close to a hastily drawn picture of Gamzee with a guitar. I don't think Gamzee even plays the guitar, or any instrument for that matter. He mostly raps, nothing too musical or artistic.
As I change the song I hear the beep of someone pestering me. It seems Sollux has something to say to me.
twinArmageddons [TA] began pestering adiosToreador
TA: hey, KK told me you fiigured GZ out.
TA: ii2 iit true?
AT: uMM, sORT OF, i GUESS,
TA: ehehe, took you long enough.
TA: he'2 had thii2 thiing for you for liike forever a2 ii know of iit.
AT: oH,,,
TA: anyway2, ii wa2 wonderiing when you'll make your move?
TA: KK told me you were planniing 2omethiing
AT: aCTUALLY, i ALREADY DID,
TA: wait what?
TA: what diid you do?
AT: oH, wELL, i DREW A PICTURE,
TA: that'2 iit?
TA: you drew a fuckiing piicture?
TA: TV, ii know you can draw, but ii2n't that a biit, ii don't know..
TA: lame?
AT: hE LIKED IT,
TA: wait a 2econd
TA: what wa2 the piicture about, when diid you giive iit and what happened?
TA: ju2t tell me everythiing
AT: wELL, i DREW US, uM, kISSING,
TA: god, what ii2 goiing through your miind?
AT: i, uHH, pUT IT NEXT TO HIS ALARM CLOCK,
AT: hE WAS ALREADY ASLEEP,
TA: 2o you left iit for hiim to fiind?
AT: sORT OF, yEAH,
TA: ii 2eriiou2ly have no iidea how you thiink
AT: wELL IT WORKED,
AT: hE, uHH, fOUND IT, aND CAME TO ASK IF i DREW IT,
AT: aND, uM, wE KISSED,
TA: are you 2hiitiing me?
TA: ii know he'2 de2perate but you two already kii22ed?
TA: hell, ii don't under2tand the two of you anymore
AT: iT WAS MORE LIIKE, uMM, pROOF FOR HIM, tHAT THIS WAS REAL,
AT: aND IT WAS SHORT,
TA: 2tiill
TA: ii gotta tell thii2 to KK riight now
AT: oH, pLEASE DON'T TELL EVERYONE!
TA: …
TA: fiine, ju2t KK then,
twinArmageddons [TA] ceased pestering adiosToreador
I sigh. Apparently I had to tell someone then. Lucky it wasn't Vriska. And god do I hope Sollux and Karkat keep it to them selves until it becomes official, or something. I don't even know anymore.
