Crashing Waves: Sexuality Saturn: Discipline and Constraint Hammock: Pushing People Away Falling- Lack of Control

Japan couldn't help but think all of this was a bad idea. He wasn't the frivolous type to have a… a… romance. He was too old and bad things happened when two people got wrapped up in each other too much. Japan still felt horrible about ignoring Greece and he missed him greatly, but it was just for the best.

It still hurt more than he could've imagined when he saw him at the last meeting. Japan had looked cautiously towards Greece to find him staring at Japan, his lazy green eyes full of hesitation. Japan flashed him a regretful look. After America let the meeting out, Greece was the first to leave, getting up without saying a word.

Japan laid on the floor and a couple of cats curled up beside him. He closed his eyes and tried to remove the guilt and the emptiness, but it just didn't work. The sounds of waves made him open his eyes. He regretted it almost instantly as the Sun burnt his retinas. Nothing was clear, just the heat of the Sun and the sound of the waves.

He forced his eyes to focus, though, and was surprised to see that the light was not from the Sun, but the unmistakable yellow planet with huge rings. Saturn?... Japan was confused, but he was distracted by the sudden feeling of hands on his legs.

The hands slid up onto his bare thighs and the fingers followed all the way up to his… Japan jumped a little. Suddenly the body moved up and Japan put his arms around who he thought would be Greece. Their lips met and they started passionately making out, the person's bare legs rubbing against Japan's. That's when it hit him.

This was not the muscular, broad back of Greece or his tan skin. This person was slender and their hands were light. Their skin was pale and soft. Japan focused his eyes again. Staring down from on top of him was a pair of brown eyes and a round face, framed by long, dark hair. Staring down from on top of him was someone who had raised him, but Japan had hurt so many times. He reached to China's bare back and his fingers traced the long scar.

China grabbed his hand. Japan went on defensive, not sure if China was about to attack him. He didn't, but kissed him harder, throwing his hand down. China took Japan's length and slid his hand up it, making Japan claw at the sand. He moved down and kissed his stomach, making his way to… He moaned, his back arching as China took his cock in and out of his mouth. His tongue ran over the head and Japan almost screamed. He didn't want to continue this. He didn't want to do this to Greece. But he just couldn't stop and he let some more moans slip through his lips.

Suddenly the feeling was gone. There was lightness above him where Dream China had disappeared. There was a new feeling beneath him, though. There was netting holding him up and he was swinging slightly. Apparently he was in a hammock, something he had never been in awake. His confusion was short lived, because the netting disappeared, making Japan fall into darkness…

Japan awoke with a start, sitting up. The cats scattered and he buried his face in his hands. "Japan-san…"

He looked up quickly. Greece was in the doorway, a look of concern on his face. "I'm sorry, but I came up here to talk to you and you weren't answering, but I knew you were here. I thought there was something wrong so I let myself in where I heard you in here. I'm so sorry…" Greece said, whispering the last part quietly.

Japan looked at him for a long time, his face blank. Then he began to laugh. "Come here!" Greece kneeled beside him.

Japan rose up and kissed Greece lightly. "I've been so stupid. I was too scared to love you and ended up hurting the both of us. I thought that I was too old to love someone like this. Please forgive me."

"Of course I will. I love you, too. You're never too old to love, you know. Besides that, are you okay? It seemed like quite a dream you were having. Was it a nightmare?" Greece asked quietly, his fingers tracing Japan's jaw.

Japan tried to hide his smile. It was just a dream anyway. "Yes. A common, falling one…"

Greece rolled on top of him and chuckled. It hadn't sounded like a nightmare…

~~~~~~~ Man, those kinds of dreams are UNCOMFORTABLE (though I don't have them often). I do have the falling ones a lot. Do me a favor and review if you want. So far I haven't gotten any on the second... That one was a weaker one. This whole dream theme is just awkward to write. The dreams are hard to describe without it sounding like a bad acid trip. No excuses, though :D Nice little twist, huh? Please review or I won't continue! Like I said finding all the symbolism is a bitch, so I could just trash this story and do a different one... Thanks for reading!