Chapter 6
Yay! Chapter 6! :D
Jade's POV
Great. I feel like shit. Beck actually shattered me. He broke me. He was the only person that made me feel wanted. He was the only person that made me feel loved. And now I'm pretty much clueless. Where the hell am I supposed to go now? My house is the only choice. I run down the sidewalk and reach my house, which feels like hours. I notice my dad's car in the driveway. I groan before going to the side of the house where my window is. Luckily, it's open. There are vines lining the house, so I begin grabbing and climbing up them. I'm halfway there when I hear my dad's voice. Shit.
"Jadelyn?" He questions to my room. I press my body completely against the house and stop breathing.
"Guess that girl isn't here," he mutters to himself. "Probably hanging out with that boy." And with that, my bedroom door shuts. If only he was still my boyfriend. I continue to quietly climb up until I try my best to be silent as I shuffle into my room. I walk over and silently lock my door. I hear a faint meow from under my bed. I duck under and see my completely grey cat, Dusk. Only Cat and Beck know about him.
"Hey buddy," I say. "What's wrong?" He doesn't move. He just blinks slowly at me. I reach over to pet his head. After a few seconds, I pet his back. He growls deeply and moves over some. What's up with him? Then it hits me. He was hit by a car. I already feel the tears stinging in my eyes. How did he wound up outside anyway? I bet my dad threw him out there. Anger and pure depression take over me, silent tears falling down my cheeks. I look out my window and see my dad's car gone now. I breathe a sigh of relief, but I make pathetic little weeping sounds now. I only cry like this when I'm alone, or with Beck or Cat. But that's not happening anymore. I take his water bowl and crawl back under the bed.
"Drink." My voice cracks. "Please." He doesn't touch it. I feel my back shake as I cry more, laying my head in my arm. I would take him to the emergency room, but I don't have the money. I will never have that kind of money. I eventually fall asleep under my bed, next to him with tear stains on my cheeks.
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The next two weeks went by fast. They had all had the same routine. I would get dressed at home, suffer another beating, cover the marks up, make to school just on time, not talk to anybody during or in between classes, sit alone at lunch and listen to sad songs, then skip Sikowitz class and head straight home to Dusk. I'm pretty sure I've come down with severe depression. I haven't eaten in days and only drink a few bottles of water a day. Right before everyone's eyes, I'm breaking slowly and painfully. Like glass that can never get put back together. Because I'm that far from being fixable in my mind.
I slowly walk to my locker after my last class. Today was the first time I went to Sikowitz class in about two weeks. He called me and Beck to the front for some scene, but I just sat on the steps of the stage with my hands gripping my hair.
"Jade, please. Tell what the hell is going on." Beck says from behind me, causing me to jump.
"The normal is what's going on, Beck." I snap back at him.
"Oh don't even try to pull that bullshit with me, Jade." He suddenly has hurt flashed across his face, but anger reflects in his eyes. He's really not gonna let me get away with it this time.
"Whatever. I don't have time to explain it." I walk away and begin to head home, but he catches up to me in his car.
"Get in." He rolls down the window. Might as well. I open the door and slam it before he drives off to my house.
"Now you have time to explain," he smirks. I glare at him.
"You'll find out when we get there," I respond quietly, sinking into my seat. Within minutes we reach my house. I unlock the door and we walk in, heading to my room.
"You shouldn't even be here," I sneer at him.
"But I am. Now tell me what's wrong. Because I know you're depressed. That much is obvious." He sits on my bed. I get down on the ground and see Dusk.
"Come here, Dusk." I try to get him to move, but his eyes don't even open. My vision goes blurry.
"Don't do this to me," my voice breaks during my sentence. "C'mon, wake up." Beck gets down next to me and sees him.
"Jade, I-"
"Don't even say you're sorry. It won't change anything," I cut him off. He gets up and I hear Tori and Andre's voice behind me.
"What happened?" Tori asks. I hear whispers.
"Jade, watch out." Beck tells me softly. I shake my head and fight the urge to cry. He gently pulls me out from under my bed and takes me in his arms. I keep my eyes closed because the second they open, the tears will pour.
"You can open your eyes now." Beck's voice fills my pounding ears. I shake my head. I feel myself lifted and carried out of the house.
"What the hell do you think you're doing?" I hear my dad's voice in the background. Oh, joy. But I don't dare open my eyes now.
"Keeping Jade safe," Beck simply responds, placing me back in the front seat and strapping my seatbelt on. The door shuts right as Andre speaks. I slowly open my eyes, refusing to let the tears fall. I see Andre and Beck blocking my door and Tori locking herself in Andre's car. Wimp.
"She hates you! And you hate her! What's the point of having her here if you're just gonna hurt her?!" Beck screams. He's got a point there. My dad surprisingly walks inside without having the last word. Beck gets in the car and speeds off. We reach his RV and I get out, dragging my feet on the pavement. Beck unlocks his door and we walk in. I collapse onto his bed, tears immediately falling down my cheeks. I feel more weight shift on the bed and beck pulls me back in his arms. I start making those pathetic little noises and soak his clean shirt with my teardrops. He rubs my back and I fist his shirt as I cry more. After 15 minutes, I calm down and he kisses the top of my head.
I feel warm.
I feel whole.
I feel wanted.
I feel loved.
Yeah, I know, really depressing. I was listening to all these sad songs like Cry by Alexx Caslie, Whiter Horse by Taylor Swift, Jar of Hearts by Christina Perri, Last Kiss by Taylor Swift, Breathe by Taylor Swift, etc. But I liked the ending:') So heartfelt and touching:D BTW, Beck and Jade are NOT Beck&Jade! Yet! Stay tuned…;)
