14: She is feeling Many Things.

(VP: Tenten) We're sitting on the couch in my living room and Neji is meditating while I'm resting on his shoulder while reading, the quite tranquility is a huge change for two weeks ago when we were on the mission. We're off because of the damage Neji and I took during the mission. It was to be expected that they give you time off because you need time to heal but without missions and Tsunade saying we're not in the shape to even practice what were we to do. It's annoying that we can't do anything.

"Tenten what do you want to do today?" He asked me opening one his eyes to look at me.

"I'm not sure, what do you want to do?" I asked.

"I don't have plans; I would have figured she'd at least allow us to train, right?" I nodded.

"I want to but we need to heal." I said sadly.

"Why don't we go walk about the complex, view the gardens and such?" He asked.

"That seems calming, I'm sure I could find an herb to take care of some of those scars of yours." He sighed and shrugged.

"I'm sure Hinata could tell you if there's one, we'll stop by and see how she's doing."

"That would be good too." I said smiling.

We arrived at the gardens and he sat on a bench as he watched me wonder about the Hyuuga Gardens and smell all the beautiful scents. Most would tell you if they only saw my matches now a-days that I'm a tomboy-fighting machine. However, Neji would argue with you all the way. If it's not for a purpose I won't fight, unless I'm training but then again, I only train with the best, Neji.

"Are you enjoying yourself?" He asked. I turned around and nodded.

"It's beautiful here, and quite relaxing, don't you agree."

"Many times when I was growing up, and I suffered a defeat or felt weak, I'd come here. It gave me a sense that I could become stronger if I focused on it. It reminded me of my mother."

"You knew her?" I asked.

"Somehow, amazingly, Byakugan remember everything. Things my mind doesn't even remember, pictures like clips of a movies I don't remember what they were about, people who I can't remember but I see faces." He said as if it was a curse.

"You make it seem like a curse upon." He looked up at me. I got close to him and knelt down from my standing posture to meet his eye level. "If you remember a face it's better than nothing at all. It means that if you ever got amnesia, you'd see the people and be able to know if they were friends or foes, unlike anyone else outside of this area. It's a gift, not a curse." I grabbed his face and brought it to mine and kissed his lips.

"What was that for?" He asked confused.

I bounced backwards and bent down at my waist to meet my eyes to his. I smiled at him, which surprised him compared to the side he had be seeing of me the last couple of days. "Because as your fiancée, I can." I said turning around and smiling while walking in the garden and smelling the flowers.

"You happy is almost as scary as you angry." He said. I turned around and laughed.

"Thanks, I guess."

"But I prefer you happy; it's calming to know you're happy."

"Are you happy?" He raised his eyebrows at me. "Come on Neji, you never seem to be happy but are you?" I asked.

"I guess I'm glad that you're happy but happy isn't really my thing Tenten." I sighed and sat down next to him. "You've very calm centered."

"Is there anything wrong with that?" He asked.

"No, but it would be good if you were happier." I said. "It's annoying that you're not happy sometimes, but now that I can read you like you can read me with those eyes of yours, I know how you feel so it's not as annoying as it use to be."

"It used to be annoying?"

"Very, I mean you never said anything and if you did it was usually very little and usually had something to do with me not being good enough." I said as if reliving old moments. "I felt as though you despised or that you had a mental problem where you were always depressed. It's hard to be happy if you're depressed. You know?"

"Not really because you're almost never depressed unless I am," He said.

"See you should be happy all the time," He laughed and smiled at my child-like wonder at how I thought we should be happy all the time. "See how easy that was, if you were like that more of the time we'd enjoy everything much more. You don't have to be happy all the time but a lot more would do you some good." I said happily. He started laughing.

"I'll try and remember that Tenten." I laid my head down on his shoulder and he turned to look at me.

"Compliments are usually saved for unique things like the way someone dresses and such, like the actual person but when people compliment eyes it isn't something that unique, eyes come in only 4 colors: Blue, Brown, Black, Green and the kekkei genkai colors of Lilac and Red. Right?"

"Yeah, what's your point?"

"I'm contemplating whether to compliment your eyes?" He looked like he was mentally smacking himself and I was laughing for sure.

"Do whatever you want," He said.

"Fine," I looked into his eyes, "Neji your eyes are very pretty." I said and he closed his closed them hard, we both started laughing hysterically and then someone came near us, obviously a Hyuuga.

"What's so funny, my young couple?" Hiashi asked us.

"I said Neji's eyes were pretty." We broke out into laughter again. He didn't get how it was so funny.

"Why is this so funny?" He asked.

"Because everyone in his clan has the same eyes and girls aren't supposed to call guy's eyes pretty," I said laughing more as Neji held me and watched as I laughed continually for a while.

"You're crazy and random, you know that Tenten?" He said. I smiled and nodded.

"Yeah but I'm serious, you have very pretty eyes." We continued to laugh some more.

"Youth, it's so wonderful." Hiashi said walking off.

After Hiashi was out of ear's length, I laughed again. "He sounds like sensei-Gai." I said laughing. Neji nodded and smiled.

¤(Dinner Later that Night)¤

"You get sillier every minute today Tenten," I smiled which he couldn't see because I had blindfolded him.

"I enjoyed blindfolding you." I said.

"You do know if I wanted to I could see through them." I laughed at my own ignorant stupidity.

"I know but I wouldn't recommend it because I'm surprising you and that would ruin the surprise." He sighed; he knew I was right he wouldn't use his Byakugan here.

"So what's the big surprise?" He asked.

"Do you think I blindfolded you for nothing, I want to surprise you."

"Blindfolding me was for nothing Tenten, I could see if I wanted to anyway."

"Yeah but I know you wouldn't so just play along, alright?" I said.

"Fine, are you done yet?"

"Almost," I replied as I helped him to his seat. "Okay, you can take your blindfold off." He just sat there blinking; he couldn't believe his eyes.

"You made this?" He asked.

"Yep, all of it."

"I leave you for 10 minutes to escort Hinata back from her team's practice and you make dinner for us?" I nodded. "That's pretty impressive, and very nice of you Tenten."

"You're welcome." I said.

"Thanks," He said. I was super glad that I had decided to make dinner because I was trying to tell or ask him something, I'm not sure which way it would turn out.

"So Tenten, you're kunoichi exam is coming up tomorrow is it?" I nodded and smiled.

"Yeah it's tomorrow, so I won't get to see you tomorrow, huh?" I said kind of upset.

"You'll be fine, just do your best, understood." I nodded. "I know you will, you have no worries." I was happy he was confident in my abilities.

"What do you think I'll score?" I asked.

"Out of a possible how many?" He asked back.

"100," I said as if it was common knowledge.

"100," He said without a doubt or second to think about it, it came natural to him. "You have 100 accuracy, your speed and agility are beyond any score they've made, you can deceive any eye, and even mine at times, you are extremely talented on all levels, and you'll do fine." He said. "Are we going to eat or not?" He asked.

"Okay, let's eat." I said picking into the food as I watched Neji eat, he was a conservative eater, and he only took a little then a little more instead of taking a lot then eating what he can.

"You seem bothered," He said.

"I'm thinking." I responded staring back at my food.

"Whatever you are thinking about is bothering you constantly." He repeated.

"Yeah it is but I'd rather not share it with you currently, I don't feel like it." She said playing with her food.

"Whatever but you might want to before you kill yourself from thinking to solidly," He repeated. "As I said, I like it better when you're happy."

"I can't be happy!" I yelled and smacked my head on the table, I knew he cringed at this.

"Okay that it's it!" He said about to activate his Byakugan.

"No, don't, please." I said begging him not to bother me and let me be.

"Then I insist you share with me your worries." He said.

"It's nothing Neji, shouldn't we finish eating." He nodded and we did and he said not another word of it after that. He escorted me hope and returned to the compound and who knows what he did after that, probably meditated or slept which ever he felt like doing.

¤(Morning)¤

I arose and prepared myself with everything I'd need for my exam today. It was quite similar to the Chuunin Exams except with a lot more stuff. I arrived at the compound grounds where Neji was awaiting me, he wanted to come to the exams.

"Neji-san," Hiashi called from behind us.

"Yes, Hyuuga-sama," Neji replied respectfully.

"I would like Hinata to join you at the Kunoichi Exams to watch and see what real female ninja are, understood." Neji nodded and Hinata quietly followed behind us. I suspected that Neji wouldn't say anything of her but I would.

"Your dad is way too hard on you Hinata. I've seen your technique. It's superb. I'm mean I've trained with Neji everyday for years and I know his technique perfectly; I could perform it myself if I had Byakugan. The point is, for a year difference you're quite good, similar start and finish but the center stuff has the same effect with an individual style to it. You're quite good." I said smiling at her. She needed a confidence boost.

"Thank you, Tenten-nee-san." She said. I laughed.

"Tenten's fine Hinata, but I'm sure you'll enjoy seeing this exam, it's all girls who are top competitors in their class, any age, level and all for different reasons are going." I said happily.

"Why do you fight?" She asked. I turned around.

"I don't know why, likely because since my mom didn't do it, she was in trouble and killed. I won't make the same mistake. In addition, because it's my job as Neji's wife to defend him and help him through his life and I can only join a Jounin rank male on a mission as a kunoichi wife of his. I can't defend him if I don't do this."

"So you do it to protect Neji-nii-san?" She asked.

"I guess I do, I never saw it like that. That's a deep question, I'm sure that'll be on the written exam, thanks for helping me Hinata." I said happily.

I was walking and then a girl ran at us. Neji jumped in front of me and defended and then he was on the ground screaming in pain and that was all I remember. I did 16 seals and jumped in front of him. "16 seals of seal defending and resealing!" I yelled. The person ran off and I fell to my knees. I couldn't sense Neji's heartbeat or pulse. I picked him up and ran to the hospital with Hinata behind me.

∆(Hospital)∆

"Emergency help!" I said. They ran to me and took Neji's body into a room and I had to stay out for a while.

"Come on in," they said a while after. "What happened to him?" They asked.

"Someone activated his seal," I said with tears in my eyes, I wiped them and sat at his bedside. I ran my hand on the side of his face and put my arms around the back of his head and untied his headband and his wrapping and closed my eyes quick. It looked like someone had cut the seal into his head with a knife and left it to bleed. I realized that the headband and wraps were covered in his blood.

They sent me out of the room and I sat with Hinata who was crying saying he was defending them and it was there fault and I couldn't argue. I cried louder, I couldn't save him in time.

"Ms, you can't come in here if you're not related to him."

"I'm his fiancé and this is his cousin; check your records, Hoshi Tenten and Hyuuga Hinata." They nodded and we were aloud in.

"He's going to die." The doctor said. "That seal had sealed his entire body up and he's lost his brain cells, almost all of them, but it seems that his Byakugan is fine, there was a seal repercussion put on him in time. Which was it?" I looked at him and nodded.

"I did." I said calmly.

"You might have saved him from the repercussion of losing his blood-line but everything else is gone. There's no way that he could come back to himself, it's impossible." I fell onto his body and cried. "I'm sorry there isn't a way that would could help his brain and mind they're gone."

"Neji's gone?" Hinata asked. We burst out into tears and then Hinata ran out of the hospital to tell her father maybe he could but the news was nothing. It was made irreversible.

I think I died when he lost his mind. I ran my hand on the side of face. His body's here but what's the point if his mind isn't here. Maybe… there was something I could do. I returned the Hyuuga Complex and I was welcomed by so many because of Neji that they felt bad for me. They weren't officially my family but they were like my family. They were the closest thing I have had in so long.

I walked into Hiashi's office. "Tenten, what is it that you need?"

"The Sealing Jutsu," I said.

"What do you need with it?" He asked.

"I plan to reverse it and recreate his mind from scratch." His eyes were wide with what I had just said.

"That's impossible; you can't reverse a curse seal. You also can't re-create a mind." I sighed.

"That doesn't mean I'm not going to try, I'm going to try if it kills me. So can you hand it over?" I asked.

"It will just hurt him, not help him." He said but he taught it to me with out a second thought. I studied straight through a week and I created a recurrence in the seal, a recurrence that could be altered to where it could recreate brain cells but it was advanced. So, I studied hard and realized that I'd have to copy my mind and alter a few concepts and recreate the lost brain cells and try to visualize so many concepts that I had learned while in his body for that short time. I used Ino's mind transfer jutsu and prepared to retrieve as many of his memories as I could.

There was a knock at the door while I was studying. "Excuse me Ms. Tenten Hoshi?" They asked.

"We heard about your incident that caused you to miss the exams, we're allowing you to take it again if you want to, in a few days." I shook my head.

"I'm a wife first, then a kunoichi always. Neji is dying and I have only a few more days before his mind and brain die then I can't bring them back so I can't, sorry. I know I'll have to wait but I don't care. Neji comes first always." I said.

"Alright," The lady said walking off. She handed me a letter and I stuffed it in my pocket and continued to work.

After a month, Neji had actually made it. No brain or mind activity but he was alive, everything was artificial and I was scared when I went in there. I prepared it. "3 seal of Death, Mind Recreation and Unsealance." I said and entered his mind and pieced together the pieces I had saved from his memory and parts of mine and everything I put together and it took the equivalence of a week for my mind to finish recreating his and then I exited weaker than ever.

After another three weeks there was no sign of my jutsu don't anything for him. I had done everything so much that it had tore up my mind in the process but if he lived, it would all be worth it. Not much damage was taken by mind but a lot of chakra was lost from maintaining in his body for so long, so much so that it was hurtful to move. I slept the next week and then I went back to see him with no change.

The phone rang and I picked it up. "Hello, what, alright?" I used up the chakra I had recovered and transferred myself into Neji's room.

"I'm surprised that he is waking up, there was no way in his condition that he could have come back from that. Maybe I made a mistake." I smiled, you hadn't made a mistake, and I had just taken his recovery into my own hands and saved him. "It's only simple brain activity but for someone who's supposedly lost their mind and brain it's extremely good. His chances are high of coming back." He left and I rubbed my hand against his cheek.

"You'll probably get mad at me when you wake up for saving you, denying fate or you may not remember me very well or you may have amnesia or you may thank me. Who knows but I know you're not dead." I cried and lay my head on his chest and fell asleep.

It was another week, putting it on 2 months that he had been in this state when I felt an empty void underneath me but I realized that the person had pushed me onto the ground and jumped back.

"Who are you?" I smiled.

"You have amnesia, you have amnesia, and you have amnesia." I fell on my back laughing and crying. I didn't know if that was good or not but he was awake and he was talking so I had done a lot of good. He could see he and me didn't seem to be in pain, he was off the machines so I must have saved him.

I danced around the room and he watched me sort of freaked out with me. "Hey girl, who are you?" He asked.

"Oh sorry," I bowed to him. "I'm Hoshi Tenten, your fiancée, partner and best friend and I guess savior because you're not dead!" I yelled.

"Thanks then," He said. "So this is what that place is, and you're that girl."

I laughed, I was right. If I could restore photos from his Byakugan to him, he could know whom to trust. "I'm that girl alright, I told you that if you ever had amnesia your eyes would save you but you didn't believe me. Ha!" I yelled.

"You're crazy." He said crossing his arms and sitting on the bed.

"Even when you don't know who you are you act the same, it's funny." I said laughing.

"So what's my name?"

I sighed and sat down and put my hands in my lap. "It's Neji, I was sure I put all those memories that were quite important in there, I was sure I did it perfectly." He walked over to me and made his eyes on equal plain with mine.

"Everything in my mind was a blank but when I woke up lots of visions and pictures flashed through my mind but no words were seen." He said.

"I wish I could hear some of the words that the people in the pictures were saying but I couldn't." I sighed, I forgot that they could see anywhere but no hearing.

"Well I'm Tenten, you're Neji and you're in the hospital."

"Why?" He asked confused like a child.

"A seal placed upon your head was activated and virtually destroyed your mind and brain. I rebuilt it as best I could." I said.

"Thanks for that, I have a lot that I owe you I guess." He lied in his bed and put his hands behind his head.

"You don't owe me so much because I did it because I love you." He was happy and smiling and he sat on the bed and leaned over and kissed me.

"I don't remember much but I remember a picture of me kissing you, and I felt it was safe." I smiled; even lost he was still logical.

A doctor came. "It's a miracle; he's actually awake and seems fine." The doctor said examining him.

"He has amnesia." I said sadly.

"Well it would make sense since it destroyed his mind and brain but he's awake I'm sure there is a process to retrieve the memories or recreate new ones."

"I tried, it didn't work, he visualizes past moments but they are memories with sounds, so he has lost most of his audible remembrance." I said sadly.

"Not necessarily it could be that his mind just hasn't had enough time to recover it, there is also a large chance that his soul could connect to his lost memories and retrieve them because of those photos and he'd return to normal. It's likely but he can leave there isn't anything else we can do for him."

"Alright," I said. "Come on Neji," I said walking out of the room. I signed him out and we walked to the Hyuuga Complex.

"Neji-nii-san, you're alive and alright." Hinata said coming over to him and hugging him.

"And you are?" He asked, and they both turned to me in confusion.

"Amnesia, Neji this is your cousin Hinata." I said introducing him.

"He has amnesia, poor Neji." She said sadly.

"It's alright Hinata, it's not like he's dead. The doctors say there is a large chance that all his memories will come back thanks to the work on did."

"You could be killed for messing with the Byakugan." She said.

"I know but I had to save him, I don't care what your family thinks about it. They're just lucky that my seal repulsion jutsu worked enough to save him or he'd be blind for good and most likely dead. When I went in his mind, it only killed seventy percent of his brain, which left me with 30 to work with. I hope he's fine."

"Me too Tenten, well I'll see you."

"Okay Hinata, plus, I'm sure none of the Hyuuga would like it if they're number one prodigious Hyuuga died." I said smiling and walking into the complex.

"You're right, it would make everything harder on us if he wasn't here but I'm glad at least part of him is here with us."

"Me too," I said.

"Thank you so much for helping Nii-chan, Tenten."

"You can't thank me for saving my husband Hinata, it's my job as his wife and a kunoichi."

"But I thought…" She said.

"Yeah I didn't take the exam but the night before he was sure I'd get 100 out of 100 because he said I was perfect and that ability is what saved him, so really it doesn't matter to me." I said happily.

They Reasons Why… She Feels Many Things.

Were Sitting (Calm, Tranquil) Taking a break because of damage from mission (relaxing, annoyed) can't do anything (annoyed) don't have plans (bored) needing to heal (calming) view gardens (relaxing) see how Hinata's doing (exciting, happy) smell beautiful scents (relaxing, enjoyable) being kissed (happy, in love) not getting to see Neji tomorrow (upsetting) partaking in Kunoichi Exam (exciting, happy) missing the exams (sad, unimportant) Neji dying (sad, depressing) Neji having amnesia (upsetting, understandable) Neji's Seal Being activated (scary, sad, deadly) having the skill to save him (happy) having to save him (pathetic, sad, scary)