DISCLAIMER: I do not own Death Note or any of its characters and what not.
now im mad.
the chapters on my computer have been deleted. so i had to re write everysingle one from this chapter to however many else there was that i finished.
ARGH i hate this.

anyway, i think i like how i wrote it before, and yea, my chapters are starting to get shorter... tell me if you like that or not

so yes, this chapter you see a more.. sensitive side of L i suppose
i dont know, but their really emotional because that's how much they love each other for apparently
love is a powerful thing


It had probably been about two or three years since L had left Wammy House. By now I am already at the age of 18 years old but I was depressed, sad, and most of all lonely. I dreaded the fact that I had to wake up every morning to awaken with no greeting from L. No more late night talks or music hours. No more walks on my favorite path in the rain with a silence between us that was comfortable. No more hugs, no kisses. Nothing. I would dream of him every night, and they were all good dreams. Him and I spending time together doing absolutely nothing in the world but enjoying each other's company. Yes, I, M dreamed. For now I spent my nights sleeping, I saw no point in staying up as late as I usually would, who would I spend it with? Myself? It wasn't as fun. I gave up on piano. I felt as if I had no point in life.

I woke up to the sound of rain pounding outside. I glanced at the clock on my wall it said 6:45 AM. I figured so that I would wake up this early, I had gone to sleep by 8:00 last night. I scratched at the back of my head and stretched yawning. I stepped out of bed. The sun had just started to rise leaving just a small streak of light shining through my bedroom window. I crawled my way out of bed and walked toward the light. I placed one hand to the window watching the rain. The morning sun added a twinkle to my deep dark black colored eyes. I heaved a sigh, the weather today was much like the weather it was when L left. I looked at all the photos on my wall, thinking back to that very day.

I woke up hearing rain pounding on the roof. I sighed softly and shifted my a little. I had just woken up from sleeping. How long has it been since I slept? Though, more importantly, what was my head resting on? It wasn't a pillow, I'm sure it is not the floor... Then, "L." I whispered. He was still asleep, I glanced toward the clock in his room, it was only 7:27AM. I sat up looking at L. He was still sleeping, but if I made a sound it would wake him up in no time. He mumbled something in his sleep. I ran my fingers gently through his soft, messy, raven black hair. His eyes slowly opened up smiling at the sight of me. I only half-heartedly smiled back at him, "Good morning L," I said softly. "Good morning to you too M." He replied. Though early in the morning his voice was still as smooth as glass. "I'm so glad that your still here." I fought back the urge to hug him. His eyes closed for a few seconds, pausing, he grabbed me and pulled me in for a hug. My eyes widened. "Oh, why in the world would I leave right in the middle of the night? I wouldn't want to depress you." He said in a gentle voice. I pulled away from him, talking in a more serious tone. "Depressed. Even if you left in the middle of the night or in the middle of the day, either way, I am going to be sad." He sighed at my fact and grabbed my hand gently, "No, you can't be sad. You need to be smiling as you see me go off into the world, finally fulfilling my life long dream of being a detective. I wouldn't want you to be sad." He said. I raised an eyebrow and put on my well known crooked smile, "If you don't want me to be sad, don't leave." I challenged him. All expression faded away from his face, "M." He said in a much more serious tone this time. I sighed, "When do you have leave?" I asked as he heaved himself off the floor of his bedroom, slowly starting to walk out the door thinking. "Mid-day." And with that word he left his room. I could feel the lump in my throat and tears starting to build up in my eyes. I quickly swallowed my pain and sorrow and trudged off to my room.

I looked in the mirror at the black bags under my eyes, they brought so back so many memories that would soon come to an end. I heard Mello being dragged out of his room into the hallway complaining, "Why the hell do we need to have a family meeting? It's eight in the frickin' morning. Besides, we're not even a real family." He whined. "Shut up Mello. L said it was important, and so what if we're not a real family, we treat each other like we're one." Matt said. My eyes widened, family meeting? I rushed out of my room to be greeted by Matt and Mello screaming and cursing at each other. I cleared my throat to get attention. They didn't hear, I figured that much. I made a disgusted face and walked over to Near's room. I knocked on the white wooden door three times. He opened the door looking tired. "Did I wake you up?" I asked. He shook his head no. "Mello and Matt's yelling did." We looked over at them still screaming and fighting in the hall. I stepped to the side of Near's door frame and he trudged out. "Mello... Matt." He said loudly. They stopped yelling and looked at Near. "Downstairs, now." They scrambled to stand up and ran down stairs. How impressive. I thought to myself. Near was the youngest but one of the most respected. I followed him downstairs to find everyone, including Watari. I walked to the couch and sat on the floor next to Matt's legs.

The room was filled with silence. The soft sound of footsteps broke the silence. I looked up from my feet to the staircase, it was L. He stopped and spoke, breaking the dead silence that filled the room. "Everyone." He started, getting everyone's attention. We looked up from whatever it was that we were doing and gave our full attention to L. He continued to speak, struggling for the perfect words to say. "I'm leaving." He said it so coldly. Everyone but Watari and I were shock. Near snapped back into reality, "Wait, leaving as in... gone?" He questioned. L nodded silently, a sad look in his eyes. Matt stopped in the middle of his game and stood up from his spot, "L, why?! You can't just leave us like this!" Matt screamed. I remained quiet, sitting on the floor. Mello spoke up, "Could you at least explain why the hell you're leaving and where the hell your planning to go? Also, why the hell Watari is okay with this?" There was a silence and L walked toward us. "There's a mass murder in Japan, and he goes by the name of Kira. He's been punishing criminals by killing them somehow. This case has caught my attention. So... I've volunteered to help and solve this case." Silence filled the room. Near sniffled once tears starting to form in his eyes. He looked up to L as a mentor and loved him like a brother. "Don't leave." Near whimpered. My heart dropped, those were the exact words I had said to L the previous night. L staggered nervously, "I'm sorry. I have to. In a few hours I will be off to Japan, and I will bring Kira to justice." With those words said, L left the room and climbed up the stairs to pack up his things. Matt dropped to his knees beside me. His goggles filling up with tears. "L... No." I looked over to him, hair casting such a dark shadow over my eyes you couldn't seem them. Matt removed his goggles revealing his deep blue eyes. A single tear streaked down his face leaving a stain, he wiped it and looked at me. "M... Last night, I'm really sorry for teasing you. You must have been so sad that's probably why you two were hugging each other because you found out that he was leaving and-" I cut him off by putting a hand in front of his face. "It's fine Matt." I replied in a monotone voice as I raised myself up and walked out the back door into the rain. I sat by the fountain for a while getting drenched in the down pour, wishing that he didn't have to go, wishing that Kira was never alive, wishing I could take the past all back and re-live it again. I heard a horn beep from the front of Wammys, L was about to leave. I sprinted as fast as I could through the rain down my favorite path to see everyone gathered outside with umbrellas. Watari was waiting in the car, "How long has Watari known about this?" I mumbled, thinking outloud. Matt turned when he heard me, his goggles still off. "Hey M." I nodded at him and joined him under his umbrella. We stood in silence listening to the rain and waiting for L to come down. I was soaked and freezing, but I couldn't have cared less. I closed my eyes, taking in the scent of the rain and the cold breeze, it was like a kiss from Heaven. I then heard the door slowly creep open. My eyes shot open as I turned around slowly. L emerged out of the house with a black umbrella walking towards the car, "Goodbye everyone." He said looking all the while at me, sadness set into his eyes. "Bye L, We'll all miss you!" Matt yelled through the rain. Near joined in, "Yeah, promise to come back." Mello gave him a relaxed salute as I remained silent. He opened the door pausing to get one last look at each of us then slowly slide in. That was it, I couldn't take it anymore. I've held back all my emotions for too long. I ran out from under the umbrella catching the car's door just before he had closed it shut. I pulled him out from the car and hugged him saying nothing. L pulled me in, "I love you M. Promise me that you'll always remember that no matter where you are." He whispered. I smiled as a single tear crawled it's way down my cheek. I gave him a soft peck on the lips and we pulled away, "I love you too, L. And yes, I promise." He slid in, wet from the rain and shut the door. I ran back to under the umbrella next to Matt. He looked at me bewildered as the car drove away.

I snapped back into reality, the present. No L. I sighed from that sad memory. Outside, it was still pouring rain but the sun fully risen by now. Today was just one of those days in which the sun is shining but the sky is crying all at the same time. Like an emotional break down. I smirked at the lame joke I thought up in my mind. "Hey M! You wanna play some video games with me?" Matt asked, standing in my door way. I stood up from my spot next to the window. I gave a small smile and nodded. Playing video games with Matt always made me happy. No matter what mood I was in. It would help me to get my mind off of pretty much anything. I followed him into his room. And for the first time in years, I laughed.