Ren's Point of View: Occurence of Insanity
I'm not really sure how it happened, but when we locked eyes. I immediately felt the aura she had around her shrink in. Completely collapse, like it hadn't been there at all and the thing inside me that had been bugging me for the past hour to let it free, wasn't even there anymore. Hell, I couldn't locate it if my life depended on it. It was like it never existed.
I frowned instantly, not from the question she just asked, but the fact that the aura had changed so dramatically, and she hadn't noticed a single thing. Did she even know the effect she had on people? Did she do that deliberately?
"What's wrong?" She asked, her face was clearly worried. She was still scared as she had been in the classroom, but it was different this time, there was a strong sign of compassion in her eyes that told me she wasn't doing this purposely.
"Nothing." I shook it off. "I'm just surprised." I told her truthfully.
"About?" She prodded.
The bell rang, signalling that the time was over. Now I knew what they meant when they said saved by the bell. I looked at her apologetically.
"I'll see you at lunch in the cafe?"
She smiled lightly. "Sure, if I can find it."
I managed to make it to my Math class before the teacher noticed I missed the bell. Which was lucky, at least Moira had the excuse that she couldn't find it.
I noticed Estle at the back of the room and I immediately made a bee line for her. She perked up when she saw my face, and I had to hold back a grin to make sure I didn't look too excited.
"So?" She asked, once I sat down. "How'd the talk go? I didn't want to interrupt when I saw you two talking."
"She has absolutely no idea what she's doing." I started. "But before I say anymore, we are... you know... experiencing the same thing right?"
I waited, searching her face or any emotion that seemed off, but I found none. She just looked back at me. "I think so. You have it too? The thing?"
"Yeah... the thing. I don't really know how to describe it. But I do know what it is. When I was trying to make it come out... you know without the weird aura that the new girl had... it was kind of like a glow." I thought about it a little more. "For me at least. It was a white glow. I tried... you know... using it... on one of the cows, but I didn't get anything. I just thought it was nothing, but then a week later, my Father mentioned to me how much more milk that the cow was producing. He said he was going to ship her off to some slaughter house, but then decided to keep her. So, it didn't really do much except make the cow produce more milk." I told her.
She just looked at me and nodded. "I haven't really... experimented yet."
"Maybe you should? What's the worse that could happen? Make your breasts produce milk?" I laughed.
She frowned instantly. "I guess, but I don't really know what to do. It's completely unknown territory for me." She admitted.
"Well, you must know it's there." I told her. "I knew before this new girl showed up."
"Yes, but I kind of didn't want to touch it... you know? It's kind of like a bad memory for me. Looking at it makes me cringe, and I just never wanted to try it. I would think about it at night, but then decide against it." She sighed. "And I can't do it in class."
"Why the hell not?" I discouraged. "It's not like you have the power to kill things. It's just white glow."
Just then, the teacher started yelling to get everyone's attention and I frowned at Estle to tell her that her view on this issue was completely stupid. Shouldn't people want to explore new territories of their body? I couldn't imagine what it would be like not to at least know it's there, to completely shut myself away from it. That's like shunning yourself away from masturbation, I mean, it gets old after a while, but it's still there and ready to be used.
"Okay." She whispered, barely audibly even to me. "I'll try it."
