I just thought we all may use some Naomi's POV, so here it is! It's a rather short chapter, and a bit of a filler, but I really enjoyed writing it, so I hope you enjoy reading. :) thanks for all your feedback, it means a lot to me. ;D
Naomi's POV
The worst thing about Sophia?
I love her.
I have loved her from the beginning, she was my first true love and I can't just stop loving her. Even after all she did to me, I still feel I can't live without her. And I want her back… well, maybe it's not the best way to say it, I mean – it's her who wants me back, obviously, because she's the one who screwed it all up, but I want us back together, like we've been together on the beginning of our relationship. God, why does everything have to be so complicated? And now I feel I can't stand a minute in the same room with her, in the same time feeling that I want to be with her so badly that it is killing me. So I have to go to live with Effy for some time. Maybe I'll manage to forgive Sophia? Because if I can't forgive her, I can't be with her.
And fuck, I'm really pissed off at the moment. Pissed off that Effy won't be able to be at home when I come. Okay, maybe it's egoistic of me, because I have just told her I'm coming and she might have had another plans already, but I feel really bad knowing that I will be alone when I come. Or even worse – I won't be alone, because there'll be Harry's new nanny there which means that I won't be able to cry in front of her, right? Of course I can still lock myself in my room and cry my eyes out, but it will make me look like a complete freak in front of someone I will be obviously made to live with for a while, right? Maybe I will just leave my luggage in Effy's house and go shopping.
So, about Sophia – I love her. But I just can't force myself to come back to our flat though I am still receiving messages from her. Oh, again. Vibration in my pocket.
*Come back home. I'm sorry. I love you. S xxx*
Fine. As if "I'm, sorry" connected with "I love you" was supposed to make me forgive her. As if she wasn't saying it all the time since I have found out the truth. As if I wasn't in New York at the moment, on my way to Effy's house, and she wasn't in UK. As if it all was so simple.
Oh, so here I am. My cab stops in front of Effy's huge house. Right, I have to push that little button near the gate so that the watchman will know I'm here waiting.
In the blink of an eye the watchman is near and is looking at me dirty.
"Hello…" he starts and I raise my eyebrow at him, so he adds quickly "ma'am" but in a rather sarcastic manner. I point at the car.
"My luggage is in there. Take it and I'm goona get inside, fine?"
"But I'm supposed to announce that—" he says, but I cut him off. I'm really not in the mood.
"Let's leave it, okay? Effy knows I came, you know I came, even that new nanny, whoever she is, knows that I am to come. So I'm gonna knock on that fucking door and you're gonna carry my fucking suitcases, right?"
He looks at me and smirks. Fuck, I can't stand his smirk, it's so annoying it seems like he knew everything about me. Finally, when I'm starting to feel really uncomfortable, he just shrugs and directs his steps towards the cab. I sigh and knock on the door. They open widely after few seconds and I see a flash of red.
"Who the fuck do you think you are? I told you—" she (I guess it's Harry's new nanny) says and I start blinking quickly. What the hell is she talking about?
"I'm sorry, I didn't mean to," I point at the cab and then at the door. I bet my face expression is really strange in the moment. She looks me in the eye and I feel there's something in her chocolate eyes that I like. Something that makes me want to smile. If only it could make me forget.
"No, I'm sorry, I just thought it was someone else," I smirk at it, because, hey, that woman, hot and (I have to admit) really sexy, is obviously staring at me. Then I remember about Sophia and I know my face expression changes even if I don't want it.
"Fine. You must be Emily? Effy told me you're gonna be here," I say and reach my hand out. She shakes it.
"Yeah," it's so vulnerable and sweet that it makes me want to hug her. What the hell is going on with me?
"I'm Naomi," she starts to stare at me again, so I finally have to say something, because I start feeling uncomfortable and, really, much more uncomfortable than with the watchman. "You're gonna let me in?"
She blinks and looks really confused for a while, but then moves back quickly. "Sure, sorry," she smiles, but my mind is full of thoughts about Sophia again and I just can't return it and when I try, everything I manage to do is raising my eyebrow. Great, now she thinks I'm annoyed. Maybe it's a good thing after all? Maybe it'll make her stay away from me. I decide I have to keep that image, so I just pass her by and go inside. I can fell she turned round, I can feel her eyes on me, but I just can't look back. Because I love Sophia and because I know that that woman, the woman that I know for few minutes now, is able to change everything in my life. And for the first time in my entire life, I am really scared.
What do you think about my idea to write mixed POVs? And would it be better to change it with every chapter, or after two chapters in one POV? Of course without coming back in every POV – I mean the story will go on normally, I just had to write that chapter, because you have to know about Sophia! ;D So, I'm waiting for your decision. :)
