Chapter 33:
Comparing
'That was a pretty song *sigh* he hasn't even touched his piano since we left Forks years ago. I miss his playing' Esme, who was dusting the already dust free cabinet thought.
I hung my head in shame. I really hadn't played in so long. That was selfish of me. I quickly put away the new song and played Esme's Favorite.
'Ah!' she said contently as she stopped dusting to listen.
When the song ended, my hands automatically started playing a new song. I recognized Bella's Lullaby. The sweet yet complex melody weaving with the harmony. I had everything I could ever ask for and I threw it all away. Sobs started to wrack my body and eventually I stopped playing and fell almost lifelessly on the keys as I let the sobs overcome me.
"Oh Edward! It's going to be okay. Everything will be okay" Esme comforted as she sat next to me and hugged me.
That surprised me. I hadn't even heard her come upstairs.
"Bella will come around. You 2 were meant for each other" she continued.
Eventually, I got a hold of myself and started playing again, starting with Esme's Favorite and then weaving through a bunch of other songs I hadn't played for years, letting my mind wander.
When the morning came around, I changed in a sort of daze, my thoughts still clouded with questions. Is it true? How did it happen? Is it even possible? I walked downstairs to find Alice frowning in Jasper's arms.
"What is it?"
"Well first, you other shirt would go way better with those pants—" she started.
'I mean seriously. Bella would totally love–'
"Alice!"
"Okay, okay! I was just commenting. No, the thing is, your future is a bunch a flickers and I can't see anyone else's in Bella family and now ours are getting flickery! Make up your mind already!"she said as she stormed off toward the garage, Jasper steps behind her.
"Rosalie! Emmett! Get some clothes on and get down here!" I yelled.
I heard a couple of thumps and seconds later, Emmett and Rosalie came down, their clothes slightly wrinkled and their hair all messy.
"Someone's in a grouchy mood today" Rosalie commented.
She had some serious nerve after what happened yesterday.
"Rosalie! Shut. Up" I yelled at her.
"Or what?"
"Or I'll call up Carlisle and tell him what you were up to. Last time I checked, you were grounded . . . right?" I threw back at her.
She glared but shut her mouth and stalked off toward my Volvo. I laughed at my victory. This was good. I now had leeway on Rosalie for a month! I ran to the garage and jumped in the front seat, anxious to see Bella and test my thoughts.
We drove mostly in silence . . . sound wise. Thought wise, my siblings thoughts were in other . . . places. I tried to block them but they were so strong they got inside my head again and again. When Alice thought about Jasper in his confederate boxers, I lost it slamming on the breaks.
"That's it! Stop thinking about all your activities or I'll kick you out right now!" I yelled.
Rosalie, Alice and Jasper scattered their thoughts but Emmett couldn't miss the opportunity. He sat smiling in the back seat as I started up again.
"Jealous that you can't get some from Bella?" He eventually asked, grinning so hugely he looked like he could literally stuff a whole pig in his mouth.
He . . . !!! I lost it again. 30% anger and 70% pain. I unlocked the doors, slammed on the breaks and opened Emmett's door at the same time. Emmett flew out onto the pavement landing on his butt. I shut the door and drove off, pushing 180, knowing Emmett was probably following behind me.
I looked in my rearview mirror and saw a figure getting up in the distance. I pushed 200. Rosalie had already added turbots to our cars so my car had a pretty big range. I could already see the school entrance. I slammed the gas pedal, seeing Emmett get closer and closer to the car. Eventually I got to the gate and had to slow down to 20 mph. Emmett didn't notice until he ran right into the wall, startling some students.
"Sorry, early morning jog" he mumbled as I parked.
"You are so dead" he said as he walked up to my car.
I raised my eyebrow as if to challenge him. He just smirked as he walked to the hood and leaned on the car heavily and then ran off.
"Emmett! If that leaves a dent . . . EMMETT!!" I yelled as I ran to my car to inspect the dent on the hood.
I quickly pushed it out and was relieved to see it was barely noticeable anymore. I walked slowly to Literature, Alice matching my pace. I watched as Bella drove in. She didn't seem to notice me but I was watching her intently. She got out and so did her family . . . but Nessie was missing. Huh. Weird. I watched them as they walked together and then split up in the courtyard.
"Could you walk any slower?" Alice said as she poked me.
"Yes" I said as I started moving at a snail's pace.
"Edward!" she said as she pushed me playfully.
"Well you asked" I said as I picked up the pace again.
Though Alice was annoying at times, she was the most helpful of all my siblings. We walked into Literature and took our seats quietly.
'Okay, today we shall discuss this section—" the teacher thought.
Great. Another lecture day. Didn't this guy have any imagination? I was lost in my thoughts that I was startled when Nessie walked in, seconds before the late bell. She walked back swiftly and sat down, her eyes down, all tense.
'What is up with you 2? You both seem so tense and distracted" Alice thought as she frowned.
She scanned through the future but everything was flickery.
Ugh!!! This sucks! I'm gonna get a headache!
I ignored her as best I could and angled my chair looking towards Nessie's way slightly. She was really tense, writing really hard and her free hand clenched into a fist. I looked at her for a moment and then turned toward the front again. Well, the hair was definitely the same yet she had Charlie's slight curls.
Charlie.
Huh, he'll probably kill me if I show my face around him. Skin me alive . . . well, try at least. From the corner of my eye, I saw her look at me briefly and then turn back toward the front. The period went by like that. We each stole glances at each other occasionally. The more I looked at her, the more Bella I saw in her. Her gold eyes even had an edge of Bella's beautiful chocolate brown eyes. When the bell finally rang, she got up and ran out of the room.
"Where's the fire?" Alice muttered, sour from her flickers.
I chuckled as I got my books and walked to class. When I walked in, Emmett and Nessie were already there. Nessie ignored me though or didn't realize I was in the room. She looked at the door anxiously until Bella walked in. Oh sweet Bella. She looked amazing! She took a seat behind Nessie I realized I wouldn't even get to see her.
I hardly paid attention to the teacher, scarcely scanning her thoughts to see what we were learning about. When the bell rang, I left quickly, hoping to make the day go faster. Economy and 3-D Architecture passed in a blur. I ran to the lunch room and was the first of my siblings to arrive except for Alice who had the last class with me. I got my lunch and quickly sat down, watching the door anxiously.
Bella walked in, the wind blowing her sweet scent into the cafeteria. I was barely aware that all my siblings had arrived and were watching me, I only saw Bella. She was laughing with Alex and Will yet her eyes seemed distant and hesitant. Sophie and Melinda walked in and I caught a glimpse of Nessie's outline. She stood behind the door for a while before she opened it and walked inside.
NPOV
I walked into the lunchroom slowly. I wasn't scared . . . it's just, when something's bothering you, it's not very smart to go into a room with and psychic, a mind-reader, 2 empaths and an over protective and worrying mom. Yet, if you don't go when your expected, they'll know something's wrong and they'll get it out of you.
And finally . . . my dad was in there. I went straight to the line, not even glancing at the Cullen table. I looked at my table and was met once again by 5 anxious eyes. I tried to smile and I wave but their faces told me they weren't convinced. I quickly turned back and grabbed a salad and a drink, paying as slowly as possible. I grabbed my tray, took a deep breath and walked over to my table, preparing for what was to come.
"Nessie! What's wrong?!" My mom asked before I even sat down.
"Nothing, just . . . adjusting" I said as I glanced at the Cullen table.
"Honey, are you scared of Rosalie?" she asked worriedly.
I saw the Cullen's glance at us in surprise and amusement.
"You're . . . you're kidding me right?" I said as I fell off the chair in laughter.
Me . . . afraid of Rosalie? In her dreams. I could probably beat that stupid blond. I got up quickly, and sat in the chair, wiping my eyes.
"That was a good one mo—Bella" I said as I took a drink of water.
"Well, something's wrong" she said stubbornly.
"Nothing's wrong. You guys just have me all tense with these questions" I said as I began to eat.
That was sort of the truth . . . well half . . . well 25% . . . okay so only 10% but what was I supposed to say? They gave me a look that said 'We'll talk about this later' and then finally left me alone. I looked over once more at the Cullens and saw most of them laughing, though Edward's back was to me he seemed to be laughing too. I looked at them for a while and something in me set off and I began to get angry as everything started to fall into place again.
A/N
Hey Guys! I'm sorry about the late update again! I'll try to update on Fridays but it just gets so hectic, I can't seem to be able to. I saw the Lightning Thief yesterday. It was a good movie. It's nothing like he book though, that was a bit dissapointing . . . I mean, I didn't even really see Ares or Mr. D but whatev. So . . . how to you like it so far? Edward's pretty posistive by now and so is Nessie . . . confrontation coming soon . . . thinking of ideas on how to make it happen. Anyway . . . tell me what you think. I'm really excited because I have a basketball game tomorrow. Luv ya!
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