Chapter 28: Will We Be Ready
You wonder if anyone had look at this house of my. But, so far….not many. Each is like. Eck for me, now days. And, I haven't really eaten anything hardly, 2 and 5 want me to get some rest. But, I felt tired for days. But, for now, I just have to wait till things were clam.
I felt like I wasn't myself. Weird, even if you did feel like yourself. But, deep down, I knew something was wrong with me. Was it because I was leaving with unfinished goodbyes to people, or was it a place I will never get to see again forever that help me with a story I was written front winter.
I felt lost in my mind. I want to get out of this crowd that was around me. More and more people came and it was hard to breath while moving against them. I wanted to die, but I knew I have love ones even my friends I would miss.
But, in my heart, I could do something insane like that. I knew what I wanted to with my life.
"Lulu? Lulu!" I was writing till pass midnight listing to Beautiful Girl. I was so down these days. It was close now, each day was closer and closer. I feel I was going to go crazy.
"Um….Lulu?"
9 look at me for a moment. I was stress out for odd reasons and good reason. But most of all, good reasons. I haven't talk to them for a bit. More like weeks on end. I was about to cry when I look at them, just like in the movie where they died and those who made it alive. I felt the room for a bit and walk down stairs to see what was left of the place I called home once. I felt confused with my life and now I was starting to think my dream was about to fall apart. I didn't realize the twins were on my shoulders when I came down. My hair was longer so they could hide in it.
"Hard to believe it closer then before."
I told them, not like they would understand how my life is. Since…I wasn't sure what to say anymore. But I knew this import to me now.
"Lulu?"
The others came down and we walked into the bathroom. The noticed my face, I was scared and somewhat happy this move. I was shaking a bit which it not like me or one of my personally traits. Wait, phased that part wrong.
"Lulu…been sad…is it…"
"No 6...its not that…"
I didn't know to say now. All I did these days was write and drawing and watch the limited movies I had to watch. My brothers were getting tired of me watching Repo! The Genetic Opera. And I watched Alice in Wonderland or 9 again. But, I knew I wasn't myself. I didn't want my parents to know. I felt a tear running down my cheek and I knew hit one of them.
"It alright my dear."
2 tried to comfort me but, the results were meanness. I was too up set and confused. I wasn't sure what will happen to me.
"And you said I'm a coward."
I look at 1, what was with him all of a sudden? I remember that little talk, but, that wasn't going to help me much. They tried making me laugh, tried helping me with my writing, even with drawing but everything was messed up.
"Lulu…sad…movie….?"
Not too long ago we watched The Lovely Bones. I loved to bits, and it was inspiring to watch for my Watcher story. It made cried since I never had a movie that made cried before. But, I felt sorry for Susie…she never got to see the world and become a photography or be with the one she loved.
"No 6..."
"If you're sad….you're scared what will happen if…"
5 was on the right track, but I was at my breaking point. The moment people have gotten and my bio dad been…I was ready to do something idiotic. But, running away and heading to Oregon was not my answer…not without my family. Everyone say to positive…but it was hard to be that when everyone around isn't. I was ready to take chance and go ahead leave.
"Lulu…everything will work out. You'll…in fact, we'll all see."
7 told me as she set on my knee and smiled at me. It was hard enough on me then it is.
"Hey, I got an idea. Once we move up there, we like to go with to the beach?"
As much I wanted to say yes, my answer was going to be no till I know what was going on. But, I remember in a song. That things are always how they seem. Guess it was true on the most part. But, I took in a breath in and let it out. I was ready to now.
"Better now?" 2 ask me
"Yeah, I think so."
"No, don't think you are. Are you really."
I laugh a little bit and 6 came to my hand and hug it. I was feeling better then I have been.
"Okay guys, but, you have to help me unpack my belongings once we get there." They all nodded yes. But there hope my family will get a house sooner then I think or they think.
Me: Sorry I haven't update on this for while. I'v-
1: They get it! You been stressed out for a while!
9: oh no...here we go.
Me: Not me my fault Pope Doll!
1: Will you stop calling me!
5: She likes him and yet those two are fighting still...?
6: Lulu...doesn't own 9
7: Belongs to Shane Acker
5: No rude comments
9: Only helpful ones
7: Hopefully we'll see you in next the chapter
