Dreams and Forgiveness
Jasmine tossed and turned. She just couldn't sleep. It was always this way when it was so close to her mother's death anniversary. Usually she would sleep with Jeremy, but at the moment, her pride kept getting in the way, reminding her how mad she was with him.
"Jasmine" one of her brothers called out. It was Travis. "Are you okay?"
"I can't sleep"
"Do you want to sleep with me?"
"Eww. No"
"I'm your brother. And I'm not so big on incest" Travis rolled his eyes.
"Still… The only other bed I've slept on beside mine was Jeremy's and…"She trailed off
"You're still mad at him" finished Travis. Jasmine nodded. "Do you want me to take you to Katie's cabin?"
"Please" Jasmine squeaked
XxX
Katie woke to a knock on the door. She groggily walked over to in and opened it. Normally, she would have slammed it in whoever's face it was, even Travis, but she knew it was serious when she saw Jasmine.
"She couldn't sleep" explained Travis. Katie nodded and brought a tired Jasmine in.
"Let me guess; you miss your mom." Jasmine nodded and got into bed.
XxX
Jasmine was in a magnificent palace. She already knew it was Mount Olympus.
"Magnificent, isn't it" a voice rang. Jasmine turned around and knew exactly who it was.
"Lord Hermes?"
"Hi Jasmine" Her father greeted
"This is a dream. Why are you in my dream?"
"I wanted to talk to you. You are my daughter."
"After thirteen years, you finally decide to talk to me?"
"I'm sorry, Jasmine"
"Whatever. I'm over it"
"I see you have some feelings for that Nico fella"
"Okay…"
"You can talk to me about it, you know"
"I know. It's just…weird"
"How do you feel about him?" asked Hermes as if he didn't notice the tension at all.
"That's just it. I don't know how I feel about him"
"You don't know or you don't want to know?"
"I…don't want to know" Jasmine admitted
"Why"
"I'm not that girl; I'm not the girl who gets attached. I don't like feelings, they're messy. And I don't like being hurt. So why'd I let him get to me, when I know that everyone always leaves"
Hermes looked down and winced. When he looked back at his daughter, his eyes were red. "You're talking about me, aren't you?"
"I get it. You're a god. But couldn't you have tried to be a better father? Couldn't you have stopped the bullying? Couldn't you have tried to get my mother back? Couldn't you have stopped Jeremy from yelling at me? Couldn't you have warned me about Faith? Couldn't you have made Star a demi-god too? Couldn't you have done SOMETHING?" Jasmine was full out sobbing. Everything was too overwhelming and no matter how hard she tried, she broke.
"I'm sorry Jasmine. But there was really nothing for me to do. You've gone through a lot, but maybe it's time to forgive and forget."
"You want me to forget all of this? Pretend like none of this happened?"
"Forget what happened, but not what it taught you"
"How do I do that?"
"One step at a time, Jasmine. Talk to your brother first."
Jasmine nodded. "Okay. Bye Lord Herm-… Dad. Bye Dad"
"Don't say Good Bye, Jasmine. Bye means leaving and leaving means forgetting. I will never forget you. You are my daughter. And I love you."
Jasmine smiled. "I love you too, dad"
XxX
Jasmine woke up to an empty cabin. But it was the Hermes Cabin. She looked around and realized she was in her bed.
"The Jeremy carried you in" Jasmine turned around and found Avalon.
"Jeremy?"
"He knew you couldn't sleep and carried you into bed first thing in the morning."
Jasmine played with the Caduceus pendant on her necklace. One Step at a Time her father's voice rang in her head.
XxX
"I don't hate you" Jasmine told her older brother. "You've been too involved in my life for me to hate you"
Jeremy cracked a smile. "That's good to know. Jasmine, you know I would never intentionally hurt you. And I'm truly sorry"
"I know. It just hurt me to think that you meant those words."
"You're right. I did mean it. But I shouldn't have yelled it in your face. And I should have kept in mind that you're just thirteen. I keep forgetting that. When you're not pranking, you're so mature for your age that I forget that this is your first crush, yah know, once I got over the initial shock." Jasmine scoffed while Jeremy smiled a little. "Ever since your mom died, you didn't need me; you didn't need anyone. And because of that, I forget that you're my little sister."
"Jeremy, I will always need you. If it's just to hang out or to do my homework. You're my Big Brother. I will always need you."
"Need me?"
"Yes. Need you. Jeremy, you're not just my brother; you're my best friend."
"Okay. I guess I was a bit mad that you were hurting so much and I couldn't do anything about it. I let that anger out on you"
"And Nico" added Jasmine. Jeremy gave her a suspicious look.
"Why do you stand up for him? He's hurt you so much that you cry when you go to sleep"
"Do Not!"
"Do too! You still have feelings for him, don't you?" asked Jeremy
"Maybe… I don't know. He messes with my feelings and emotions I once thought I was in charge of. He… does things out of nowhere that really makes me smile. But then I remember how one little thing he did hurt me, and I don't want him to hurt me again."
"It's…love" explained Jeremy
"Whoa, whoa, WHOA. I don't love Nico."
"I've been in your place before, Jazz. Except, Alex didn't hurt me; I hurt her." He looked down guiltily. "Remember how I was when I first started crushing on Alex?"
"You were love sick." Jasmine answered with a smile. "I was eight at the time and even I could see how much you liked her"
"It's the same with you."
"No. It's not."
"When I was in the sixth grade, I started crushing on Alex. One day, we were sitting outside of the cafeteria, when Jessie Master started flirting with Casey and Casey did the same. Casey, being as oblivious as she was, said she was just being friendly. Alex just shook her head and swore that Jessie had a thing for her sister. In the seventh grade, Jessie and Casey started dating. It was weird how Alex could tell they had a thing for each other, but she couldn't tell how in love I was with her. Get what I'm saying?"
"No. Not really"
"That's the thing with girls. You guys can tell when somebody else likes another person, but you can't tell if somebody likes you"
XxX
"Hi Jasmine"
Said girl turned around and saw Nico. She gave a tight smile and looked everywhere but him.
"So I heard you and Jeremy are good again…"
Jasmine silently nodded, trying to keep herself in check. Her over protected brother approves of their 'relationship', her heart is starting to resemble a hummingbird; beating at 99 beats per minute. But there was something holding her back… fear.
"That's great!" Nico exclaimed. He smiled as Jasmine nodded. Nico's smile vanished. "What's wrong?"
Jasmine just shook her head, not trusting her voice. Reality crashed down on Nico.
"You haven't accepted my apology, have you?"
Jasmine shrugged. I want to…but
"Jasmine, you may not accept it, but it's as genuine as pure gold."
Jasmine nodded again.
"I'm sorry I hurt you. That was the last thing I would want to do. It's just… a weird feeling."
"I get it Nico, you don't have to explain."
"It's just… I would never hurt you"
You already did thought Jasmine
"I'm gonna get hurt anyway. I just need to know who's worth suffering for"
"Am I… worth suffering for?"
"…I don't Know"
"I can understand that…"
"I don't know if you're worth suffering for… But… I know that I want you in my life"
"Really?"
"Yeah. Really. We could be enemies for all I care. You'd still be in my life"
"Why don't we start off as friends?"
"… deal" Jasmine warily agreed. "Friends"
"I'm Nico Di Angelo. Son of Hades"
"I'm Jasmine Bays. Daughter of Hermes"
