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One movie had escalated into a few. Of course there were plenty included that we had watched dozens of times previously so there was plenty of conversation as well. We only stopped otherwise to make popcorn and order pizza. He told me about a job he had recently started as a part time mechanic at a nice shop in La Push. He went on to talk fondly of his boss whose prices were nothing short of honest. I was glad to see Jake found something close that paid well enough to buy him a bigger bed and new clothes. He had practically ruined his entire old wardrobe when he'd phase spontaneously. I was pretty sure Billy was going broke between trying to feed Jake and clothing him.

Throughout the entire day I couldn't help but compare the connection I share with Jake to the connection I share with Edward.

Edward is extremely protective, and everyone can see how godly handsome he is. There are no obvious surface flaws, I'm pretty sure there aren't any at all. He has an amazing sense of fashion all his own. We share a lot of the same interests and taste in music. Everyone in his family is a great friend of mine with the exception of Rosalie, although I can understand her dislike for my past clear lack of value for my own human life. Edward can give me anything I could want as far as money was concerned. I could buy anything I wanted, travel anywhere in the world, go to the most expensive schools, and live forever. I wouldn't have to worry about sleep, or even breathing.

Jacob is even more protective but he allows me to make my own decisions. Not only is he beautiful, his body is so perfect it looks as if it were photo shopped in pictures. His skin isn't pale white and cold, it's tan and warm. He has a very manly sense of fashion. Unlike Edward, he isn't very metro sexual. There isn't much me and Jake disagree on. He loves my cooking, and would never allow me to abandon my family. He knows how much I love both Charlie and Renee. Not only is Billy a good friend of mine, everyone in La Push is like my family, even Leah. I couldn't imagine my life without any of them. While I may only get one life to grow old with Jacob, it will suffice. I have no doubt we'll do fine financially in the future, and kids are an actual possibility. I may not own a Ferrari, but I'll live the American dream. I'd never given it much thought before because I never felt as if I fit in with the idea, but Jake has made me realize a lot of things I want now that I never would have before. I may not be able to tell people he phases into a wolf, but no one is threatening to kill me for knowing and not being a werewolf as well.

When you compare the two, there is no competition. Jacob clearly wins.

The clock above the television read 11pm. Charlie had picked up Billy around 7 for the Mariners game and called about an hour ago to say he'd be spending the night at my house and they assumed I was sleeping here as well. Of course Jake was thrilled I wouldn't have to leave.

Jake went into his room and came out with a pillow and blanket and threw them on the couch next to me. "I'll take the couch, you can have my bed Bells."

I smiled, "Jake your bed is huge, I'm sure we can both fit."

"Are you sure? Or are you just planning to rape me in my sleep?" he laughed, sitting down next to me.

I picked up the pillow and threw it at him, I couldn't help but blush. Thankfully, he didn't notice.

"I promise not to rape you in your sleep, now go get me some clothes to sleep in."

"Yes princess." He grabbed the pillow and blanket off the couch as he stood up and walked into his room.

I occupied myself by cleaning up the living room. Jake always made a mess of everything, especially when he ate. I threw the pizza boxes in the garbage and then proceeded into Jakes room. I sat on the edge of his bed while he looked through his closet.

He placed a t shirt and sweatpants next to me and sat down. "These are from last year so they won't be as baggy on you."

"Everything of yours is baggy on me. You're more than a foot taller than me." I laughed, holding the shirt out in front of me.

"That's because you're super short Bells, but I love it." He smiled.

I stood in front of him with my back facing him. "Mind unbuttoning me?"

He hesitated for a minute before unbuttoning my dress.

I walked to the other side of the bed and slipped off my dress. As I stepped out of it I heard him gasp. I could feel his eyes all over my body. I unhooked my strapless bra and placed it on his nightstand right next to his bed along with my dress. I hadn't even heard him move but suddenly felt his breathe on my neck as he stood behind me. "You're so beautiful Bells." He whispered, placing his hands on my waist, pulling me closer to him. My heart felt as if it were beating out of my chest. I placed my hands on top of his and moved them up onto my breasts. He caressed them and kneaded them aggressively as he kissed my neck. I moaned in ecstasy. He grabbed my chin with his right hand and brought our mouths together. I spun around as we shared a passionate kiss, his tongue parting my lips as his hands grabbed my ass. His tongue moved with mine as if this was all too familiar for us. I dug my hands firmly into his hair, never wanting this to end. I wanted him so bad but not now, I hadn't been completely honest with him. I pulled away, breathless and panting.

"Jake I need to tell you something." I confessed, sitting down on his bed.

"What is it?" he stood in front of me with a curious look on his face.

I grabbed his shirt from the other end of the bed and put it on. It was so big it would've reached passed my knees if I were standing. "I know I told you before I put my engagement on hold but that isn't exactly true."

"What do you mean it's not "exactly" true Bella?" he asked.

"Well… I've wanted to put it on hold, but I haven't said anything to Edward yet." I was so embarrassed by my actions but there was no way to explain it in a way for it to sound okay.

As soon as the words left my mouth, his eyes became darker with anger. He turned away from me and punched his dresser. He managed to keep himself under control but I was afraid the damage was done and I might just lose him because of my stupidity.

How could I be so careless with our relationship? We couldn't have a good start if I wasn't completely honest with him. Edward definitely needed to be completely out of the picture. Charlie would be thrilled that I finally changed my mind. It should've been a sign to me before that he preferred Jake over him. I wish I would've gone about this differently.

We sat there in silence. What was only 5 minutes felt like hours. Finally, he turned around and looked directly into my eyes. I got up and wrapped my arms around him as tight as I could; tears started flowing down my face. "I love you Jake." I whispered.

He pulled away from me and looked into my eyes as if he'd been waiting forever to hear me say that. He opened his mouth as if he were going to say it back but shut it quickly and walked out of the room. I hesitated for a minute before deciding to run after him. "Jake, wait." I yelled, hoping he would listen.

I got to the front door in time to see him phase as he ran into the woods. I didn't know when or if he'd be back. I ran back into his room and threw myself onto his bed, my hands covering my face as I cried. I had been so unfair to Jake, I just hoped he'd let me make it up to him.