Inner Turmoil
by:unsp0ken
Disclaimer: Yes, yes, I don't own Naruto. Stop rubbing it in my face.
A/N: I'm going to try to update a little more regularly, but I guarantee nothing!
Kakashi inhaled sharply before pushing himself off her and leaning back against the pillows. Sakura followed suit, settling in next to him.
"Sakura, if you keep things up like that this is going to go way too fast."
"Mmm, but maybe that's exactly what I want sensei."
"How can you know what you want? You've just had your first kiss, you don't know the first thing about what you want from this."
Kakashi could see that she was hurt from what he'd just said, but he stood firm in his decision. He couldn't take advantage of her if this was just a fleeting moment, but looking at her, downcast and looking dejected, he couldn't help but wonder if he'd said the wrong thing.
"Look, Sakura, it's not as if I don't find you attractive, but if this is going to be your first time, you should make sure you won't regret it come tomorrow."
The sudden shift in Sakura's demeanor scared him. Just a minute ago she was on the verge of tears and now? Now she was glaring at him so hard he could feel her eyes boring a hole through his forehead. She stiffened and looked him straight in the eyes and with no hesitation in her voice, began to calmly set him straight.
"Kakashi, whether you realize it or not, I am a grown woman. I know the difference between love and lust. You are a man I both respect and admire, and over the years, I have come to love you for who you are. You've put your life on the line to save me, and I like to think I've returned the favor more than a few times. You're inexplicably late, stubborn as hell, and an outright pervert, but I still love you. Every time I get especially called into the hospital, I know it's you because you won't let anyone else heal you. And every time, I feel my heart stop because I don't know how much you've been injured, but at the same time, I'm overjoyed that I'm one of the first people you see when you get back. Sure, the fact that you're incredibly good-looking and one of the best shinobi in Konoha has its bonuses too, but that's not the bulk of my reasoning. I started really noticing you when I turned 16, but when I beat you in that spar when I was 18, I knew. I knew that I loved you, and I don't want to ever lose you Kakashi."
Kakashi was overwhelmed with emotion upon hearing her confession. He couldn't believe that for four years she'd felt the same way. But as much as he longed to fulfill this four year longing, he was afraid. Afraid that the moment he let her in, he would lose her. He couldn't lose her, he wouldn't be able to handle losing another loved one. After Obito and Rin had died, he hadn't allowed anyone to get too close. And now, given another chance, he wasn't sure what to do.
"Maybe you should get some rest Sakura. We can talk about this later."
"But Kakashi! This is-"
"I know it's important Sakura, but I need some time to think. Later, please."
Sakura recognized the desperation in his voice and decided to let it go for now. She lay down on her side, facing the wall, silently wishing she had just kept her mouth shut. She felt his weight leave the bed and heard the door close, but could do nothing but lie there, hoping he would come back.
Morning broke and after sobbing to sleep, Sakura awoke lethargic and put out. Simple tasks seemed tedious and even finding a change of clothes turned into a chore. Finally, she found something and promptly began changing.
Knock knock
"Sakuraaa~"
"What the hell do you want Genma?"
"Would you happen to know where Kakashi is sweet cheeks?"
"No, I wouldn't. And don't call me sweet cheeks!"
"Wait, Kakashi's not in there with you?"
"No, he's not. I just said that."
"Well he's not here… and he didn't leave any kind of note…"
"Are you telling me he's disappeared?"
"Actually I was thinking more along the lines of kidnapped. I already asked the staff here and no one's seen him."
"So now you're telling me the great copy ninja was kidnapped? Please, Genma, just go away, whatever crazy theories you have can wait until after I've changed."
"Well in that case…"
The doorknob for the bedroom began turning slowly, but before Sakura had a chance to even turn around she heard a loud crash. In fact, in was the sound of splintering wood as Kakashi slammed Genma's head into the door while closing the door shut.
"What was that about me being kidnapped Genma?"
"O-Oh. Hey there Kakashi. I, uh, didn't hear you come in?"
"Why don't you give up on trying to put the moves on Sakura, it's pretty obvious she's not interested."
"Well since you're not interested, I can think of plenty of guys who would take her up on that offer she made you last night, me included of course."
"… Excuse me?"
"Oh please, the walls here aren't that thick. My dick is thicker than these walls. Besides, I'm a light sleeper." (A/N: I highly doubt anyone's dick can be that thick. Goodness gracious Genma.)
The second he finished that last sentence, he knew he was going to regret what he'd said. The look in Kakashi's eyes said it all. The one-more-word-and-I'll-kill-you look. Dropping Genma trembling on the ground, and completely forgetting what Sakura was doing on the other side of the door, he entered the bedroom with a sigh and closed the door behind him. Turning around, he came face-to-face with an extremely scantily clad Sakura.
A deep red blush was covering Sakura's entire face, but Kakashi didn't even notice, since that wasn't where he was looking. The dim lighting of last night hadn't allowed him to appreciate exactly what she was wearing last night, but in the light of day, she looked stunning. The nightgown had come off while she was changing so all that was left was the matching lacy lingerie set. Deep red bra and underwear trimmed with stark white lace and cute little bows. And the contrast with her pale skin was absolutely breathtaking. Sure she had a few scars, but Kakashi found it appealing. Then there was the biting of her lip. It was all sexy and innocent and he loved it.
"Uh, Kakashi?"
Kakashi's gaze snapped up to her face and realizing that he was just openly ogling her, he jumped back so fast and hard, he knocked the door clear off its hinges and straight onto Genma who had been eavesdropping the whole time.
A/N: Another new chapter! As usual... REVIEWS PLEASE!
