We get back to Kirkwall and he's still holding my hand. I'm still smiling. Even when we get to Hightown and get a few stares I don't stop smiling. I don't glare at anyone, say anything, or respond at all. I only grip his hand tighter and he smiles at me. I know that right now he's not concerned about them either. Right now the only thing that matters is our clasped hands. Our hands that somehow fit perfectly together. How nothing else has ever felt so right. Our hands. Him. Me. Us… Is there an Us? I desperately want there to be.
We stop outside my house and I try to open the door, but it's locked. I can't help it and I giggle. He raises an eyebrow at me. I pull my key out of my pocket and unlock the door. I pull him in behind me and push the door shut with my foot. Never taking my eyes off him. Thoughts of the journal forgotten.
"We're all alone."
We both blush. His arm slips around my waist as we head to the mainroom. I keep fighting the urge to giggle. We've been alone before, but this time it's different. It feels real now.
I step out of his arm, his fingers trailing down my hip before falling away. I bend over to light the fire, but my hands are shaking. He walks up behind me and touches the small of my back.
"Not that I don't enjoy the view, but…" My mouth falls open and I look up at him. He's not usually this…forward. But sweet Andraste do I love it when he gets like this.
He takes my hand and pulls me up. He holds me close and fire runs through me. Energy pulsing at every spot our bodies touch.
"How about I light the fire and you get us some wine?" I feel his breath dance across my lips. His face so close and his eyes holding mine. I can't speak so I nod. He lets me go, his fingers trailing down my arms. The pointed tips of his gloves sending delicious shivers through me. I know with a bit more pressure I'd be bleeding. I know that shouldn't excite me, but it does.
I reluctantly step away and head towards the cellar. Leaving my daggers and gloves on the table as I go. My mind reeling. I've lost the urge to giggle. Now I try to remember how to breathe.
I grab a bottle of Aggregio Pavali. I bought some because he loves it so much. After several shared bottles I've developed quite the taste for it myself. Tevinter may be full of Blood Mages and Slavers, but they make fantastic wine.
I head back up the steps and softly close the door. He's bent over, adding a few more logs to the fire.
"I see what you mean, that's quite the view."
He smirks at me over his shoulder. I open the bottle and take a slow sip. Licking my lips I slowly walk towards him. His eyes fix on my lips and I smile. I try to calm myself. Remind myself that jumping him would probably scare him off. Though with the way he's looking at me now I'm not so sure…
I just want those lips on mine. His body on mine. I shiver and hand him the bottle. His hand brushes mine and I notice he's taken off his gloves as well.
He takes a drink and sits the bottle on the fireplace.
"What now?" He asks a hint of mischief in his eyes.
"Well seeing as how I'm a proper lady I wouldn't know what to do." I fight back a laugh as he rolls his eyes. "I mean I'm unchaperoned in my house with a man."
He smirks. "A dangerous man." He closes the distance between us and pulls me too him.
I lean into him. Our breaths mingling together. Tremors running through our bodies. "I'm completely at your mercy."
He growls and slams his lips into mine. I lick his lips until he opens up. Our tongues coming together in a dance. He moves from my lips and kisses my throat. Licking my pulse point before gently nipping it.
I gasp and tighten my arms around him, pulling myself as close as I can. It's not enough though. I need him. His lips are traveling across my collarbone now. I lick the tip of his ear. His head snaps up. Desire flashing in his eyes. He walks me backwards towards the couch.
My legs hit the arm and I fall. My arms are locked so tight around him that he's pulled down on top of me. We both pause. Our breaths rapid as we savor the feel of our bodies together.
I look at him and he seems uncertain. I gently wrap one leg around his hips to encourage him. That's all he needs before his lips are crushed to mine again.
He props himself up on one elbow. His other arm wrapping around me and pulls me closer to him. I groan as the evidence of his excitement is pressed again me. My smallclothes becoming increasingly damp.
I squirm and press my hips into his. He pulls back gasping for breath. He rests his forehead against mine and opens his mouth to say something when another voice cuts in.
"What in the Maker's name do you think you're doing?"
His entire body stiffens and he jerks away from me. My leg slips off him. I groan, but not the good kind this time.
I stand up and smile at her. "Mother how are you today?"
She stands there with her arms crossed. Her glare snapping from one of us to the other. " I asked what you thought you were doing."
"Well I should think that it's pretty obvious what we're doing." I glance at Fenris. An odd battle of chagrin and amusement on his face.
"How can you be so selfish?"
My head snaps back to her. "Excuse me?"
"What of Bethany? We're finally gaining our status back. That protects her in the Circle. What will the other noble families say if they find out about this? I've been trying to find you a suitor. A suitable one. That will protect Bethany not this…dalliance."
I stare at her dumbfounded before I realize what she's getting at. I look at Fenris and he looks confused. I just hope I can talk my way out of this without him realizing what she means.
"Our family name has been tainted enough without your help. Nobles do not dally with the help."
I gasp. I see Fenris flinch as if she slapped him. He heads towards the door.
"Fenris is not help. He's my friend and he helped me in the Deeproads. For that matter you wouldn't be standing in this house right now if it weren't for him. You have no right to talk about him like that. No one does."
The door slams. I glare at Mother. She takes a step back.
"And my family name is Hawke. Not Amell."
I run after him.
Title from the song "My Hands Are Shaking" from the Dan In Real Life Movie/Soundtrack.
