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Sirius
Chapter 8.
Hermione stared at him and clutched her towel tighter around her body. She felt exposed and vulnerable.
"What the hell are you doing in my room? Get Out!"
"Where were you?" Harry was visibly annoyed and she could tell from his voice that he was controlling his anger.
He waited for her answer and when it was obvious that she wasn't going to answer him, he continued on.
"I waited for you all day and where were you? Why didn't you come, did you even read my letter? Where is it?" Harry looked around and saw a folded parchment on the table, he opened it and saw the heading.
Letter of resignation.
"It's in the fire Harry, I burnt it." Harry looked at her and he walked over to her. He stopped directly in front of her face and his look was threatening but she didn't give in, she stood her ground.
"You what?" he sounded hurt.
"I burnt it, now get out."
Harry looked at her face and even though he missed her terribly, he was so angry and hurt that she didn't show up, he couldn't let his mind wander.
"I waited for you, I needed you and you didn't care enough to show up..."
"Care enough?, Are you out of your freaking mind Harry? I am NOT the one who is married, I am not the one who was waiting for his mistress to come over and sneak in the back door after his wife left this morning. Get a god damn grip Harry, I will not be the other woman to you or anyone." Harry turned around but still spoke to her.
"You will never be the other woman Hermione, she is. I love you not her, I never have." Hermione watched his back as he spoke. She wasn't sure whether she wanted to let herself believe him or not. While his back was turned, she used her magic to quickly summon her night robe, and she walked around Harry and went past him to sit on the lounge in front of the fire. Harry did not move.
"Harry, why did you marry her?"
Harry didn't answer her but he walked around quickly and knelt down in front of her.
"Hermione do you love me?" Hermione gasped and slowly shook her head.
"Harry it's not fair, you can't ask me that." Hermione's eyes welled up and Harry's hand grabbed her hands in her lap and he put his other hand on her neck.
"Please answer me Hermione, I need to hear it, do you love me?" Harry's voice was desperate and his face showed his panic as he accentuated each word.
Hermione started crying and she stood up and walked over to her window. The sun was setting and her room was bathed in an orange glow. He walked up behind her and brushed her hair away from her neck and when his lips touched the soft nap of her neck, she gasped out loud. His arms went around her small waist and his hands splayed across her stomach. He slowly moved his hands over the silken night robe and he continued kissing her neck. She smelt amazing and he was trying very hard to reign in his desire.
One hand slipped underneath her robe and when he touched her bare skin, it was he who gasped. He kept rubbing his hands over her stomach and he came up higher to softly massage her breasts. His breathing was deep and hard as he sucked on her neck and the corner of her chin. His other hand travelled down lower till he felt her patch of hair. He quickly massaged her and when she threw her head back on to his shoulder, it gave him more access. He could feel the heat of her body through the robe on his chest and his own arousal was quickly begging for release. He turned her around to face him and he crashed his lips onto hers. Her hands went up into his hair and she grabbed a fistful of hair and she held on tightly. Harry lifted her up and she immediately wrapped her legs around his waist. He kissed her desperately and wildly. He walked them both over to her bed and he gently laid her down. He hovered over the top of her while he undid his pants and lowered his boxers down. He opened her robe and looked upon her beautiful skin. He took each breast into his mouth one by one and positioned himself at her entrance.
"Hermione, I love you more than my own life." Hermione reached up and pulled his head down to kiss her. He pushed inside her and she gasped at the instant connection, Harry slowly slid in and out of her wet, warm folds until he couldn't take it any more. He started pumping faster and when he was just about to explode inside of her body, she clenched around him, calling out his name. Harry followed her into ecstasy and afterwards all you could hear was their heavy breathing.
Harry laid down next to her and pulled her into his body. He felt complete with her and he knew he had to tell her the truth. She had to know how much he loved her.
"Harry, can I ask you a question?" Hermione held onto him and kept her face buried in his chest.
"Yes baby what is it?" there was silence for a minute and then she spoke and Harry was not expecting that question.
"Harry did you sleep with her last night?" Harry tried to pull her back so he could look in her eyes but she wouldn't let him go.
"Hermione, listen to me, I promise you, there is only one woman I have slept with over the last two years and that is you." Harry held her really tight and when he felt her start to tremble, he pried her off his body.
"Harry please don't lie to me, I can't really handle all of this and I couldn't really deal with any more lies."
"Hermione, I am not lying to you, I promise you, you are the only person I love and the only woman I have slept with. There are a lot of things I need to talk to you about, there is a lot you don't understand but I want you to know I am not lying, I love you and only you." Harry kissed her again and he pulled her into his body. She relaxed in his embrace and then he spoke to her again.
"Mione, can I stay with you tonight... please?" she looked at his face and searched it for the truth.
"Yes Harry but I need to know what's going on, other wise it's over once and for all. I have no problems in handing in my resignation letter and leaving here. You will never find me Harry, so I need to know if you are prepared to tell me everything?" Hermione looked at him and waited and Harry nodded. The funny thing was that Harry seemed to have a sense of relief on his face and the two lovers got comfortable and dozed off.
"I love you too Harry." she whispered when she heard Harry's deep breathing but he heard her and she knew it because he started to tremble.
"The only woman to ever say that to me, was my mother, do you mean it Hermione?"
She nodded and smiled at him.
"Good night Harry, sleep well."
Hermione awoke early and immediately felt around for Harry but he wasn't in her bed. She opened her eyes and quickly scanned the room but her eyes stopped at the chair at the foot of her bed. She sat up and pulled the sheet up around her breasts. She tried to tame her hair but she gave up. Harry was sitting in the chair, dressed in the clothes he had on last night. He had his elbows on his knees and his head was hung low.
"Harry?" he looked up and smiled at her, she felt slightly relieved.
"Mione, do you have the morning off as well?" She nodded as she had planned the timetables to coincide before she knew it was Harry.
"Ok that's good, cause this might take a while," he laughed a nervous laugh and she shuffled down to the end of her bed and took his hands in hers.
"Ok, bare with me Mione, this his hard to talk about." She nodded and he took a minute then continued.
"OK my parents and my Godfather, Sirius Black, were all Aurors. They were at the top of their game, they were the head of the department in America. Not one case went unsolved. They were the trio, their names were splattered all over the papers and they were constantly receiving accolades. Then mum fell pregnant with me and there were lots of arguments but in the end, dad won and she had to resign. Dad, Sirius and their friend Julian, continued working together. They were all really close, Dad made Sirius my Godfather and made Julian executor of the will. Well, when I was seven years old, the worse thing ever happened, mum and dad were killed on a job. They had spent weeks trying to break this case and when it finally came together, Julian, Sirius, Mum and Dad went in. From what I have been able to understand, Mum and Dad took the back and Sirius and Julian were to take the front. Sirius didn't know what happened but Julian vanished and he was concerned his work mate was hurt. He ran around the back to meet up with Mum and Dad but an explosion took them out. Sirius was thrown back against a wall and was knocked unconscious. From what he said to me, he awoke and found Aurors everywhere and Mum and Dad were killed. Sirius took me in and we lived together for a while. Everything happened so fast, we had the press to deal with and then the funeral and then our house. Mum and dad weren't overly rich but I remember being comfortable. Anyway one day everything went to hell, I was eating breakfast with Sirius and he was trying so hard to make everything normal for me, but then a knock on the door changed my life again. Sirius stood up to get the door and all I remember was, there were people barging in through the door and taking Sirius away in handcuffs. It was so scary, all I kept thinking was who will look after me." Harry was silent and Hermione squeezed his hand again to offer her support.
"After a nightmare couple of weeks, Sirius was sent to jail for the murder of my parents and I was sent to Julian's home to live. His wife Jennifer, was nice to me and she treated me nicely but he was horrid. I was constantly reminded of how much of a burden I was and I spent my whole life trying to find things to please him. When I moved there, they had just had a little baby girl and I mostly spent my time with her. She was cute, little and innocent. Well she grew up to be Elizabeth St John." Hermione's hand flew to her mouth, she was absolutely shocked.
"Harry, you married your step sister?"
"No not really Mione, they never adopted me or made anything legal besides the will stuff. But the biggest blow that hit me was just after they took Sirius away was the court case. He was convicted of my parents murder, I was shocked and hurt. He trusted them and he betrayed them."
"Harry did you ever talk to him to find out what happened, you know, get his side of the story?" Harry shook his head,
"No I was forbidden to speak to him, he is in Azkaban, he has been for the past twenty years, I was never allowed to pursue the case or even ask questions about it." Hermione's eyebrows knitted together as she remembered something from the past month.
"Harry I thought you said that your Godfather sent you a letter when we were at your house?" Harry shook his head.
"No the letter was from an attorney as I did some snooping and I found out he should have been released this year but something happened and the papers were lost."
"Harry, can I ask you, why on earth would you want anything to do with him when he killed your parents?" Harry stood up and walked over to the window, he was deep in thought.
Hermione stood up and walked up behind him, afraid she had said the wrong thing.
"I'm sorry Harry, .." He turned around to face her and sat down on the window ledge. He pulled her close to him.
"No No don't apologise Mione, I have never told anyone this story and I find it hard to hear it out loud. You're right, I shouldn't care what happens to him, but nothing adds up. Sirius grew up with my father and my mother, I don't remember much but I do remember he loved them and earliest memories always had Sirius in it. Every single photo in our house had Sirius in it, even Mum and Dad's wedding photos. At the court case he kept screaming my name, he was worried what would happen to me.
It haunted me for years. Anyway, time moved along and I was sent to the American school of witchcraft and wizardry. When I got enough newts to go into the auror program, Julian freaked out. He forbid me to enter but I did it anyway. He took away my small allowance and literally made my life a living hell. I passed my course and I started working in the Ministry. It wasn't the best job but it was a job. I was planning on moving out and getting my own home, but then I found some files on Sirius Black marked private and it had a complicated encryption spell on it. It was like a puzzle I had to break and after some research and mucking around with old spells, I cracked it. I read the file and guess who's name kept coming up?" Hermione looked at him and said Julian St John.
"Yes you're exactly right Mione, he was hiding something and it didn't matter how far I dug, I kept hitting a brick wall. Any way somehow or another it got back to him and after some very threatening words, I had to stop digging. We hardly ever spoke after that and I was shocked beyond words one day when he approached me with a business deal. He wanted me to marry his daughter, who by this time had turned into the spoilt bitch you have met. Well much to his horror, I said no."
"Really what did he say?"
Harry was quiet for quite sometime and then he spoke.
"He told me if I didn't marry her, I would have to leave the house and never show my face there again, I was actually happy with that idea and I agreed then he told me he would kill Sirius if I didn't agree. I looked at him and asked him why he even thought that would bother me. He stared me straight in the eyes and told me Sirius was set up. I looked at him and asked him what was going on, was Sirius guilty or not and he wouldn't answer me. I demanded to know the truth and he told me that my parents were into some dealings with some dark figures and that was why they were killed and they also suspected Sirius. I was shocked and demanded to know why he didn't say anything. He was an extremely threatening man and after some threats of his own, I got stuck marrying his bitchy daughter, who nobody else wanted and trust me she didn't want me either and to this day I have no idea why she agreed to it so quickly. Its not like I have any money or status but she agreed on the Friday night and the following Friday we were married at the Ministry of magic. All done and dusted so fast it made my head spin." Harry tried to laugh but it came out very strained. Hermione placed her arms around his waist and rested her head on his chest.
"I tried to make it normal you know, like a proper marriage but the amount of arguments we had over the sleeping arrangements was unbelievable. I wanted to try and be a family but she wouldn't have it and now I am pleased I didn't commit to her, because I finally found you, the one who was meant for me." Hermione nodded and hugged him.
"Harry, not that I am not pleased, but how on earth did you keep going without any love for two years?"
"At first it was hard but trust me Hermione, she is just as vicious as her father. I asked for a divorce and she said no. Then I told her I was applying for one and she started on me. She told me she had made sure that I would be left with nothing if I left her. No job, no house, No nothing. I know it sounds weak and spineless of me, but when your head is as screwed up as mine is, it wasn't hard to play on my weaknesses."
Hermione looked at him and wondered how someone so kind and wonderful as Harry could have lived such a life. She decided there and then that she was going to do something to fix this mess up.
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