Denial. That's sounds like a brilliant plan. Kol's going to push this little bombshell down so far he'll never have to acknowledge it again. And if it does rear its ugly head? He'll cut it off. Meaning he'll cut Jeremy's head off. Oh shit, whose he kidding, he won't do that.
Kol's phone rings, it's Jeremy. Of course it's Jeremy, no one else ever calls him.
"Yes?" Kol says a little harsher than he meant to. No wait, that's a good thing, he wants Jeremy to leave him alone. But then why does he feel bad about it?
"You wanna come over for dinner?" Jeremy asks him. Dinner, wtf? Is this like a date?
"Is this like a date?" Kol blurts out accusingly.
"No," Jeremy laughs. Kol sighs in relief, Jeremy thought he was making a joke. This whole disgusting love thing is Kol's issue he reminds himself, not Jeremy's. Jeremy would never feel this way about Kol. Would he? Does Kol want him to? Arghh, he has no idea. Maybe he should go over to Jeremy's and try to clear some of these questions up.
"In that case, yes. See you soon."
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Jeremy's way too cheerful when Kol shows up at his house, it's a little disconcerting. Jeremy invites Kol in without a second thought, which just goes to show how stupid he really is.
A couple of times during their conversation Jeremy does that weird thing where he zones out and you'd swear someone else had just walked into the room. It makes Kol wonder whether Jeremy's all there. But really who is he to pass judgement on anyone else's sanity?
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"Wanna watch some TV? Dexter's on, I promise you'll like it," Jeremy asks after dinner, sliding over on the couch to make room for Kol. Kol doubts that but he sits down to watch anyway.
Dark passenger. It hits a nerve with Kol, is that what's wrong with him? Dexter's dark passenger is something that's separate from himself, something he can't control and yet it's a part of him he can't escape. Dexter is human and his dark passenger makes him a monster. But Kol's a monster, would a dark passenger make him human? Or is it a light passenger he carries? Is that what his feelings for Jeremy are? A light passenger who makes him all soft and gooey inside, so that he doesn't need to kill? If so, God help him. Someone stake him right now.
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It's not until he's left Jeremy's house that Kol realises he didn't actually get answers to any of his questions. Damnit. Being with Jeremy is just so easy that Kol doesn't have to think about what to say or what to do, he just has to be. In fact, Kol seems to get so caught up in the moment that it's really starting to scare him. Kol has no idea what to do about it. That settles it. The denial plan was a good one, he'll stick with that.
