Destined For Each Other
Behind His Mask
A/N: Hey guys sorry for the long wait! How long has it been since my last update? OMG I haven't updates since 2009!!! Lol!! :P But I was pretty occupied, with preparing for the baby's arrival! : ) Unfortunately, I have to prepare the baby's room in my apartment ON MY OWN! How far is that!? Lol! Anyways I hope you guys enjoy this chapter! : )
P.S. Goldenheart11 this one is for you! Thanks for the idea! : )
He thinks I don't know. That green idiot really believes that I don't know his secret. I know why he keeps telling those stupid jokes. I know very well why he acts as the team jokester. I know the exact reason why he wears that emotional mask of his. It's almost the same reason that I do.
It's funny really, not ha ha funny, but cruelly ironic that I fell in love with him. Yes you heard me right, I Raven, of the Teen Titans, the dark, creepy, emotionless Goth has fallen in love with, perhaps the most annoying person to have ever walked the face of the earth. That honor goes to no one other than Beast Boy.
I still don't know why I ever felt that way for anyone, let alone Beast Boy himself. But it could all go back since Terra first arrived and became a member of the team. I immediately disliked her, but there was a strange foreign feeling growing in the pit of my stomach whenever I saw them spend so much time together. I tried ignoring it, and I tried to convince myself that I just thought their stupid little activities were nothing but that, stupid. But later I realized I never felt that way when I saw Robin and Starfire act like complete love-sick idiots. To my horror I found out I was jealous of Terra.
I was jealous of her getting all of Beast Boy's attention, just like I used to get from him. Beast Boy immediately put forth all his efforts on impressing Terra. And she would just toy with him, as if he was just merely a puppet. I despise her for that. The least she could have done, was meet Beast Boy half way and gave him the relationship he deserved. But what did the wench do instead? She betrayed us, and broke Beast Boy's heart. I don't care if she sacrificed herself for the safety of the city, I will never forgive her for what she did. But I couldn't help but feel heartbroken as well. That's when I really hate being empathic.
I was the one who confronted him after Terra's demise. It was very awkward because I wasn't used to having such a close relationship with Beast Boy. But I built up the courage to knock on his door that one fateful night. And when he opened I was completely shocked at what I saw. Beast Boy was standing there, with his normal smile and happy aurora.
"Hey Rae! What's up!?" He asked gleefully, but I could feel a heavy depression radiating from him.
"Um…I just wanted to see how you were doing, you know after…the whole Terra incident" I said dryly
"I'm doing GREAT! I've never been better! Nope! Not bothered one bit! Actually, how are you doing Rae? Fine I hope!" Beast Boy spilled out in a hurry with a nervous grin. Okay I didn't have to be an empath to know he was lying through his teeth
"Beast Boy, I know you're hurting" I replied plainly
"What are you talking about Raven?" He chuckled nervously
"Beast Boy, did you honestly think I was stupid enough to be fooled by that performance?" I asked him, looking right into his suffering eyes. His shoulders dropped and he looked at me sadly, my eyes widen. I have never seen him look so depressed before. I didn't like it.
"No. But Raven…you have no idea what I've been through over the years" He told me gloomily
"No I don't…but I would like to know" I whispered softly. Fortunately for me, I had my hood up, so he couldn't see the blush that was grazing my face.
"Y-you do!?" he asked me, surprised
"Of course I do. Beast Boy I'm your friend, and as much as this may surprise you, I actually care for you. Uh…y-you know as a f-friend" I lied desperately trying to avoid showing any emotion, but my stupid stutter betrayed me.
"Oh" He said looking a bit disappointed, but I shook the thought away when he motioned for me to enter his room, with that small smile, that I learned to love.
"Okay Rae, whattya want to know?" He asked me.
"Everything. I want to know everything that is bothering you" I ordered him bluntly
"Um…okay. But I must warn you, it's a long story" He chuckled
"I don't mind, just keep it simple" I suggested
"Okay, well you know that I became an orphan at a very young age right?" He started. I only merely nodded my head in response
"Well, that's the start of my problems." He said looking down at his feet in shame
"How?" I asked stupidly. He looked back at me, with that heartbreaking sadness in his eyes.
"It was my fault Raven. I could have saved them. I could've saved my parents from the sinking boat. I could've turned into a bird and rescued them or something, but instead I just flew away like a coward. I shouldn't have listened to them when they told me to fly away" He confessed brokenly. He began to cry, and thanks to my empathic powers I felt an overwhelming rush of sorrow from him. I couldn't take it, I did something that was so unlike me; I hugged him. And to my surprise and pleasure, he hugged back.
"Beast Boy, there was nothing you could've done. You were too young. Your parents did the right thing by telling to fly away or you could've shared their same tragic fate." I tried to console him, but thanks to my monotone it sounded more like sarcasm.
"Yeah, but at least I wouldn't be suffering right now." He said through his sobs. I pulled him up to look at me
"Beast Boy, life isn't fair. People lose their loved ones, go through hardships and persecutions all the time. And you and I are no different. But when we are forced into these obstacles, we must fight through them, and move on with our lives. And I wouldn't know personally, but I'm sure there is a silver-lining somewhere out there, it just takes time for us to find it." I lectured him. To my slight amazement, he didn't whine or complain; he instead listened carefully and nodded his head.
"Beast Boy, believe me, I know exactly how you feel. As I'm sure you know, I also had a very….unpleasant childhood. I was trained by the monks on Azarath to never show any emotion. I was supposed to be sacrificed to allow my…father to destroy the earth." I continued. I realized my hands were still on his shoulders, and I quickly let him go.
"Beast Boy, you aren't the only one who is suffering." I said barely above a whisper. A tear slipped down my cheek, but before I could even notice it, he brought his hand up and whipped the tear away gently with his thumb.
"Then let's suffer…together" He spoke just as quietly
"Beast Boy….I-I can't" I said stuttered between my own snivels
"Why not?" He asked me gingerly
"I'm scared" I admitted, looking down at my hands in shame. He then grabbed my hands, causing me to look into his forest-green eyes.
"You don't think I am? I've never even had a real relationship!" He chuckled warmly
"What about…Terra?" I regretted mentioning her name as soon as it slipped out. Beast Boy just gave me a sad smile.
"I don't know about Terra. She really did break my heart. And I really did like her" he started, causing my own heart to ache from jealousy and hopelessness.
"But I always had this strange feeling towards you, Raven. And I know one thing for sure, it was always, and still is, ten times stronger than what I've felt for Terra" He explained, causing me to perk up. Well for me it only came out as my eyes widening, but I'm sure he knew that I was happy, since he laughed at my reaction.
"I-I don't know what to say" I replied, feeling stupid again
"How about you answer me something" I looked up at him, raising my eyebrow in confusion
"Why did you honestly dislike Terra so much?" He asked with a smug smile. I blushed at hearing his question.
"Well I disliked her for several reasons. For starters, she betrayed us" I started. He winced when I said that, so I moved ahead quickly.
"I also felt that she was replacing me on the team. She was getting all the attention from everyone." I continued. I took in a deep breath. It was now or never.
"But I mainly disliked her because…I was jealous" I whispered so softly I was surprised Beast Boy even heard it
"Jealous of what?" He asked soothingly as he brushed his hands against my own
"Jealous…that she had…….you" I finally got it off my chest. I looked up at him to see him with that stupid childish grin of his.
"are you saying that you like me? As in more than a friend?" He asked, that smirk never showing any sign of leaving soon. I shyly nodded my head to answer his question. He surprised me once more by embracing me lovingly. I couldn't help but return the hug.
"You have no idea how happy I am right now" He said joyfully
"So are you saying you like me too?" I asked
"DUH!" I couldn't help but grow a smile
"So Raven?" He asked after several minutes of us just holding each other
"Yes Beast Boy?" I asked against his warm neck
"Does mean we're boyfriend and girlfriend?" He asked with a blush on his face. Fortunately for me, my hood was still up, because my face was red.
"Yes, I guess we are" I said with a smile
"Raven, I'm glad my first real relationship is with you" he whispered in my ear before he pulled down my hood and pecked me on the cheek. I blushed, but smiled up a him and give him a small kiss on his cheek in return.
"Me too Beast Boy, me too"
END OF STORY
A/N: Alryte guys. I know this one probably didn't live up to my previous chapter, but I hope you liked it! And I know it was MAJORLY cliché, but who doesn't like some good old fashion BB/Rae fluff?? Lol!!
Anyways remember to READ and REVIEW!! Oh! And I got some GREAT news! Raven2K8 and I are currently discussing about writing a story together!! What do you guys think about that!? : P
