DISCLAIMER: I do not own Death Note or any of the characters and what not.
OMG BITCH FINALLY UPDATED.
I amm sorreehhh. for taking so long, my internet at home hasnt been connecting to my laptop.
but now it works (obviously) yaaay.
umm.. so yeah.
oh yeah, i don't really re-read edit shit before i post them.
SPOILERRRR if you haven't already watched the whole series.
What the hell did Ryuzaki mean? 'It will be lonely here without me... won't it... M.' His exact words echoed through the walls of my mind over
and over
and over
again.
He sighed loudly, I glanced at him quickly. "Toki wo tomete, Namiko." There was a long pause between us two. Oh WE'RE SPEAKING JAPANESE NOW HUH L? "Let's stop time?" I asked him. He laughed a little. "I wish we could." He mumbled. I looked at him, my face screaming confusion. "Uh... What?" My voiced cracked a little. Damn. A sign of weakness.
There was a long pause as Ryuzaki stopped walking, thinking.
"I don't love you anymore, M." He said it with such sharpness in his tone.
My heart sunk to the ground.
WHAT THE HELL JUST HAPPENED? My mind was screaming at me, as my eye widened a little in shock.
He continued walking into the main room. No signs of emotion, no signs of sadness, and no signs of pain. But the worst part about it, was that he didn't even look back at me.
I collapsed to my knees, falling in a heap in the floor. It felt as if my heart had been torn right from the depths of my soul. Everything, gone. Just like that. I swallowed hard, in too much shock to even cry. I took in a few deep breaths, shaking my head, trying to clear his voice from my mind.
I mean, It didn't even make any sense. Unless I was dreaming the whole thing and suddenly woke up in this random room next to a soaking wet Ryuzaki then what the hell did all that making out and kissing in the rain mean? That was like just thirty minutes ago. Can you really just stop loving someone in thirty frickin' minutes? Is that even fucking possible? What the hell does he take me for, his stupid sex toy! There has to be something wrong going on. For him to act in one matter and say such a thing right after.
I heard a commotion coming from the main room, where Ryuzaki was. But knowing, him, it probably wasn't something too serious. He always had everything under control, no matter what the situation was. As fast as the yelling had started red lights had started flashing around the room. Alarms blaring. What the hell? I ran as fast as I could into the other room.
"Watari?" Ryuzaki was screaming into the screen.
"What the hell, Watari? I haven't seen him in years! Watari!... Watari?" I said to myself.
I ran into the room only to catch a dying Watari falling off the screen, his hand reaching for something. Using the last of his strength. A button. The screen went to a blank white, the words "delete" plastered across the middle. "Deletion?" Matsuda and a few of the others screamed, "What the hell is going on!"
"Watari." I said loud enough for everyone to hear me. Matsuda turned around and motioned me to come closer to them. Ryuzaki spun the chair around, slowly so he could face us. "Watari... He's... Dead." He whispered. The room fell silent letting his voice bounce off the walls.
Could this day really get any worse?
Ryuzaki spun quickly back around to face the screen, I looked at him in the eyes. He knew that something was terribly wrong, but an idiot like Misa could have figured that out. But Ryuzaki knew something else, something horrible. And he was scared, I could see the fear and sadness in his eyes. But what was he scared of?
My eyes opened wide.
"Where's the Shinigami!" I yelled.
Everyone suddenly turned confused "I don't know!"
"Oh... shit." I said loudly.
Silence filled the room for just a fraction of a second.
"Everyone!" Ryuzaki called us to his attention, "the Shinigami is.-" He froze for a few seconds.
We all looked at him waiting for him to finish his sentence.
He dropped his spoon.
What the hell. Ryuzaki never drops anything.
Just as if we were frozen in time Ryuzaki didn't move, didn't make a sound, didn't finish his sentence, nothing.
Then it occurred to me,
Ryuzaki, he was having a heart attack.
I gasped. Squeezing my eyes shut, "Toki Wo Tomete." I whispered to myself.
"Ryuzaki!" I screamed, diving to the floor just as he fell. Catching him.
He looked at me weak in the eyes, reaching up to touch my face. His long slender fingers just brushing my lips.
I bit my tongue, hard.
My tears rolled down my cheeks, dropping off my face landing on it's resting place on his.
He was dying.
Right in my arms.
Do you know how that feels?
Picture in your mind. A relative, a friend, a significant other.
Just picture someone that you love even more than you love yourself. Dying, in your arms.
With all his strength. He lifted his hand again and pulled me toward him, for one last kiss.
His cheeks stained with tears, as was mine.
His hand dropped with a dead force to the ground, as his eyes closed slowly and I felt the weight from his body fall into my lap. It was like I could just feel the life going out of him. With all his strength, he used his last breathe to say three special words to me.
"I love you" He softly whispered.
L was dead.
L Lawliet, my best friend, lover, and soulmate was dead.
I finally got it. He was pushing me away for all this time because he knew that this was going to happen. But why hadn't he done anything about it? Because he knew that if he hadn't died we couldn't have finished this case.
I swallowed hard.
"AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHH!" Light screamed as he dove to the floor slamming me out of the way. He grabbed L as he screamed, again. "Cmon' Light. I don't want to see any yaoi tonight... Or at all." I mumbled a little louder than I should have. He turned around to glare at me. I glared at him back, challenging him to say what he needed to say. "You think this is funny?" He said a little more than a whisper. I didn't reply, watching him closely. Silently. "WELL? DO YOU? DO YOU THINK IT'S FUNNY THAT HE DIED? MAYBE YOU ARE KIRA IF YOU THINK IT'S JUST HILARIOUS." He yelled back at me. You are such a fake Light Yagami. "You don't see me laughing. Do you? I feel just as sad as you do Mr. Light Yagami." My tone was harsh. "I DO NOT SEE YOU CRYING!" He was running out of things to say, silly boy. And why did he say 'do not' instead of 'don't' is he bluffing? Isn't he Kira? He couldn't have killed L... He was still handcuffed to Ryuzaki. But... What about that stupid no good shinigami? "One doesn't have to be crying in order to be sad, Light." I turned my back on him, as I ventured off to my room.
I collapsed. So much was happening, I could barely take any of it. I was totally done with it.
I was depressed. I took my daily dose of vitamins, more than I usually do. I sighed loudly. Ryuzaki wouldn't want me to do suicide. He would want me to be happy... As well as finish the case. I walked into the main room of our office. I leaned against the wall and slid down to the floor, my head buried into my knees, I silently cried to myself. Everyone was asleep, L was gone, I wasn't in the mood for writing a sappy song so why did it matter? What the hell mattered anymore to me? This case? No. The only reason why I even came to this stupid case was because one; I was forced to, and two; L. But the reason that mattered most to me is gone now, and I don't know what to do. I feel like I'm trapped inside of my own life. My tears dried but the feelings were still there. My heart still in tiny pieces.
Then I heard a laugh.
It was coming from the other room, and it sounded... Almost demonic. And... Scary. But I knew that laugh. It sounded so familiar. My eyes widened. It couldn't be. I followed the sound into the other room, peeking in. There was a pile of sand located right in the middle of the floor, the Death Note, and... someone. It was too dark to see, he was hunched over, laughing to himself.
I gasped.
Light Yagami.
yaaaay depressing chapter.
boo, i feel like a murderer. I KILLED L LAWLIET.
ahhhh.
