ah, sorry it's been so long, i've been majorly busy and just haven't had time to write. and just FYI, the new Zelda game is AMAZING!!!!!!! lol
sorry...claimer:i own everything that u havent seen before...yeah :D
gonna start this with a little song by avril lavigne, probably wont happen again but this is one of my fav songs and i thought it fit this chapter pretty good :D
enjoy!
34.-When you're gone
I always needed time on my own
I never thought I'd need you there when I cry
And the days feel like years when I'm alone
And the bed where you lie
Is made up on your side
When you walk away
I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now?
When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day
And make it OK
I miss you
-Avril Lavigne (When you're gone)
The icy wind bit at my eyes and seeped under my scales as I careened desperately through the sky in hopes of coming across some trace of him, but so far I'd found nothing, not even a faint scent to indicate that he had passed by there. I felt as if half of my mind and body had been mercilessly ripped away and a huge gaping hole was all that was left. I had never been much of a crier, but these past few days felt as if they had opened a dam in my eyes and they were unable to stop flowing.
It was as if I was in a dream, it just didn't seem real, either that or my brain still hadn't registered what had occurred for fear that my whole system would shut down and I would spiral into depression. Eventually ending up committing suicide or something because there was just no logical way to live without him.
I had no idea where I was going, and I probably would have carried on like that had the skies not suddenly decided to open wide and unleash a storm that sent my wings battering against my sides at odd angles and pain shooting the length of my muscles causing me to hiss from the sting.
There was no way I would be able to carry on in a storm like this, unless I wanted my wings removed leaving my body to freefall to earth and eventually landing onto the hard earth, dead.
Against my will I was forced down by the wild torrent of wind towards the treetops, searching desperately for a safe place to land, or at least one where I wouldn't hit trees as I descended.
Thankfully I spotted a patch of earth that looked as if it had been scolded away by fire, the plants around it were lifeless and brittle, mostly blackened or reduced to ash.
I locked my wings just as the freezing rain began to pour against my scales, the liquid trickling onto my skin underneath causing me to shiver involuntarily. I fell to the ground, landing with my talons clutching desperately to the moist soil in a vain attempt to slow down and not hit the trees in front of me. I slid to a stop and stood huddled against the slicing downpour, my eyes closed in fear and loneliness. I knew that if I stood there unmoving any longer I was at risk of catching hypothermia, so I crept forward, my long tail dragging in the mud behind, my wings drooping and scraping at the ground beneath. I stopped at the outskirts of the trees and realized that there was no way something of my size would be able to travel through the dense forest, so I dismally morphed into the silver wolf that had become so much of me in the few days that had changed my life.
My paws moved on their own accord, venturing deeper into the menacing forest, the stinging rain was chilling to the bone, my thick silver coat offered no protection against it. My breath came in short pants that fogged like mist in front of my face, the cold air stinging my sensitive nose and causing it to go numb, but I carried on, knowing that this one reckless mission could very well be my last. But my common sense to turn back was clouded with the urgency to carry on and to find the one I searched for, knowing that if I didn't I would be as good as dead anyway.
Even though the sky was already dark I could notice when the sun began to sink because the surrounding forest was not as light as it had been, and the scarce wildlife I had heard had disappeared to be replaced with the almost inaudible scuffling of the nocturnal creatures.
I couldn't feel my paws and my legs were heavy with the tiredness of travel, my eyes streamed from fever that I knew was just starting, and my belly ached from lack of food and water, but I was too exhausted and ill to hunt. The forest was just a blur as I stumbled through, not knowing if I was actually going anywhere or if I was just wondering in circles, but my mind was too lost in sickness to care.
The downpour just got worse; the never ending pattering of raindrops on the tree canopy was soon accompanied by the clash of thunder and the violent flashes of lightning streaming through the treetops, temporarily blinding my already weak eyes. I was losing energy fast, the strain of staying a wolf and walking at the same time was starting to get to my body and I found myself suddenly collapsed on the flooded ground, not remembering when I had fallen, and too tired to care. My energy was gone, and I realized that I was now human; the fine clothes I wore now lay in tatters around me, ripped and covered in dirt, the expensive material wasted on the harshness of the woods.
The glacial rain absorbed into my skin and hair, soon causing my entire body to go numb, unable to move. So I lay there for what seemed like eternity, unmoving, not able to sleep, the fever keeping me awake to endure the feeling of pure sickness and the longing of company, hoping that someone would find me, yet at the same time not caring if they didn't.
Maybe it was meant to be this way, for me to just die in the mountains, alone, and let Dorran save the world from the traitor king's rule. Maybe I wasn't even meant to have come this far, and I should have died along with my grandmother, just another causality in the war between the kings' forces and the rebellion of the townspeople.
Maybe.
I think a tear slipped down my cheek at that thought, but my eyes were streaming from fever so I couldn't be sure. There was a wind now blowing even stronger than the last and leaves covered my body quickly, creating a kind of coffin imprinted in the earth, possibly my final resting place, but then that was how it was meant to be, with me being trained as a healers assistant it was only fitting that I was buried in the earth like the countless healers before me. That had been my destiny before magic other than a healers had intervened, so perhaps it was still my fate, and I should not have meddled in affairs that did not concern me.
But then, the death of my grandmother was very much my business, so even if I hadn't been transformed into what I was now I think I would have still gone out to track down whoever had murdered her and seek justice, just because it would have been the right thing to do and I wouldn't be able to sleep at night knowing that whoever had done it had gotten away with the crime.
I was surprised my brain was able to function in my current state, but glad at the same time, even though unconsciousness was much more welcome at that moment.
I had no idea when the rain stopped, but the sudden halt of the noise was a welcome relief, and even though I was unable to open my eyes I could faintly see the sunlight seeping through my eyelids. The warmth gently brushed at my face, making me suddenly aware of how cold my skin was. I was still completely unfeeling but if I listened carefully I could hear the quiet chatter of the woodland creatures and the occasional scrape of a deer hoof against a small stone. I lay there, marveling in the peacefulness of the place, when I suddenly heard a snuffling noise, not quite as prominent as a pig's, but I could tell the animal had a snout and was searching the ground for something urgently, the sound of claws ripping up leaves identified the animal as a predator, probably a bear or wolf. But whatever it was grew closer and closer until I could hear it right next to my ear. Then there was a strange noise, like a low humming, and then the popping of bone joints joined in, and then a sharp intake of breath.
"Kalanie!" I heard a voice say and my heart would have skipped a beat if I was able to feel it. I recognized that voice and joy spread through me as I heard it. I attempted to open my eyes to look upon the face of the one I had been searching for, but found I was unable to, even with the new found energy at his arrival I was still too weak to even lift a finger.
Then I felt hands raking across me and I felt as if a weight had been lifted from my numb body, he was taking the leaves away. Then I was lifted from the ground and I was wrapped in something, slowly getting warmer by the second. He embraced me, whispering apologies in my ear…and threats? He was cursing someone, the string of profanities a hum in my mind for I was too tired to focus, but I could tell he was dangerously angry at someone, just the way he held me, his arms too tight around my back, his chest heaving with the strain of fighting off the angry vibrations that would have been wracking his body if he were not controlling them. He stopped cursing and settled to whispering my name over and over, his hands running up and down my back forcefully, trying to warm my body with the friction. The he stood up and carried me bridal style, away from the place where I had spent however long there, and back presumably towards the Varden. I stirred slightly in his arms and huddled against his chest, seeking warmth, my soaking hair clinging to my face and my legs dead, as if unconscious.
I managed to open my eyes to slits and gazed up into the face of my rescuer. My heart dropped as the face that I wished to see was not the one I was looking at now. Faolan had saved me, which meant that Dorran truly didn't care what happened to me anymore. But then, why did I care that he didn't? Even though we share souls we are only acquaintances. Maybe I didn't need him after all.
Maybe it was humanly possible to live without him, I just had to try.
will Dorran ever come back? Will Kalanie be able to live without him without killing herself or anything? Will there ever be a Kalanie/Faolan relashionship? Will i ever stop asking myself annoying questions that i don't know the answer to?
um...dunno, lol.
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