Chapter 32:
New Compostion
NPOV
I ran home and jumped in through my window. I changed into a pair of jeans, a hot pink tank top and a brown hoodie with hot pink letters across the middle. I left my hair loose but took a ponytail incase. I really don't care what I looked like today. I headed downstairs, avoided any direct eye contact.
"Morning mom" I said with as much cheerfulness as I could muster as I sat down at the counter.
She gave me a toaster strudel and milk.
"Morning. How was your walk?"
"Okay I guess" I said as I ate.
"Nessie . . . is something wrong?" she said.
Her tone made me look up. I saw her worry filled eyes and my accusing eyes reflected in hers.
"No, just relaxed . . . bit tired" I said as I looked down quickly.
"Are you sure" she said, her tone more worried than before.
"Yeah. I'm fine mom" I said as I finished breakfast and rushed upstairs.
"What's with her?" I heard Will ask.
I went to my room and sat on my bed.
Come on Nessie! Get a hold of yourself. You're not even sure if it's true! Get a hold of yourself!
I finally walked down to be met by 5 pairs of anxious eyes.
"What?" I asked.
"Nothing, you just seemed . . . bothered by something" Sophie said as we headed to the garage. "I know you are" she said right before she climbed in with mom.
They all piled into Sophie's car leaving me alone in mine. I guess they assumed I wanted to be alone. I drove to school slowly, not really sure what I was going to do.
Should I confront him? Should I confront mom? Should I just forget it?
By the time I got to school, I was almost late and just as lost. I went into class and took my seat quickly, eyes down. Alice and Edward were already seated. Edward seemed tense and I probably did too because Alice didn't try to start a conversation this time.
Throughout the class, I stole glances at him. Well, we had the same bronze hair . . . the same sort of face . . . the same attitude and temper (so I am told) but is it really even possible? Eventually the bell ran and I shot out of there. I went to Statistics and sat down, waiting for mom.
When she came in, she saw me and her eyes got troubled. She sat down and soon a note was in front of me.
What's wrong?
Nothing, I'm fine
Nessie . . .
Seriously, just a bit pissed at the Cullens and . . . it's nothing really. Just tired from my run
Nessie . . .
I'm FINE
Okay . . .
I stuffed the note in my bag and faced forward, taking notes occasionally. I wasn't really paying attention though. I kept glancing at Edward and my thoughts kept wandering back to last night. Did he abandon me?? The bell rang making me jump
"Bye Bella" I said quickly and shot out of there like you wouldn't believe.
I walked into Biology and took my seat quickly, barely acknowledging the Cullens.
"Okay guys. Read Chapter 23 and take some notes, we shall be working on a lab tomorrow pertaining to what you read. You were warned" Mr. Sinfrog announced.
I sighed as I opened the book. This was going to be another long period. I read slowly, the words floating off the pages. Again my mind wandered. Could my mom had kept this from me?? I mean, how couldn't I have seen it before? Now that I really looked, the resemblance was freaky.
"Nessie?" The teacher asked in front of me, snapping me out of my day dream.
"Uh, yeah?"
"Are you done?"
"Yeah"
"Then why are you only in the first chapter"
Uhoh. I heard the Cullen's snickering around me. Dimes to dollars they ratted me out.
"Umm . . . yeah, I finished but I was rereading to really absorb the information" I lied.
"Well it seemed like" but the bell cut him off.
"Bye Mr. Sinfrog" I said as I ran out.
I needed to concentrate or I was going to get in big trouble. I headed into Economy and sat down as Mel and Sophie walked in. The teacher was busy wheeling in an ancient TV. Oh joy! Movie day! I slouched back as they came. The lights dimmed and the old movie started. I lost interest quickly.
"What's wrong?" Sophie asked.
Mel leaned over and listened.
"Nothing"
"Something's wrong . . . I can tell, remember" she said as she tapped her forehead.
We all chuckled.
"Yeah, I know but nothing's really wrong, I'm just tired"
"No, something's wrong"
"Sophie" I said exasperated.
"Fine, I'll drop it" she said. "But I know you're lying" she said.
She left me pondering that as the movie continued. No one was really even watching. I looked to my right, Sophie was doodling. The kid in front of me was snoring and the kids to my left wasn't snoring but her breathing was deep and her eyes were shut. I kept my eyes away from the back of the room. When the bell finally rang, got up slowly . . . should I ditch lunch?
"Come on Nessie" Sophie said as she dragged me out.
We walked to the Lunch room pretty quickly. Sophie was telling Mel something about cars. When we got to the lunchroom, they went in quickly. I stayed outside watching the door close. I stood there for a few minutes before I summed up my courage and walked through the doors.
EPOV
I looked up and was surprised to see the moon and the stars shining brightly in the dark night. I got lost in my own thoughts. I shook my head as I got up. It's not possible. I mean . . . a vampire and a human? I mean . . . how did she even . . . have Nessie? And then how did she get changed? I ran back home, feeling the wind rushing through my hair. I ran straight in, muddy shoes and all.
"Edward! I just cleaned the floor!" Esme scolded.
"Sorry mom" I said as I took my shoes off and placed them to the side.
She looked me over for a minute.
"Are you okay?" she asked.
"Yeah, I' fine . . . just need to talk . . . to Carlisle" I said distractedly as I climbed the stairs.
I stopped in front of his door and knocked.
"Come in Edward" he said from the other side.
I walked in slowly and sat down in the chair in front of his desk. He pushed some papers neatly to the side.
"What's wrong son?"
"I . . ." That's when it hit me.
What am I doing? Carlisle hardly knows Nessie . . . and he thinks I just left Bella . . . before I . . . did anything. He'd probably be extremely upset that I left her to fend for herself with Nessie and then he might tell Esme and Esme might go talk to her before me or . . . ALICE!!!
"Edward?" he asked again.
"Umm . . . yes?" I asked scrambling for an excuse.
HE eyed me for a while, unnerving me every second. Finally, another topic that had been bothering me popped into me head.
"Bella" I said as I put my head down. "I lost her again"
"Oh" he said sympathetically. "What happened?"
"She found out what Rosalie did and she sort of had a . . . breakdown"
"Oh! Well Edward, she probably needs time. Seeing us came as a big surprise for her and she is probably still in shock"
"She doesn't trust me . . . she still thinks I'm lying to her . . . she thinks I don't love her" I said helplessly.
"Edward, trust is something that must be earned, you cannot simply ask for it right away. You must show her she can trust you again. Go talk to her about what happened . . . tomorrow" he suggested.
"Why tomorrow?" I complained.
He chuckled. "Let her calm down a bit"
I let out an unsteady breath and nodded. I got up and left quickly. I looked at my watch . . . 1:00am. I went to my room and tried to figure out what I was going to do. I hated lying to Carlisle but . . . for now I think it's best.
Nessie.
I let out another unsteady breath. Could she possibly be my daughter? It makes sense but it doesn't seem . . . possible. I laid in my bed for hours remembering all the times I spent with Bella.
Riding to school . . . Port Angeles . . . her lullaby . . . Biology . . . sitting in her kitchen . . .
I finally got up and walked over to my piano. There was one downstairs but I also had one in my room. I sat down and started playing, letting all my feelings out. My confusion, surprise, love, happiness, everything. It was a slow mysterious song that soon changed to a faster, livelier song only to end with a sad yet hopeful and sweet feeling. I wrote it all down on some sheet music. I couldn't think of what to name it. I pondered it for a while and finally decided to leave it unnamed for the time being.
A/N
Oh! They're both confused . . . Nessie unsure . . . Edward distraught and worried, composing new songs . . . Bella love sick and worried . . . what will happen? All will be revealed in time *cue mysterious music* =D Hope you like it so far!Sorry the updates late. All my files got erased from my computer on tuesday and then again yesterday! Uhg. . . my hands are so sore from typing this so quickly but it's worth it. Since my computers messed up, this chapter might look weird so my apologies. The Lighting Thief came out yesterday! I can't wait to go see it. Oh! Before I forget, I know it is sometimes hard to keep up will all the info so I'm posting info like story sceudles and pics on my profile. I hope you have an sweet Valetine's Day. I already have a valentine . . . do you?? Luv ya!
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