Brooke sat in the doctor's office glancing at the clock every so often and sighing trying to keep her emotions in check. Nathan was supposed to meet her so they could go together. He had promised her this morning he would get out of school and meet her for the appointment and then lunch afterwards. She was hoping that he wouldn't let her down but knowing her luck school was being stupid and not letting him out. She sighed again and wiped at the tear that was falling down her face. She didn't need to cry in the doctor's office when they were people already looking at her strange.
She looked down at her stomach and knew that it wasn't because she was overly big but she just starting to show a little bit. They were looking at her because they probably knew about her being 17 and knocked up and marrying the mayor's son. She wanted to stand up and scream but she didn't think losing her cool over people looking at her funny was worth it. The doctor came out and called her name and she took one more look at the door when Nathan came running in out of breath. She smiled and together they went into the office.
They sat in the office with the doctor when she dropped the bomb shell. "It seems that you had a miscarriage Brooke." His face was grim almost as if he wanted the baby to be alright and for everything to be okay in the world. Brooke looked at him almost questioning him with her eyes and he sadly nodded. She looked at Nathan was holding her hand but he didn't say anything.
"How did it happen?"
"Sometimes we can't tell they just happen."
"What did I do wrong?"
"You did nothing wrong Brooke. It just happened." Nathan stood up and put his arm around Brooke's shoulder as she started to cry. He silently shed a tear as they sat in the doctor's office.
Later on in the afternoon after Brooke had insisted that Nathan go back to school Brooke found herself sitting in the unfinished nursery sobbing. She felt as if part of her was missing and she hadn't even been pregnant for 3 months. It was at least a month and a half at most and she felt like she lost the one thing she loved most. She was getting used to being pregnant and having a kid. She was looking forward to spending time with her child and now that was ripped away from her while she sat wondering what went wrong.
Nathan went back to school not because he wanted to but because he wanted to make Brooke happy. He threw himself into a seat in the back of the room wanting to detach himself from everyone else. Brooke had lost the baby and he knew that she was torn up inside but he even felt sad. He was really looking forward to getting married and starting his family with Brooke and now they had to overcome this devastating tragedy. He put his head down and tried not to let the sadness overcome him. He had to make it the last 2 classes of the day and then he would go home and comfort Brooke.
Luke watched as Nathan kept his head on the desk knowing that something was wrong but didn't know if he should ask or just let Nathan deal with it. Luke's thoughts were cut short by the teacher trying to get Nathan's attention.
"Mr. Scott maybe you would like to lift your head and join us?" Luke knew that if something was really wrong Nathan was surely going to get kicked out of class.
"Maybe I just want to be left the hell alone, did you ever think about that? I mean I'm not doing anything wrong, I'm not disrupting class. I'm just sitting here with my head down because I'm having a day from hell if you know what that's like."
"Pay attention or leave Mr. Scott its simple." Nathan smirked and shook his head. He didn't need this today, any other day but not today. He gathered his things and got up out of his seat slowly walking to the door Luke looked at him and instantly knew that something wasn't right with Brooke that was the only thing that Luke thought could make Nathan act like this.
After class Luke caught up with Nathan on the way to class and pulled him aside. "Hey what's going on?"
"I don't wanna talk about it right now."
"Nate you know that you can't keep it bottled it up inside right?"
"Look I have so much to deal with and now with detention for the next 2 days I don't have time."
"You know that I'm here for you right?"
"Yeah look I can't afford any more screw ups right now so I'll talk to you later." Luke just shook his head and watched Nathan walk away, he felt Peyton next to him and he turned towards her.
"Something's wrong Peyton."
"I know Brooke just left me a voicemail. She sounds terrible."
"You don't think they broke up do you?"
"No they just made up there's no way they broke up." Peyton said hoping that it was true. She didn't think that Brooke could handle it if her and Nathan split up. Peyton gave Luke a quick kiss before going off to class to join Nathan and possibly figure out what was going on with them. Peyton walked into class and made her way towards Nathan who was trying to get Tim to shut up. "Hey Tim can I talk to Nathan for a moment?"
"Can't you see we're busy Blondie?"
"Tim move." Nathan stated not wanting to make Peyton angry because he's seen her angry and he never wanted to see that again.
"What's going on Nathan and don't tell me nothing because Brooke left me a voicemail and she sounded terrible."
"Did she tell you?" He asked not wanting to say it if she already knew, he didn't need everyone hearing it and then talking about it.
"Tell me what Nathan? All I know is that she wants me to come over after school."
"I think she should tell you and if she asked where I am after school tell her something came up with Luke. Don't tell her I have detention because she doesn't need to worry about it."
"Okay."
"Thank you Peyton." She looked at him almost studying him because something changed. He sounded so scared when he asked if Brooke told her and then so sincere when he asked her to lie to Brooke so she didn't worry. Something had undoubtedly changed in Nathan and she almost feared that something terrible had happened to cause his change in him.
When the bell rang Nathan slowly made his way to detention and met up with Luke. "What are you doing in detention?"
"I was late to class and I guess the teacher didn't want to hear why so she just gave me detention."
"I'm shocked." Luke just shrugged and together they willed the clock to move faster.
Peyton made her way to Brooke's apartment and tried to stop her mind from racing. She knocked on the door and it opened a little and Peyton made her way into the apartment. She was shocked when she saw the apartment; it was so big and homely like. She thought they would be living in an apartment much smaller than this one. She stopped dead in her tracks when she heard sobbing coming from down the hall and instantly she made her way to find Brooke.
When she found Brooke in the unfinished room she had a feeling as to what Brooke had to tell her. Brooke looked up at Peyton and wiped her eyes and stood up making her way over to Peyton. She smiled and made her way into the kitchen starting the coffee maker. They stood in silence for awhile before Brooke broke the silence.
"Where's Nathan?"
"Oh he and Luke had some stuff do with Whitey."
"Oh, why didn't he call?"
"Well he heard that I was coming over here and asked me to tell you."
"Oh." She looked down at the ground trying to work up the courage to tell Peyton about what had happened today.
"Brooke what's wrong? You sounded terrible on your message." Brooke lifted her head and nodded knowing that she did sound pretty terrible when she called Peyton and Nathan's phone but she couldn't help it.
"Let's sit down and I'll tell you." Peyton nodded and followed Brooke to the table with her cup of coffee in her hand. "Okay so as you know I went to the doctor this morning and of course Nathan came in at the last minute I mean that's just Nathan. So we were sitting in the office doing the ultrasound when the doctor said there was no heartbeat and I didn't know what that really meant until he told me that I had a miscarriage."
"Oh Brooke I'm so sorry."
"I know Peyton. Losing the baby was horrible but then I was thinking that maybe Nathan was only marrying me because I was having his child. What if now that I'm not having the baby he doesn't want to marry me?"
"Brooke you're being crazy again. Nathan loves you Brooke. He's in it for the long haul." Brooke shook her head a small smile on her face.
"I am being crazy, aren't I?" Peyton nodded her head and Brooke laughed a little before they settled into an uneasy silence. Peyton knew that she was on an emotional roller coaster and only Brooke could get off of it. None of them could relate to what she was going through and all they could do was be there for her to comfort her and help her through it.
Nathan walked into the apartment worried when he didn't hear anything. He saw Peyton and Brooke hugging by the kitchen table and then Peyton was walking past him reminding Brooke about their coffee date just leaving Nathan and Brooke.
He had a lot of time to think about the day's events during detention and the thought that Brooke might think that he was going to walk away and just leave her to pick up the pieces from losing the baby. He watched as she made her way into the bedroom and shut the door quietly behind her. He sighed hating that he could do absolutely nothing to cheer her up and could only be there to hold her as she cried and tell her that everything was going to be okay. He made his way slowly to the bedroom and stopped at the closed door putting his ear to the door to hear if she was crying or not. When he heard nothing he slowly turned the door knob and made his way over to where she was sitting with her head in her hands.
He knelt down in front of her lifting her chin with his finger so she was looking at her. "I love you." He whispered hoping that she didn't doubt it; he needed her to know how much he loved her especially after having her heart ripped out and stomped on again. "I know that you might be thinking that I'm going to leave you but I'm not now more than ever. Don't you think if I would have wanted to leave I would've left that day at school after I got out of the hospital? There's too much involved now that I wouldn't dream of leaving you."
"Nathan," She started the tears rolling down her face.
"No I'm not done yet, please just let me finish." She nodded her head closing her eyes to stop the tears that were falling. "I know that you're thinking that you did something to deserve losing our child and that you did something wrong for this to happen but you didn't. It's not your fault, I can't tell you how much you need to believe that. It sucks that it happened but that doesn't mean that it's going to happen again. You just need to have faith that everything will happen."
"Are you done?"
"Yes I'm done now." She nodded and pulled her legs up onto the bed curling herself into a tight ball now sobbing. Nathan stood up and crawled into bed with her holding on to her as he had the night they made up. "Everything's going to be okay Brooke. I promise that everything will be okay." She didn't say anything, she wanted to believe his words so badly but right now she didn't think everything was going to be okay. She felt as if her whole world was falling apart and she could do nothing to stop it. Nathan looked at her and kissed her temple hoping that everything would indeed be okay.
