I am continuing this for Pinkcrazyness and Heather J, thank you guys for reading and reviewing, means a lot. I know where I'm going with this story and have everything all planned out in my head, just have to write it all out. Thanks to everyone else who read the first chapter. Hope y'all enjoy this chapter :)

Two days later...

Spencer sighed and rolled over in bed once again. She hasn't slept more than two hours since losing the baby. After tossing and turning for over an hour, she slowly removes herself from Emily and got out the bed. She pulled a t-shirt over her head and walked down to the kitchen.

Spencer poured herself a glass of wine and sat down at the island, that was in the middle of the brightly colored kitchen. She sighed once again, put her head in her hands and started to cry. She felt so helpless, she didnt know how to help her wife, how to ease any of the pain, or how to make things better. Spencer always knew how to handle everything that was thrown at her, even as a teenager but not this time. She didn't know what hurt worse, losing their baby or not being able to take Emily's pain away. She never seen Emily cry so much, not even when her Dad passed away.

"Spencer."Emily whispered from behind her. Spencer quickly wiped her tears and turned to Emily, giving her a small smile. Emily took the seat next to Spencer and grabbed her wife's hand in her own. "Why did you leave the bed?"Emily asked wiping a stray tear that fell from Spencer's eye. "I couldn't sleep and didn't want to wake you, but I woke you upp anyways, I'm sorry."

"Baby, its okay I don't mind you waking me up."Emily said kissing Spencer's hand.

Spencer gave her another small smile before her tears started to fall again. Emily pulled Spencer into her arms and tried not to cry herself. She had cried so much the past few days, while Spencer stayed strong and held her as she cried. It was her turn to be strong for her wife and to let Spencer cry it all out. Crying had made Emily feel a little better, but what made her feel whole again was when she was wrapped in Spencer's arms. She wondered if it was the same for Spencer.

"I feel so helpless and worthless, because I don't know how to help you, because while I try to act strong for you, I'm just as broken on the inside as you. Not being able to have kids and not being able to give you what you've always wanted almost killed me inside, but that's nothing compared to losing our first baby, I feel like a part of me died two days ago, I just wanted us to have the family we always dreamed of, is that to much to ask for?"Spencer cried into Emily's chest.

Emily was no longer able to hold her tears in. She cried at the sound of Spencer's sobs and the pain they both felt. The pain felt as if it would never fade or ease. "We'll have that family Spencer, while I'm scared to death of losing another baby, I'm not giving up, I want a family, I want children and that what I'm going to have, what we're going to have."Emily whispered in Spencer's ear, wiping away more tears.

"I love you Emily Hastings." Spencer said, smiling through her tears. Emily placed her fingers under Spencer's chin and lifted her wife's head up to stare into the deep brown orbs she fell in love with. Emily brushed Spencer brunette hair out her face and placed a kiss on her forehead. "I love you too Spence so much and I know we'll get through this."

"Even though we never got to meet you, never got to see you or hold you, we still love you and we will always love you. You were taken away from us before you have a chance to live, to smile, to laugh, to cry and to love, while it seems so unfair, we know its okay because your safe in Heaven. You are safe in God's arms and the arms of our family you joined in Heaven. One day we will get the chance to hold you, One day you will get to see your parents smiling faces as they hold you and tell you how much they love you. You will forever be loved and missed Baby Hastings, and you will never be forgotten." Aria spoke to the few people that gathered around her.

The Hasings along with , Aria, Ezra, their 5 month old baby girl, Hanna, Caleb and their 5 year old were at the park, setting ballons off to represent their Angle making its way to Heaven to be with God and Emily's father.

Hanna stepped to up next the Aria and looked down at the paper in her hand.

"We will never understand the pain your going through, we will never understand what its like to lose a child, Nothing we say will make things okay or bring your baby back but you two will get through this and will be stronger when its over. You two are the strongest people I know, you two are the perfect couple, if anyone can make it through this its y'all. We'll always be here for you no matter what, we're just a phone call away. We love you and we pray that God will ease the pain." Hanna wiped her tears away and hugged Emily and Spencer.

"Thank you Hanna and you too Aria."Spencer said hugging her best friends.

"We love you Baby Hastings, forever and always."Emily whispered as she let go of her ballon. Spencer let her's go as well then pulled her wife in a hug. Tears escaped Spencer's eyes as she watched the ballons float higher and higher into the sky. "I love you Em."Spencer whispered in Emily's hair, kissing her wifes head.

Before Emily could tell Spencer she loved her too, a five year old ran into their legs from behind hugging them. "Aunt Spemily, Momma says I can't stay the night tonight."Catherine Jill Rivers pouted to her Aunts. Catherine called them Aunt Spemily when she was talking to both her Aunts and Spencer and Emily loved it, it always made them smile.. Every other weekend Catherine would stay the weekend with Spencer and Emily. It started when she was one and they haven't missed a weekend since.

"And why not?"Spencer asked looking over at Hanna. Spencer picked Catherine up and put her on her shoulders. Catherine giggled and smiled down at Emily, who smiled back up at her. "Because of everything that's happened this week."Hanna said walking over to Spencer, with Caleb right behind her.

"We're not missing a weekend."Emily said.

"What kind of snacks to you want Cath?"Emily asked pushing the shopping cart down the cookie aisle. "Ummm, animal crackers and skittles."Cath said from her place on Spencer's back. "Chocolate chip cookies."Spencer said grinning at her wife. Emily shakes her head at Spencer. Her wife always ate a lot of junk food and never gained a pound, something Emily wished she could do. "I didn't know I asked you."Emily smirked at Spencer, leaning over to kiss her wife's cheek.

Emily watched Spencer run down the aisle and spin around with Catherine still on her back, laughing along with Spencer. A smile tugged at her lips and tears filled her eyes. Spencer would be a great mother, She's great with kids, bonds with them easily, knows how to make them laugh, smile and knows how to make them feel better when their upset. Emily loved seeing this side of Spencer, this side of Spencer always made her heart skip a beat and made tears fill her eyes, happy ones of course.

Spencer was destined to be a mother and Emily was going to do everything in her power to make Spencer one.

There you guys go, chapter two :) I really hoped y'all enjoyed. All mistakes are mine. Thank you for reading and don't forget to review :) I love all you readers, until next time...