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Lucy was pressed backwards into the door of the cabin on the upper deck. Caspian had pushed her out of harm's way.

"Lucy, get inside!" he screamed, already fending off the next attacker. Lucy searched the upper deck. There were about thirty pirates attacking the ship. Lucy knew that the crew had already put a much larger group to flight at the beginning of the journey, but this time they'd been completely unprepared. They were that far away from any civilization, that near to the world's end, that they hadn't expected a pirates' attack.

Kicking one of the pirates into the sea, Caspian turned around, facing Lucy again, "Lucy! Please, get inside! It's too dangerous out here..."

"Caspian, watch out!" Lucy suddenly heard Edmund's voice from some feet away. Her younger brother was running towards them, pointing at a long haired pirate, who had trained his crossbow at Caspian, releasing his arrow.

Suddenly everything moved more slowly. Caspian turned around and caught sight of the arrow, but instead of sidestepping he built himself up in front of Lucy to cover her. Then there was suddenly Edmund, throwing himself in front of them. Before Lucy realised what had just happened, the arrow hit her brother's chest.

"Edmund!!!" Lucy screamed, watching her brother's body hitting the railing.

"Lucy, wake up! You're dreaming! Wake up!" Lucy heard her brother's voice next to her.

Lucy opened her eyes and caught sight of her brother, who was sitting next to her on the bed. But it wasn't the brother she wished to see, it wasn't the brother that had been missing for more than three days now.

It weren't Peter's eyes Lucy wanted to look into, it wasn't his voice she wanted to hear comforting her, it wasn't his presence she wished for more than anything else, although she was more than happy that he was here. Crying Lucy fell into Peter's arms, burying her face in his chest.

"Shh, it's okay! Everything will be fine!" Peter tried to calm down his younger sister, caressing gently her back.

As Lucy looked up, she caught glimpse of Edmund's bed. It was still unmade and crumpled like he had just jumped out of it. Everytime she saw his bed she felt a twinge in her belly. Everytime she talked to somebody, she thought of the bold answer Edmund would have given. Everytime she closed her eyes, she saw his body falling over the railing into the sea, the arrow still stuck in his chest.

"It's my fault... it's my fault that that arrow hit him, it's my fault that he fell into that sea... it's my fault that they aren't here!", Lucy stammered in despair, tears running down her cheeks, "If I hadn't hesitated going under deck, Caspian wouldn't have needed to shield me and Edmund wouldn't have thrown him in front of us and wouldn't have fallen into the sea...

Peter grabbed her shoulders, forcing her to look into his eyes, "And if we had never been sent to Narnia, if those pirates hadn't attacked the boat, if Caspian had fought of that pirate...

"You can't blame Caspian, he just wanted to..." Lucy opposed.

"I am not blaming him. Well at least not anymore, I know that I've been unfair towards him. What I wanted to say is that we can't know what would have happened. Maybe Edmund would have fallen into the sea fighting another pirate. Your fate is sealed. We cannot do anything about it. You told us that everything that happens has its reasons, that Aslan has his reasons for everything. I am sorry that I haven't had trust in Aslan from the beginning, like you always have had, but I was so full of rage and despair..." Peter's voice broke down; he looked down, to hide the tears in his eyes.

"That's human, Peter!" Lucy remarked.

"No, I should be better like that!" Peter said bitterly, shaking his head.

"Everyone struggles, but not everyone has the strength to overcome those struggles. You haven't lost your faith in Aslan and that's all that count!" Lucy told him, the wisdom of a far older person reflecting in her eyes.

Peter looked up, his gaze meeting Lucy's eyes. For a moment there was silence, the siblings just looking into each other's eyes, knowing exactly how the other one felt. They had both lost two family members, although they weren't gone for good, they didn't know, where and how they were. And this uncertainty was even worse.

Then Peter smiled, "I still can't believe that Eustace jumped after Edmund? Is this really the same person we are talking about?" He joked trying to make her smile.

But his comment hadn't the desired effect. Lucy looked even sadder, "Well he had changed after Aslan had talked to him, like we had, when we had been here first. I really liked the new Eustace; you know he is really..." Lucy sobbed, "...I hope he is okay! I hope they both are!"

"I am sure that they are!" Peter said, hugging his little sister once more.

Suddenly there was a loud noise, that sounded like a bugle but richer. Lucy and Peter looked at each other shocked, exactly knowing, where that sound came from and what it meant.

It meant trouble.


She was even more beautiful than Caspian had remembered her. And he wouldn't have thought that possible. Even now that she was wearing men's clothes, which was disturbing for him by the way, she still looked breathtakingly beautiful.

Her dark hair, as black as ebony, was flying in the wind, her pale skin was as white as ivory and her wonderful full lips were as red as blood in the cold of the night. Those wonderful lips, he had touched before for the second time. He closed his eyes, remembering the wonderful feeling of her soft lips on his, her wonderful scent, he had smelled, when he had been that near to her.

Now Caspian was watching her from some distance, not knowing if he should approach her. What should he tell her? Did she even want to talk to him? Maybe he was the last person in the world she wanted to see. Was she angry at him? He knew it was his fault that Edmund and Eustace were lost. Edmund had thrown himself in harm's way to protect him. He should have prevented that. It was his fault and he could barely live with this guilt.

For so long Caspian had wished to see Susan again, he had dreamed of their reunion. But he had never imagined it like that.

Moreover he didn't know her feelings towards him at all. She had kissed him before she had left Narnia but she had also told him that their relationship would have never worked anyway. Maybe her feelings weren't like his, maybe the kiss had just been a spontaneous act, just a damn-it-I-am-never-going-to-see-him-again-kiss. Maybe she hadn't enjoyed the kiss, like he had. Maybe she had already forgotten him, maybe found somebody else to love in her world.

Caspian could feel a twinge in his heart at that thought. Although he wanted her to be happy, he couldn't imagined her being happy with anybody else but him. He knew that that was selfish and he was ashamed of having that thought, but he couldn't help it.

He could tell, from the way she folded her arms that she was cold. He wanted to go over to her, take her in his arms and warm her. He wanted to tell her, how much he loved her, how much he had missed her and that he never wanted her to leave again, but there were so many things that kept him from doing this, not only that she may be angry at him, not only his guilt about what had happened, also the fear that she might return to her own world, but most of all the fear that she might not feel the same way.

But he couldn't also just turn around and walk away. Firstly because he wasn't able to tear his eyes away from her. Secondly because he needed to talk to her. Although he couldn't tell her how much he loved her, he could tell her how sorry he was for what had happened that he would fix this, that he would bring them back, no matter what it would cost.

He took some steps towards her, the wooden floor moaning beneath him. She had to have already noticed him, but she didn't turn around. He opened his mouth, but then shut it again, not knowing how to begin.

"Why am I here?" Susan suddenly whispered into the air without turning around.

Caspian was that taken aback by this simple question that he didn't know what to answer. He didn't even know if this question was directed at him.

"How could he do this to us? How could he let this happen?" Susan continued and although Caspian knew exactly, who and what she meant, he didn't have an answer down pat. He silently laid one hand on her shoulder, to show her that he was here for her. Susan winced at his touch, but didn't elude him.

"Why does he do this to me? Taking me back, where I am not supposed to be, reminding me of a life I know I cannot have..." Finally she turned around, facing Caspian. Their gaze met and Caspian felt another twinge in his heart.

Her sapphire blue eyes were that full of sadness and grief that he couldn't stand looking into them. Seeing her anguished, filled with sorrow, lacerated his heart. And he didn't know how to comfort her. He still didn't know what to say.

So he followed his instincts, although he knew that it wasn't right. His mind told him not to, but his heart told him something else. It just felt so right, being near her. He couldn't resist the temptation, so he closed the distance between them, placed one hand on her cheek, gently wiping away her tears. As she didn't back off, he leaned in to kiss her.

And when their lips were only centimetres apart and Caspian could already feel her breath on his skin, there was suddenly a loud noise.

Susan flinched and pulled back, looking at Caspian in shock. The young king wasn't less shocked about what he had just heard, but still the thought, why she looked that way, crossed his mind. Was it because of their almost-kiss or was it because of the noise, they both knew meant trouble?

"That's my horn!" was all that Susan managed to say.


Yeah that was it!! :) What did you think? Hope you like it!! :).... Sorry that it's again a shorter chapter! ...

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