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"I don't know if this is such a good idea…." Chloe swallowed hard, her pride slowly fading away. "But maybe you should just stay with me for the week. I'll go crazy if I have to watch Matt, and do my homework…."
"Fine by me. I don't trust you with him anyways." Randy picked Matt up from his swing hugging him close as he did so.
"I'm going to go take a shower with him. He likes to eat dinner after that." Chloe looked up from her book, a hopeful look on her face.
"I could take a shower with him…I need to take one anyways…" She was determined to see her son smile if it was the last thing she did.
"You have homework, besides. He doesn't really like you." Randy licked his lips "Showers relax him, you'd just make him stressed and ruin his day."
Chloe stood up prying Matthew from his strong arms. "He's taking a shower with me tonight and I WILL make him smile! You just watch asshole!"
"He's already crying! Just put him down!" Randy narrowed his eyes at her. "You won't make him smile! You won't EVER make him smile because YOU don't know HOW to be a mom!"
Chloe flipped him off storming up the stairs with their crying son.
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"Matt stop!" Chloe huffed fixing her bathing suit top. "It's not even hot water!"
Matt's tiny feet thumped against her stomach. The echo from it made Chloe's head pound even more.
"Matthew! Please stop!" Chloe held his small feet firmly in her hand. "You never act like this for Randy! Why is it always me?" His cries turned into screams and Chloe was on her last straw.
As if he could read her mind, he barged into the bathroom. Pulling Matt from her arms, he looked at his son. He examined the red blotches over his body before sticking his hand in to feel the water.
"Of course you fucked up again! That waters burning hot!" Randy draped a towel over Matt's still wet body.
She knew he left once the door slammed shut. A heavy sigh escaped her lips as she shut the water off.
"I didn't mean to fuck up again…"
XoX
"See Matt! This is daddy and mommy at nana and papa's house! I promise you we were happy once!" Randy looked down at the infant in his arms. Matt shifted his eyes from the photo album to his father.
"Mommy's young though. She doesn't have as much patience as I do! You stress her out little guy!" Matt stared up at Randy for a long time. For a minute Randy thought he was actually listening and understanding what he was saying.
"It's not easy going to college and having to balance school, money and on top of everything else a baby!"
"Your right it's not." Chloe walked into her room staring at Randy. "Not like you'd know anything about that. Your whole life you've had it made!"
"You know nothing about my life as a kid!" Randy stood from the rocking chair.
Chloe listened to the chair rock back and forth on the wooden floor in her room. "I know damn well that you got whatever you wanted as a child. You had BOTH of your parents always with you! You had the childhood I could only DREAM of!"
"For your information my parents were barely home! My mom was always working at the hospital and my dad was gone 24/7 on the road! Both of my parents worked hard to make sure I had clothes on my back and food on the table! They claimed bankruptcy twice and I was always watching my brother and sister. I worked my ass off to get straight A's all through out high school!" Chloe swallowed hard staring at Randy in disbelief.
"I tried my best to always make my dad proud! I was lucky to even get acknowledged! In the few hours I had with him he was always pre occupied with Nathan or Becky! My parents weren't even there when I graduated. But you know what? I kept my head held high and kept the same attitude I've had since then. My dad tried talking me out of going into the wrestling business. But I ignored him, wrestling was in my blood. The only thing that came naturally to me."
"You know why I didn't want Matt in the beginning?" Randy slowly ran his tongue over his bottom lip "It's because I KNEW I wouldn't be there for him. He'd be disappointed in me, just like I was disappointed in my father when ever he wasn't home! But I changed my mind. I grew up. I took the ball and ever since I've been running with it. And I'll be damned if I let someone like YOU throw me down."
Chloe stood speechless and shocked as Randy slowly exited the room. She had never seen Randy get so defensive over his childhood. There was a lot more to him then she ever knew. She mentally added getting to know the real him to her list of things to do while she climbed into bed.
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"Good morning." Chloe whispered walking downstairs into the kitchen. Randy was sitting at the island giving Matt his morning bottle.
Randy turned his back on her, kissing Matt's forehead. "I know Matthew. I don't like looking at her either! Can you believe I had to sleep with her just to get you into this world?"
Chloe looked over at them, making sure Randy couldn't tell she was behind him. She listened to him talk to their son in fascination. She would never admit this to anyone, but she truly was jealous of the bond Matt and Randy had. She prayed every night that the next day she would be able to handle Matt more and more by herself. She hated feeling helpless when it came to her own son.
But the more she watched Randy and Matthew interact, the more jealous and helpless she felt. It didn't make her feel any better when she heard them talking about her either.
"You know Matt, I think I should buy you a dog! Wanna know why?" Matt's tiny gurgle made Randy melt. "Because your mom hates dogs! It'd be perfect! You can even pick out any one you want!" Randy smiled down at his son, and for the first time Chloe watched as Matt slowly smiled back at Randy.
She didn't know what to feel, jealousy because not even she could make her son smile, or hatred because Randy didn't even want Matt in the first place, and now, Matt had already chosen Randy as his favorite parent.
She was going to make sure after this week that Randy would get pushed away again, and then, she would enforce her plan, the plan to be the perfect mother.
Okay, so I'm like seriously sorry that I haven't been updating in awhile but I have finals coming up, and a lot of other tests! I promise I'll update more in 18 days when school ends! =)
