Chapter 11

So guys… I'm so, so sorry I haven't updated. I was at my dad's house Thursday and he has no internet, Friday I went to the mall with my friends and then I had to go back to my dad's house, yesterday I had a basketball game to cheer for because I'm a cheerleader and I stayed with my dad again.

Jade's POV

There has been so much kayas going on at school. Today was the last day of school before Winter Break and Sikowitz is making us do Secret Santa again. Luckily, this time I don't have to buy for Tori. I have to buy for Cat, which will be extremely easy since it's like shopping for a three year old. The apartment has been so lonely since Jennifer flew out to her parents in South Carolina yesterday with her dog. I kinda wanna a puppy for Christmas. Not a Chihuahua because those thing are just down right annoying with their yapping and shaking and peeing. I wouldn't mind a Dalmatian or a Pit Bull. Now those things are pretty damn cool.

"Hi, Jadey!" Cat says as I sit at our usual lunch table at school.

"Don't call me that," I instantly snap at her. She pouts before sitting across me. Tori is the next one to come over with a burrito and makes the worst decision by sitting next to me. I throw her a death glare and she scoots away from me. Beck and Robbie come over and Beck sits next to me. Andre comes with his damn keyboard taking up the whole damn table.

"Hey Robbie, what do you want for Christmas?" Tori asks him.

"To be your boyfriend," he smiles.

"No," Tori says.

"Well then, I don't know," he answers. I twirl my fork around in my salad. Tori could not make it any more obvious that she was his secret Santa. Idiot.

"What do you want for Christmas?" Cat asks me.

"I don't know," I shrug. "I want a Dalmatian." Andre almost chokes on his drink and Tori spits out her food back on her tray.

"A-a Dalmatian? Like, the dog?" Tori stutters.

"No, like the pill," I say sarcastically. "Of course the dog!"

"Why do you want a dog?" Andre asks in disgust.

"Is there something wrong with me wanting a dog?" I snap at him, standing up. He leans back a little bit when I pull my scissors out of my boot.

"N-no I just didn't think someone like you would want a-"

"Well I do, okay?! I'm a human being like the rest of you!" I yell at everyone before slinging my bag over my shoulder and storming off. But I turn back around and face Andre. I take my salad and shove it down his shirt before stomping back off. I enter the janitor's closet and lean up against the cold cement wall, slowly sliding down it. Don't people just understand I'm still a person and that I have emotions and feelings like a normal person? I just dress differently, act a little more snarky and treat people differently. I mean, I still have a boyfriend, I still have friends and I still have a soul. I just don't get it. I slowly get up after a few more minutes since Beck hasn't come after me yet. I open the door, but suddenly stop when I see Holly and Beck.

Kissing.

I just stand there, totally and completely shocked. Beck pulls away and backs up, staring at me.

"Jade, it's not what you think." His sweet, warm brown eyes are full of hurt. I would yell at both of them, but I don't even know what to say.

"She kissed me," he tries again.

"Oh, you guys got back together?" Holly suddenly asks, but I know she's not that stupid. This suddenly sets me up as anger bubbles inside of me.

"SHUT UP!" I scream at the top of my lungs to her. "You knew we were back together! You knew that when we walked into to school that Monday holding hands! Quit acting like you're blind!"

"Why aren't you mad at your boyfriend?" She asks me. She's got a point. I turn to Beck.

"Jade, please. Let me-"

"There's nothing to explain," I interrupt him before slamming the exit doors and walking to my apartment. I don't even know what to think. Should I believe him? I unlock the door and walk in, tossing my bag carelessly next to my combat boots. I go straight to my room and change into black yoga pants with a grey lacey tank top. I throw my clothes I had on before and toss them in my dirty clothes hamper before walking out in the living room and turning on the TV. There is nothing good on. I sigh and walk in the kitchen, grabbing the tub of chocolate peanut butter cup ice cream and a spoon. I shovel the spoon into it, watching a recording of The Voice. The doorbell rings and I groan before setting my ice cream down and walking to the door.

"Please," Beck says as I open it, drenched in rain that I didn't even realize was coming down so hard. I sigh but let him in.

"Jade, I didn't kiss her. I went to go find you and she ran into me. She tried to convince me I love her and she kissed me. I didn't kiss back. Please, Jade."

"I know you didn't kiss her," I sigh in defeat.

"Thank God," he smiles.

"Besides, you don't have the nerve to do it. I would break into your RV and you would suddenly wake up bald the next morning." We kiss, but then he pulls away. I glare at him.

"We have to go back to school. You have to give Cat her present." Beck drags me to my room. I change back into my clothes, grab her present and we drive back to the school. I hear loud music coming from inside. Beck opens the door for me and I see Cat, Andre, Tori and Robbie singing Christmas carols. Oh hell no. I try to turn back around, but Beck holds me firmly as they sing Jingle Bells.

"Kill me now," I groan. Beck suddenly leaves and takes a red and green mic. I swear, if he starts singing to me- too late. He's already walking to me and everyone is in the hallway watching.

"Beck!" I yell as I back up, trying to get him to stop. The song finally ends before he can embarrass me and him any longer.

"If you're going to sing, can't you sing something else?" I beg him.

"Or you can sing," he places the mic in my hands.

"Fine," I snap. "But I'm not singing some dumb Christmas carol like the rest of you idiots."

"Grunch," I hear Tori mumble into her mic.

"What was that?" I ask her.

"Nothing!" She says nervously. I walk up to the DJ.

"Dream on, The Voice performance by Amanda Brown. Play it," I demand. He immediately does. I walk onto the stage and hear the music start.

Every time when I look in the mirror All these lines on my face getting clearer The past is gone It went by, like dusk to dawn Isn't that the way Everybody's got the dues in life to pay

Yeah, sure it's not what everyone expected, but it's a song and I like it.

I know nobody knows where it comes and where it goes I know it's everybody sin You got to lose to know how to win Half my life Is books written pages Live and learn from fools and From sages You know it's true, oh All these things you do come back to you

Sing it with me, sing for a year Sing it for the laughter sing it for the tear Sing it with me, just for today maybe tomorrow, the good lord will take you away

Yeah, sing with me; sing for the year Sing for the laughter, sing for the tear Sing with me, just for today maybe tomorrow, the good Lord will take you away

Dream on Dream on Dream on Dream until your dreams come true Dream on Dream on Dream on Dream until your black and blue Dream on Dream on Dream on Dream on Dream on Dream on Dream on

I hit the high note perfectly. Everybody cheers. I smile to myself.

Sing with me, sing for the year Sing for the laughter, sing for the tear Sing with me, just for today Maybe tomorrow, the good Lord will take you away Sing with me, sing for the year Sing for the laughter, sing for the tear Sing with me, just for today Maybe tomorrow, the good Lord will take you away.

Everybody, of course, explodes into cheers. I walk down and walk straight to Cat.

"That was so cool!" She exclaims, jumping up and down.

"Yeah, yeah here," I shove her the wrapped up present. She gasps in awe at the black plush giraffe.

"OMG! JADEY GOT ME A GIRAFFE!" She yells, running around the whole school and yelling. I roll my eyes.

So yeah… not that exciting.