OH MY GOD! I have been busy. My first semester of college is coming to an end and I'm studying like crazy. I'm sure no one wants to hear about that though. I'm trying to do the best I can with my stories, but school has to come first. I'm not abandoning this story, or my other one if anyone is reading that one too. I'm just taking my sweet time. I just need to get my brain juices flowing again. Creativity isn't easy to come by when my mind is constantly being bombarded with math equations and whatnot. Anyway, this is to remind everyone that there is more than one couple in the gang and that they have problems too. Just a little something to keep you guys going.
As time goes on rips between the most loving people can be formed if enough strain is placed on a bonded.
Chapter 28
SPOV
It hurts.
It hurts to watch the woman I love pine for someone else. I don't know when it started, but I can tell it's been a while. I didn't want to notice so maybe it's only been just recently that I started to see the signs. Isabelle doesn't love me as much as she used to. Or maybe she never loved me that much and I was just deluding myself.
My Izzy is in love with someone else and it hurts me to see her obsessing over the shadowhunter of the generation. I honestly don't know what she sees in him, but it's something.
Now Clary is something to behold. She may not be the most cuddly and open person in the world, but she's a hundred times better than Jace. It's a wonder how a relationship that's only exists for not too long could tear a rip between another relationship that's been there for so much longer. I guess that goes to show the kind of strength we have as a couple.
Even from the beginning I knew I was always out of Izzy's league. I saw it in the way guy would stare with shocked expressions when I would hold her hand or kiss her. This was before I got turned into a vampire. After, it didn't get all that better, but at least I got the stereotypical good looks vampires are known for.
I watch as Izzy grabs Magnus to help her open the door to the library. She doesn't think I know what they're up to, but super hearing makes it kind of hard for me not to listen in conversations. Another bonus of being a vampire.
With a sigh I turn to go explore the temple when I almost run into a certain blue-eyed shadowhunter. Alec arches an eyebrow at me. "What's with the long face?"
I sigh and run a hand through my messy hair. "It's Izzy."
"Don't tell me you guys got into another fight," Alec crosses his arms and frowns at me like it's my fault.
I shake my head before letting my shoulders sag. "That's not it. It's the complete opposite. We don't fight. We barely talk now. Our relationship was already rocky before all this craziness started and now that Jace is being all moody, Izzy is barely paying any attention to me."
Alec lets his arms fall to his sides. "What does Jace have to do with this?"
"Do you really not get it?" I look over at where Izzy walked off to. "I don't know why, but for some reason has some weird obsession thing with Jace. I don't know if she really has feelings for him or if this is something else, but it's tearing us apart. It started getting worse when Jace and Clary got together."
Alec looks shocked at first before nodding slowly. "It's been subtle, but I think I've noticed it too. I don't know what to say to you though. I've only ever been with Magnus. Maybe you should talk to him. He might have more insight for you."
I snort. "No offense, but your boyfriend and I don't exactly get along all that well."
Alec shrugs. "It's just a suggestion. He has more relationship experience than anyone I know. I don't know what's been going on with my sister, but you're her boyfriend. Just try to be a little patient."
With that, Alec walks away, leaving me with my thoughts. It's easy for him because he's probably going to end up marrying the sparkly warlock. I, on the other hand, am wondering whether Izzy and I will come out the same once we find Clary and this whole catastrophe is over.
I really do love her, but if I feel like there's nothing for us then I guess there's nothing I can do about it. I don't want to spend the rest of my life fooling myself. I have a long life to live and I'm not going to make myself miserable.
I sigh, tiredly. "How did I get myself into this mess?"
