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Hey guys, sorry I didn't update Friday, my computer was being retarded and wouldn't let me update. I was freaking out this weekend trying to get it to work. I finally just gpot it! Yay!


Chapter 30:

Secret Hallway

"Mom?" Nessie asked as she woke up.

"Oh Nessie!" I said as I hugged her. "You scared me, you were out almost an hour" I said.

"Oh wow . . .oh!" she said as she remembered something.

"Yes . . . I know" I said as I lifted the sleeves on her shirt.

She looked down and her cheeks flushed for being caught.

"Sorry" she mumbled.

"Yeah missy. That was very terrible" I said trying to be strict but I ended up laughing.

"I just . . . didn't want to worry you" she said.

"It's okay . . . well, no. Lying isn't okay but I understand why you did it. Tell me next time though, I need to know these things" I said.

"Okay, so, what happened after I went cold" she asked.

I tensed up and tried to laugh it off. She seemed to notice but didn't say anything.

"Nothing much. I paid Rosalie back and then brought you home" I said giving her the short version.

"She has some serious issues" Nessie said.

"I think she's just upset over me. She never wanted this life for me, she thought I was making a mistake . . . but she's a good person" I lied.

From my perspective, she wasn't but I didn't want Nessie thinking her aunt was mental. Though she didn't even know Rosalie was her aunt but . . .still.

"So . . . am I off the hook?" She asked.

I laughed. "Not by a long shot. No cell phone or car for a week" I said.

"Mom!"

"Hand them over" I said.

She grumbled and finally threw the car keys from the cabinet and fished out her phone from her pocket, placing them in my hand.

"Thank you. Now get some rest" I said as I kissed her forehead and headed out of her room. Was I doing the right thing? Was it best not to tell her??

NPOV

I woke up in my room, covered in blankets. I was wearing some sweats and my head was throbbing like crazy. I tried to remember what happened. Rosalie . . . door . . . mom!

"Mom?!" Nessie asked.

"Oh Nessie!" she said as she hugged me. "You scared me, you were out almost an hour" she said.

"Oh wow . . .oh!" An hour! Wait! Did she find out??

"Yes . . . I know" she answered as though she read my thought and lifted the sleeves on my shirt.

Uhoh. I looked down and my cheeks flushed for being caught.

"Sorry" I mumbled.

"Yeah missy. That was very terrible" she said trying to be strict but she just ended up laughing.

"I just . . . didn't want to worry you" I explained.

"It's okay . . . well, no. Lying isn't okay but I understand why you did it. Tell me next time though, I need to know these things" she said.

"Okay, so, what happened after I went cold" I asked.

It was all hazy. She tensed and then tried to laugh but it didn't sound right

"Nothing much. I paid Rosalie back and then brought you home" she said and I knew she was giving me the quick version.

"She has some serious issues" I said.

"I think she's just upset over me. She never wanted this life for me, she thought I was making a mistake . . . but she's a good person" my mom said defending Rosalie.

Why? Defending Rosalie!! Yet, there was something deep in her eyes. Regret? Maybe pain? Whatever it was, she was hiding it well.

"So . . . am I off the hook?" I asked.

She laughed. "Not by a long shot. No cell phone or car for a week"

My jaw nearly dropped to the floor.

"Mom!"

"Hand them over" she said extending her hands.

I grumbled and finally threw the car keys from the cabinet and fished out my phone from my pocket, placing them in her hand.

"Thank you. Now get some rest" she suggested as she kissed my forehead and headed out of the room.

Something was wrong . . . I just couldn't put my finger on it. Maybe she . . .

* * *

I woke around the middle of night. I checked the clock, 12:01! Oh! I was right. I was starting to get a headache from sleeping so much. Being a half-vampire, I didn't need that much sleep.

I stretched and changed. I was walking down stairs when I heard whispers coming from Sophie's room. I could hear Will's voice, Alex's, Sophie's and Mel's.

"So, do you think she's . . ."

"I don't know, maybe he . . . " I got closer to hear more but the voices suddenly cut off.

They heard me. I yawned fakely and walked down stairs. The whispers started up again. I walked downstairs where I knew my mom would be, reading. I found her stretched on the couch . . . with a book.

"Hey mom" I said behind her making her jump up.

"Oh! Hey Nessie"

"Mom, could you shield me. I want to go out for a run, think, let some stuff out and I don't want . . . " I trailed off.

"Shouldn't you sleep?"

"Mom, I don't think I can"

"Umm . . . okay. Just stay close" I nodded and headed out.

It was a cool night. The stars were out and there was a slight breeze. It was magical. I ran around to the back off the house and snuck into a secret latch at the back of the house. I had made a small system off tiny hallways and rooms in which you could spy on anyone in the house in any room. I never used them but I was bored one day when they were hunting. See, we had checked this house out a while ago but we decided to move somewhere more exotic so we didn't use it but I remodled it anyway in the hope we would use it and . . . voila!

I crawled around until I started hearing the whispers. I headed towards Sophie room, following the faint markings in the hallway. I crawled until I was on the other side of a wall in Sophie room.

"Could she possible be his?"

"I don't know . . . she never really said anything"

"But she would tell us . . . right?"

"We all have a right to some secrets . . . though this one is pretty big"

"Who knows, I'm going to go for a hunt" Mel's voice called.

"I'll join you" Will said and I heard them walk out.

"So, what do you think Alex?"

"I don't know . . . maybe they just look alike"

"Yeah, but they look a lot alike and they act alike and have the same personality and . . . do you think he possibly knew and still left?"

"Well, he left Bella, he could have left Nessie too"

"I don't know, maybe Bella will tell us but he's bound to find out. I mean, seriously, the resemblance it freaky. The same bronze hair, the same attitude, the same stubbornness and temper . . . It's just . . . "

"Bella will tell us when she's ready. Or . . . maybe we'll have to ask her. But give her time, she's in shock right know"

"That much I know"

I couldn't take it anymore. I ran out of the hallway and into the cool night. I ran out to the river near out house. I could hear the waterfall not far away. There were wildflowers blooming all around adding to the beautify. The grass was a lush green and . . . it was perfect. Yet, I sat on the edge of the river and sobbed.

Could I possibly still have a father? Could he still be alive . . . or exist? Could that possibly be Edward? Did he know? Did he abandon us anyway? Did he abandon me??

I sobbed for hours. After a while, I laid back and looked up at the stars and the moon. It was totally clear tonight. I stayed like that for a while, thinking. When you put the pieces together, it all made sense.

Edward left mom. A couple of days later, she's pregnant. She has me in a month instead of 9 and when she is changed, she sees me and I'm half vampire. But what if . . . what if I was already a half vampire? Did my mom have . . . with Edward and then had me? Is that why she freaked out when she saw him?? And who changed her in the first place??

So many questions and no solid answers!! I pounded at the ground. After I got my steam out, I laid back down. I watched the sun rise, changing the sky from black, to dark blue, to purple, to pink to orange to yellow. Finally, it turned into a cloudless blue.

The birds were chirping and the water was rushing. The forest came alive at sunrise. The leaves opened up and some flowers bloomed, letting trapped pollinating insects fly free and inviting all new ones. Their beautiful aroma filling the air. It was a beautiful sight.

Life. Life seemed so simple here . . . yet in reality, life was never simple, especially mine. I got up, feeling fully relaxed and ran home, one question repeating in my head.

What do I do now??


A/N

Oh!!! So . . . .what did you think?! Nessie knows so Edward will find out soon . . .!!!

Hahaha! So, I figured out a schedule where I can mostly write everything. Thanks for not giving up guys. Tell me what you think.

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