Hehe, Sorry guys. Times busy on my hands, I apologize for not writing a new chapter so late.
Especially after a year!
Well anyways, I hope you enjoy it. :]
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What happened last chapter:
"Jacob?" My voice shook. "Oh Jacob!"
I forced the sobs away, as my wobbly hand grabbed the phone. My fingers shook as I dialed 911. I knew there was no point since Charlie probably called, but he doesn't know about Jacob.
My weak knees started to fall into the floor. I started to cry quietly.
"Hello? Police department." a female voice asked, completely calm. Calm? At a time like this?
I didn't answer..I just mumbled quietly to where we lived and to get an ambulance. I hanged up the phone, not waiting for her reply, I was too shocked, angry, and upset on what has happened to my beloved Jacob.
Renesmee's POV.
I don't know where I was right now. Or what happened to Papa, Mommy, Billy and Jacob.
I miss them so much...everything is so dark...and lonely. I think I'm dead. But I'm not sure, I don't see anything right now. My momma says that when you die you either go to heaven...or hell.
So where am i right now? I'm all alone in the deep empty darkness. Is this what hell is like? I would shudder at the thought if I could, but I feel like I can't move! Paralyzed is what my momma called it. If this was truly hell, I don't know why God i think, would put me here. Or am I suppose to wait for a taxi ride to ride me to heaven? I'm not sure, but one thing is for sure, I don't have money for a taxi!
While I pondered all of these thoughts, something remarkable happened. A beam of shining light bursted into the empty darkness. It filled the blackness around me. I've been in the dark so long, I thought I was blind, seeing the light for the first time. On instict, I covered my eyes with my hands, shielding myself from the blinding beautiful light. At last, I thought happily. Heaven has come for me.
As I squinted my eyes started searching for the source of the light. Then somebody appeared out of nowhere, they were infront of the light. But I couldn't see them. They were like one of those mystery killer movies my daddy used to watch. Of course he doesn't know I sneak up behind the couch when my parents want some alone time. In those movies, a person would die and a guy would appear out of nowhere, and his body would be completely black, empty. Masked is what I called it. And then...I don't know what happens after that, Mommy would always catch me watching and carry upstairs. Oh how I miss mommy.
I stared at the masked human like creature. The sun may be shining down in every space of where-ever I am, but his body is completely empty. Dark. Just like the darkness that filled this place up a while ago.
I kept staring...uncertain if he was staring back. How come I can't see his face? Impatience filled my head. I tried to run away, knowing this thing must be dangerous. But i can't. My feet are glued to the ground!
Then the masked human walked up to me. Holding my chin up, he looked deep into my eyes. Or at least, that's what my insticts told me. As I looked into his empty dark face, I felt nothing. Nothing at all.
I realized it was almost the same height as me. Only a few inches taller.
"Bella." The creature breathed. "Come."
The creature stepped away from me. When I blinked, he somehow magically transformed into Jacob. I was filled with shock. What is Jacob doing here? Is he dead as well? Why was he a masked human thing a while ago?
Thoughts were spinning in my head, and a heaviness filled my stomach. Along with a famailiar feeling..guilt. Was I too late to save him..?
"Bella, come with me." Jacob smiled. His smile brightened his whole face, the smile I missed seeing. It was like his face was never empty..never cold, never black.
I watched as Jacob walked into the light, as he walked, he grew farther and farther away from me. Bringing the light with him.
He turned around and waited for my response, motioning with his hands for me to follow.
I gulped. I seen this in the movies. When you die, never ever walk into the light. It leads straight to heaven. I wasn't very sure, am I deciding my death right now? I became terrified..I wanted so badly to be in my mommy's arms.
Seconds ticked by as I was making my decision. I held my breath, looked into Jacob's eyes and mouthed no. Surprise came over me, I thought I was paralyzed. But the terrified me started to sink into my body, banning the surprise feeling away..waiting for the very bad thing to happen.
Then to my relief, Jacob shrugged, as if it was like no big deal, and walked away.
As I watched, he transformed into me. A Bella clone. The clone I usually see in the mirrior, my reflection. He..she...it...me..turned around and waved.
"Bye for now." Her clone eyes sparkled. "I'll say hi to Jacob for you. Or goodbye."
My jaw dropped as she turned on her heel and walked away. What just happened..?
Before I could think, or do anything after that...my eyes started to close, and I felt myself collapsing and falling into darkness.
"Bella?" Bella, Bella Bella.
My nose started to twitch, then my lips.
Someone was repeating my name..whoever it is, their trying to tug me..pull me somewhere.
Wake up..wake up...wake up..
I held my breath, is it safe to wake up?
I felt someone shake my shoulders lightly. A sound of someone crying filled the room. Guilt flooded into my stomach again.
Like a butterfly, my eyes fluttered open. It repeatedly kept blinking until I had a clear view of the ceiling.
"Oh!" The voice said, surprise filled it's tone. "Bella's waking up!"
I turned my head, and squinted. My body started to relax as I started to see the familiar face. Daddy. I was right. I was deciding my death.
Right at the door was Billy, Mommy... but no Jake. My stomach turned.
"What happened to Jacob daddy?" I asked, clearly afraid of what has become of him.
Then something tugged at a memory. A memory I kept into my "No touchy!" drawer. Unfortunately, the invisible tugged forced it to open..making my memory clear and visible.
-Flashback.-
"Bye for now." Her clone eyes sparkled. "I'll say hi to Jacob for you. Or goodbye."
My heart started to pound quicker then a normal pace. The monitor started to beep, and daddy kept soothing me. I could hear mommy singing, her voice was getting closer and closer. This started to calm me. Then the beeping died.
What did the stranger mean about saying Hi..or Goodbye to Jacob? Does this mean Jacob is deciding death too? Panic filled my mind. What if he doesn't know not to walk into the light? Oh how come I didn't save him..
"Shhh..." Daddy whispered stroking my hair. Mommy's voice started to go into a hum in the background. "I'm not sure if you would like to know about what happened to Jake."
"Did he die?" My voice was barely a whisper. It was lifeless, almost unheard.
"No he didn't." Billy whispered. He came over and held my other untouched hand. "He's still alive."
"Then why are you so sad?" I demanded. I wanted to know so bad. "Is he hurt?"
"I'm sad because he is hurt." Billy hesitated. "He had a heart attack." His voice cracked on that word.
"But he's still alive? He can make it?" I had no idea what a heart attack is. But all I cared was if Jacob chose to live, or heaven.
"Yes, the doctors were able to save him in time." Billy nodded. "He just survived it barely. He's taking medicine daily now and has to use a oxygen mask."
"Can I see him?"
"I don't think-"
"Absolutely no!" Daddy's booming voice interrupted Billy. "In this condition? I'm sorry Bells but you'll have to see Jake when your all ready to go."
"What condition?" I demanded. I'm not hurt...am i?
"Isabella Marie Swan," Daddy's voice was stern. "You had scrapes, bruises...your leg is broken! I'm pretty sure in that condition, you are unable to see Jacob at the moment."
Tears filled my eyes. "I'm sorry if I made you mad Daddy.." I whispered.
Daddy's eyes softened, and held my hand a bit tighter. "Of course i'm not. I'm just upset about what happened to you. What on earth were you doing, walking to the road like that?"
"Well.." I shifted my weight a bit to see Daddy more clearly, but it was the first time pain hit me like a rock. I was aching all over. I didn't realize it was this bad. I started to wince, but Charlie put a hand on my chest, putting me back into my original spot. Ah, much better. "Thank you Daddy." I nodded to him, then faced everybody in the room, as much as I can.
"I didn't know I was running into the road." I admitted. "But Jakie was in trouble! He couldn't breathe, and I was so terrified. I kept crying and running to you. I saw nothing, but maybe because I covered my eyes. But you guys were running after me, and I was all confused. Because I'm running to you. And then next thing I know, I don't know what happened. I stopped because I was waiting for Mommy's arms-" I sniffled a tear at the painful memory. "But it never came to me, then all I saw was blackness and a stranger, and oh, it was so horrible daddy!" I sobbed ranting on, "It was horrible."
I felt Daddy's hands stroke my hair, Billy's hands soothing my hand, and heard Mommy's singing.
"I am so sorry Bella..." Mommy whispered, stopping her beautiful hum. "We were so scared, you were going into the wrong direction sweetheart. But anyway, the past doesn't matter. We should put that aside because what really matters is the present."
"Present?" My eyes were wide, I had the urge to jump, but I knew that would be a very bad idea. "It's Christmas?"
Billy started to chuckle, my mom cracked a smile, and daddy laughed. I missed Daddy's laughs, Mommy's smile and Billy's chuckles. It was like I was gone forever.
"No Sweetie," Mommy smiled. "Present means now."
"Oh." I was confused. "There's two presents?"
"Of course. Each word may sound the same, but their different meanings, and most of the time spelled differently." My mom explained.
"Oh." I nodded, sort of getting the idea. "It would be nice if there were presents." I made a face. "Present, present." I repeated, liking how two words could mean something different.
My mommy laughed - The first time she laughed since I woke up. I sighed, I missed my mommy so bad. "Oh mommy, I thought I was dying." I whispered.
"Oh baby girl.." Mom sighed softly, Daddy let go of my hand so Mommy could hold it. She stroked my hair just like what Daddy did. "Don't be afraid."
"No!" I nearly shouted, the beeping started to appear again. Mommy tried to soothed me with her hums, and it worked. I relaxed a bit and spilled everything that happened while I was in the empty darkness.
"Sweetie.." Daddy whispered. "I know that must be terrifying, but me and your mother here are very glad you survived it."
"We would still love you even if you chose to go into the light." Mommy whispered. "But we are forever grateful that you are alive."
"I made the right choice." I beamed at them.
"If you think so," Billy said. "Remember Bella..sometimes when your near to die, you choose what the future holds for you. If you wanted to go into the light, you can. Nobody can stop you. It's your decision"
I started to nod, then a yawn escaped through my throat.
My eyelids started to sway back and forth, closing and opening.
"Looks like to me someone needs nap time." Daddy smiled.
"Daddy.." I whispered before I could fall asleep. "Tell Jacob I'm glad he didn't say Goodbye."
Daddy nodded as he kissed my forehead. Mommy kissed it too, and so did Billy.
My eye lids fell heavily closed as I drifted into sleep.
