Thinking about her relationship with Jess had brought up thoughts of Dean. She had treated him so horribly. 'One more', she thought. But this one she knew she would never send.
Dean
I don't know why I am writing this, I don't even know where you live. For all I know you could live in Kansas with a wife and a baby on the way. I just hope you are finally happy.
I guess I'm just writing this for myself. Writing has always been therapeutic for me. It helps me move on. I guess this an apology letter.
I am so sorry for all that I've done to you.
When I was 16, I loved you so much. You were the best first boyfriend any girl could've had. You were nice to my mom, you understood my humour and you loved that I was driven. You weren't too hard on the eyes either... But one day I wasn't 16 anymore and I found myself wanting more. I was going places, and you stayed in the same place.
When Jess left I thought that I had made the wrong decision picking him. I craved the sense of safety that you gave me. But we had grown so much, changed so much, we couldn't go back to 16, no matter how much we wanted to. I found the right person for a new period of my life. And I am so grateful that I did. I finally knew that you weren't the one for me, and I wasn't the one for you.
I am so sorry for all the hurt that I've caused you, for contributing to the end of a marriage.
You deserve someone who loves you just as much as you love them; someone who will never leave you.
I hope you find what your looking for. Because it's not me.
Goodbye Dean,
Rory
