Words are like glass they can sustain something for a long time or can break in a minute.
It has been two months since Leo and Jimmy started dating. They spent every day together and would hold hands in school not caring what people thought. Leo was sitting in the field beside his school he was writing in his journal. Leo loved being alone in the field but when he was Jimmy his heart would skip beats and his mind would wonder when he looked into Jimmy's eyes. Leo was sitting in the field looking at the moon when two hands covered his eyes. "Guess who!?" "Is it Lady Gaga?" Jimmy let go of Leo's face and pouted. "Oh it's just my dorky boyfriend." Jimmy smiled when Leo said this he pouched his shoulder. "Loser." "Yeah but I'm your loser." Jimmy smiled and sat next to Leo and laid his head on Leo's shoulder. "What are you writing about Leo?" "Nothing much just of a dream I had last night." "What was it about?" "It's so weird but I was the field were we first kissed and you and I were there but the stars were gone." "Weird but I'm glad you had a dream about me." Leo smiled at his boyfriend and gave him a wink Jimmy laughed then smiled and winked back at Leo. Leo noticed that it was seven he and Jimmy walked together to their first period and sat in the back of the class room like when they first meet. "Alright class today we are going to be start learning about Romeo and Juliet. Can anyone tell me who wrote Romeo and Juliet?" jimmy raised his hand and Mrs. Elliot called on him. "Yes Jimmy." "It was William Shakespeare." "Very good Jimmy and Leo could you tell me what the story is about?" Leo still hadn't gotten used to being called on in school but he answered never the less. "Romeo and Juliet is a story about two people who love each other even though their families hate each other and they do anything to be together." "Very nice Leo I'm glad to see you coming out of your shell." Leo gave affiant smile at the teacher. "Now class I want you all to pick a partner for this project you will have to read and give an oral report about Romeo and Juliet." The class groaned in unison at the thought of yet another project. Leo instantly knew who his partner was going to be. "Hey Jimmy want to be partners on this project?" "Let me think maybe but I need to ask my boyfriend." Leo gave him a fake scowl. "I think he'd be okay with it." "He better be." Jimmy laughed and got a chair and sat next to Leo. "You know what so funny this is how we meet." "Your right except this time we actually talk to each other." Leo and Jimmy were talking until the class ended. "Well I'll see you later Jimmy." "Yeah see you at lunch loser!" Leo laughed as he and Jimmy went their separate ways.
Leo never felt so happy before he couldn't believe that someone could change his life in such a big way. Leo went through his classes like usual getting threw thinking about Jimmy. Leo heard the bell ring and went to the lunch room to meet Jimmy but Jimmy wasn't there. Leo became concerned since the day Jimmy's rapist was finally stopped by Leo Jimmy had been having re-occurring scenes. Leo went to see if Jimmy was in his third period still but he saw that he wasn't there. Leo got even more worried and thought to himself "Were could he be?!" Leo remembered that Jimmy had an episode and he went to were Leo used to go to the quart yard. Leo ran to the quart yard and saw Jimmy hugging his knees and crying. Leo sat next to jimmy and hugged him. "It's okay Jimmy He won't hurt you anymore I'm here." Jimmy knew that David was dead but he never felt safe anymore unless Leo was with him. Leo was what kept him strong his support in everything. Jimmy cried into Leo's chest and held him tight. Leo looked down at jimmy and saw that he was in pain Leo's eyes began to water he hated to see Jimmy when he was like this he felt useless he wished he could help him. "Jimmy please stop crying." "I can't Leo what if he's not dead what if he's still out there waiting to get me again." "Don't worry Jimmy I'll always be by your side." Jimmy looked up at Leo and looked in his eyes he saw them watering and he stopped crying. "Why are you crying Leo?" "I'm not Jimmy." "Don't lie to me Leo." "I just don't like to see you cry it breaks my heart to know I can't help you at all." Jimmy felt comfort that Leo cared for him. "Don't Cry Leo." Jimmy wiped the tears streaming down Leo's cheek. Leo smiled at Jimmy's gesture. Leo looked into jimmy's big green eyes and was taken away from reality. Jimmy looked into Leo's chocolate eyes and melted. They both inched closer about to kiss when they heard a rumble. Leo came back to reality and looked at Jimmy who was blushing. "I see someone's hungry, lets go get some lunch." "Okay." "But you need to stop crying because you look even cuter when you smile." Jimmy blushed and smiled at Leo and nodded as he wiped away his tears. Leo and Jimmy got lunch and sat together outside in the tables of the lunch room. "Leo." "Yeah jimmy." "Since we have been dating have you come out to your aunt?" Leo put down his drink and looked at Jimmy and wished he could say yes but he hadn't. "No Jimmy I'm not going to lie I haven't I just can't find the right moment to tell her." "Have you told your dad?" "No but I was going to last night but I fell asleep before I could." Leo and Jimmy looked at each other with uncertainty. The bell rang and Leo and Jimmy went to their classes.
Jimmy didn't know what to do anymore he hated that the memories of what had happened to him kept coming back. He sat in the back of the class room and decided to take out his sketch pad and draw a purple butterfly. Jimmy had always had a fascination with butterflies he never understood why he just did. He had been working on a butterfly for Leo for the last few days because their three month anniversary was coming up soon and he wanted to give Leo something that he thought was special. Jimmy still remembers how everything went down that day and how Leo saved him. Leo risked his life for him and Jimmy loved him for that. Leo walked to the back of the class room as always and sat there he took out his Journal out and began to write. Leo wrote down when he found Jimmy having his episode. Leo knew that their three month anniversary was coming up soon and Leo decided he would dedicate a song to Jimmy and he had planned a picnic in the meadow were they first kissed. Leo was truly happy being with Jimmy but he wished he could help Jimmy forget about what happened to him. Leo hated to see Jimmy cry it hurt him deeply. Leo decided to leave the thought and closed his journal. Leo headed for his eighth period when he saw Jimmy he was crying. Leo walked over to him and Jimmy stopped when he saw Leo. "What's wrong Jimmy are you remembering?" Jimmy looked into Leo's eyes and wiped his tears to hide how he felt. "Nothing Leo lets go to class." Jimmy walked passed Leo but Leo grabbed Jimmy's arm and stopped him. "Jimmy look at me what's wrong?" "Leo we're going to be late." "I don't care Jimmy what's wrong?" "My dad just kicked me out my house." Leo's eyes widened. "Why?!" "Because I told him I was gay." "So he kicked you out!" "Yeah." "I'm so sorry Jimmy." "Don't be its not your fault I told him I was just hoping he would take it better than that." Leo hugged Jimmy and felt sorry for him he knew that his dad was all he had left in life since Jimmy lost his mom when he was born. "Jimmy you can stay with me." "Leo that's sweet but I couldn't." "Jimmy you're my boyfriend and I want to help you, your staying at my house." "Jimmy looked at Leo and smiled he had a nice boyfriend who cared deeply for him. "Okay but I promise ill find a place to stay ill get a job or something." "Don't worry Jimmy you can stay as long as you want to." Jimmy looked into Leo's eyes and smiled he got lost in the chocolateness of them. Leo looked into Jimmy's green eyes and got lost as well Leo leaned in and kissed Jimmy passionately and Jimmy did as well. Leo broke the kiss when he heard the tardy bell he grabbed Jimmy's hand and ran to their last class.
The last bell rang Leo and Jimmy we're leaving their last period when something made Jimmy stop. Leo turned around and saw Jimmy clutching his head. "Jimmy what's wrong?" Jimmy began to cry and fell down to his knees. "Jimmy, Jimmy please answer me!" Leo got down and hugged Jimmy but Jimmy pushed him away. "Don't touch me please leave me alone!" "Leo now knew that Jimmy was having an episode. "Jimmy it's me Leo clam down he can't hurt you anymore." Jimmy looked up Leo his face covered in tears. "Are you sure?" "I promise he'll never hurt you again." Jimmy finally got back to reality and saw Leo with worry in his eyes. "Leo." "It's okay Jimmy it's just me lets go home and you can take a nap." Leo help Jimmy up and they walked home. Leo and Jimmy walked thru the front door and saw Leo's aunt in the kitchen. "Aunt Michelle I'm home." "Hi Leo hi Jimmy how was your day?" "Good I guess." "How come?" Leo looked at Jimmy and thought about what he was going to say. "umm well we got another project this time on Romeo and Juliet." "Oh I see I thought you like project I mean you and Jimmy make a great team." Leo and Jimmy both smiled. "Well we're going to get to work Aunt Michelle." "Okay Leo I have to go out but here is some money so you two can order pizza or something." "Thanks Aunt Michelle." Leo and Jimmy went up to Leo's room and went to work on their project. "Leo can you work on the information on the story's origin and information on William Shakespeare and ill work on translating the meaning of quotes in the story." "Sure Jimmy." They both worked on their part of their project in dependably as usual. They worked for 5 hours straight. "Jimmy you tired?" Jimmy gave out a faint yawn "no why?" Leo laughed at Jimmy "Let's go to sleep." "Okay I'm going to go change." Jimmy went into the bathroom while Leo changed he just took his pants off and put on a black V-neck shirt and laid in his bed. Jimmy changed in the bathroom and looked at himself in the mirror and noticed he still had most of the scars from that day. Jimmy eyes began to water "If I only could have defended myself Leo wouldn't have gotten stabbed." Jimmy wiped his eyes and put his shirt on. Jimmy walked over to the bed he and Leo would now share. Jimmy got under the covers and hugged Leo. "Leo." "Yeah Jimmy." "Thank you for being here for me when I needed you." "Don't mention it Jimmy you know I would anything for you." Leo rolled over and faced Jimmy and hugged him tightly Jimmy fell asleep in Leo's and Leo fell asleep with Jimmy in his arms.
Jimmy woke up in the middle of the night screaming he felt the sheets they were wet. Leo woke up from Jimmy's screams. "Jimmy what's wrong?" "Leo I'm sorry I had another nightmare wet the bed I'll go and wash them." Leo saw that jimmy felt bad and he was sweating. "It's okay Jimmy ill take of it you go get cleaned up." "Are you sure Leo?" "Yeah just go get cleaned up." Jimmy went to the bathroom and got in the shower. Jimmy began to think that Leo didn't deserve with someone who is just a bother and didn't have the problems he causes him. Jimmy decided he would have to break up with Leo because he deserved better than him. The thought brought Jimmy to tears in the shower. Leo walked into the bathroom to get the air freshener when Jimmy stepped out of the shower. Leo looked away his face red jimmy covered himself with his towel. "Jimmy I'm sorry I thought you weren't done yet." Jimmy was blushing his eyes were red. Leo looked at Jimmy slightly and saws that his eyes were red. "Jimmy we're you crying?" "No I got soap in my eyes." Jimmy rubbed his eye to look like it irritated. Leo got out and Jimmy got dressed but he kept thinking about what he thought about in the shower. Jimmy walked out of the restroom and saw that Leo was asleep on the floor of his room covered with a blanket. Jimmy thought he looked so cute asleep he thought it would be harder to let him go. Jimmy thought to himself "I wish I was someone who disserved to be with you.
Jimmy woke up and saw that Leo wasn't next to him Jimmy thought nothing of this it was usual behavior since Leo would always go out in the break of dawn and look at the moon. Jimmy's heart was heavy because it was the day when he would break up with Leo. Jimmy walked out to the balcony of Leo's room were he found Leo in his underwear and black V-neck shirt. Leo got down from the balcony edge and kissed jimmy on the cheek "Good morning Jimmy." Jimmy blushed and smiled at Leo. "Good morning." Jimmy thought that it would be even more difficult than he thought. "Jimmy come on I want to show you something." Leo grabbed Jimmy's hand and helped jimmy get on the branch next to his balcony and took him to a tree house. Leo opened the door of the tree house and he and Jimmy walked in. "This is my tree house I've had it since I was eight my aunt knew that I like the moon and had it built so I could sleep out here when I wanted to." "it's amazing Leo." "I was planning for us to sleep here tonight. What do you think." Jimmy lowered his head and his eyes began to slightly water but he had to stay strong if he was going to break up with Leo. Jimmy looked up at Leo and spoke as well he could trying to be as gentle as he could. "Leo about us." Leo's eyes widened "What about us?" "I don't think it's working out." Leo was in shock. "Why did I do something wrong?" Jimmy noticed that Leo's eyes began to water. "No I just to see us together." "If its about last night don't worry about it I don't care but please don't leave me." Jimmy knew what he was about to say would hurt him as well as Leo. "You don't understand I don't want to be with you I don't like you!" Jimmy left Leo alone in his tree house and walked away tears falling down his face "I'm sorry."
Leo fell to his knees his worst fear had happened he had gotten attached to Jimmy and he left him. Leo hugged his knees and began to cry. Leo didn't know what to do know he loved Jimmy. Leo walked back to his room and picked up his journal and began to write everything exactly how it went down. Leo couldn't stop crying he felt too betrayed and wished Jimmy was playing a mean joke on him but he knew it was too real. Jimmy got to his house and knocked on the door his dad opened. "Hi dad." "Hi Jimmy." "Dad can I come home?" "Are you still gay?" Jimmy hated doing this. "No dad my ex kissed me and I didn't like it." "Okay then you can come home." Jimmy smiled and walked into his home. "I'm going to my room dad." "Okay jimmy." Jimmy went into his room but felt like he didn't belong there he missed Leo. "Jimmy noticed that it was 10 and he was tired. Jimmy went to sleep thinking about Leo. Leo put his journal down and felt nothing he wished he had never trusted Jimmy.
A single ray of light woke Leo up as always and he went to his bathroom and undressed and got in the shower. Leo let the hot water run down his skin as he thought about Jimmy why would he play him like that. Leo let the thought die and continue showering. Leo walked to the field beside his school and sat there and took out his note book. Leo eyes began to water because for the past three months he and Jimmy would sit here together. Leo walked to his first period and walked to the back of the class room and sat down. Jimmy walked into his first period and saw Leo sitting in the back. Jimmy and Leo made direct eye contact jimmy felt a knot in his throat. Leo eyes began to water again he got up and left the class room Mrs. Elliot took noticed and sighed. Jimmy ran after Leo he didn't want Leo upset. Leo ran to the quart yard and went behind the shed and cough his breath and wiped his tears. Jimmy got to the quart yard and walked behind the shed and found Leo. "Leo can we talk?" Leo looked at Jimmy and felt anger toward him. "We have nothing to talk about." "Please Leo let me explain …" "Explain what that you thought I was an idiot and made me trust you , care about you all so you could just break my heart!" Leo left tears of rage fall down his cheeks and wiped them away. "No Leo I didn't want this to happen." "then why did you break up with me?" Jimmy looked Leo in the eyes and could help get lost in them. "Because Leo you deserve better than me and I don't want you to have to put up with my problems." Leo gave a faint smirk and laughed "really you thought I was that shallow not to want to help you?" "No Leo that's not…." "Well Jimmy don't worry about it I don't care anymore I gave you everything I could and I guess it didn't matter to you, so please leave me alone." Jimmy was crying at Leo words. "Leo please let me explain" Leo gave one last look at Jimmy "Goodbye Jimmy."
Jimmy felt his heart break something he never wanted to experience. Jimmy just fell to his knees and cried he wanted to turn back time and be with Leo once again. Leo ran to the boy's bathroom and locked the door Leo couldn't understand anything anymore all he felt was rage. Leo got out his journal and began to write tear drops fell on the journals paper Leo still kept writing. Jimmy stopped crying and promised himself that he would do anything to be with Leo again.
It had been three months since Leo and Jimmy last spoke to each other Leo had returned to his old self not talking to anyone or anything his journal was his only companion. Leo looked into his journal he saw the dance tickets he had bought for him and Jimmy, he was going to surprise Jimmy with them as an anniversary present. He wondered if he should still go to the dance by himself. "It's been three months I need to cheer up I'm going." Jimmy had become very depressed lately and he had become bulimic and had lost over 60 pounds in the past three months Jimmy was finally over the episodes he hadn't had one in over a month. Jimmy had asked if he could play at the school dance since he had no date he figured he could blow off some steam on stage. Jimmy decided he would practice every day until the day of the dance and make it his best performance ever.
It was the day of the dance and Jimmy was on stage singing party rock anthem when he saw Leo walk in to the school's gym. Jimmy felt a knot in his throat and stopped singing. Leo saw Jimmy on stage and froze did jimmy know that Leo was going to go to the dance. Leo looked at Jimmy and meet eyes with him. "Everyone I'm sorry for stopping I need to get something off my chest." Jimmy looked ay Leo his eyes filled with tears. Jimmy began to sing "Hurt" by Christina Aguilera and locked eyes with Leo and felt his heart stop "If I had just one more day I would tell you how much that I miss you since you've been away ooo it dangerous it's so dangerous to try to turn back time." Leo saw the hurt in Jimmy's eyes as his filled with tears. Jimmy wiped his tears opened his mouth. "I'm sorry for blaming you for everything I just couldn't do and I hurt myself…. By hurting you." Jimmy paused and looked at Leo one last time "I'm sorry." Jimmy ran off stage and left the gym. Leo was in shock at what Jimmy just did and felt tears roll down his cheeks. "I'm sorry too."
Jimmy was running but he didn't know where he was going his eyes were full of tears and his heart was pumping out of his chest. Leo ran outside of the gym to see if Jimmy was still there he was Jimmy running across the parking lot toward a lake across the street. Leo ran after Jimmy hoping he wasn't going to do anything stupid. Jimmy got to the lake and fell to his knees. "God dam it I wish I had never screwed things up!" Leo was getting closer when he saw Jimmy stand up and walk to the end of the lake. Jimmy stared down at the water and took a deep breath jimmy jumped into the lake hoping he would calm down when his belt got stuck to a branch under the water. Leo ran faster to try to stop Jimmy but he was too late. Leo felt adrenalin take his body over he took off his sweater and dove into the lake he found Jimmy under the water he was drowning his eyes were shut Leo swam to him and pulled him out of the water. Jimmy wasn't breathing "No god dam it I won't lose you again!" Leo gave Jimmy mouth to mouth repeatedly until he saw Jimmy's eyes opening. "Leo is that you?" Leo's eyes were full of tears as he looked down at Jimmy "Yeah Jimmy it's me why did you jump into the water?" Jimmy felt tears fall down his cheeks and looked into Leo eyes. "I was upset that I screwed everything up and I had lost you." Leo gave a faint smile at Jimmy "You could never lose me Jimmy." Jimmy smiled and hugged Leo. "I'm sorry Leo I was stupid." "I'm sorry for not letting you explain but why did you think I didn't want to be with you?" "Because I'm not a virgin and I'm not worth anything anymore Leo and I didn't want you to deal with my reoccurring episodes." "Jimmy I don't care if you're a virgin or not I love you and that's all I care about." "Leo you said you love me again." Jimmy smiled and more tears fell down his cheeks. "Who said I stopped?" "What are you saying Leo?" "I'm saying I want us to start over and forget what happened." Jimmy looked at Leo and blushed "I'd like that too." Leo wrapped his jacket around Jimmy and walked him to his house.
Jimmy and Leo got to Jimmy's house and knocked on the door. "Jimmy who is this boy?!" his father said angrily. Jimmy looked at Leo then at his dad "Dad this is my boyfriend and I love him I don't care if you kick me out anymore I'm happy with him." "Mr. Bennett if you kick him out he will stay with me so don't you worry about it." "Well then I hope you two have a good relationship Jimmy you can take your things and go." Jimmy's eyes watered Leo grabbed Jimmy's hand and looked at Jimmy's dad. "I'll be back tomorrow for his things I don't know if my parents would have accepted me but they would never give up on me." Leo walked with Jimmy back to his Aunt's house and sat with him on the couch. "Jimmy stop crying." "Leo I can't my dad doesn't care about me anymore." "It doesn't matter Jimmy I care about you." Jimmy felt his heart slowly become one again. "Come on Jimmy I have something to show you." Leo grabbed Jimmy's hand and they walked up stairs to Leo's balcony. "what did you want to show me?" "were not there yet we still have to get to the tree house." Jimmy and Leo managed to get to the tree house. "The surprise is inside I had set it up for tonight because I thought we would still together after the dance and before we broke up." Leo put his hand on the door and pushed it open Jimmy's eyes widened as he saw what was inside.
Jimmy was at a lost for word the tree house was full of lights and had a cooler in the corner and there was a rose petals all over the floor. "what do you think?" "it's amazing Leo you did this all for us?" "Well not really." Jimmy looked at Leo confused "I did this for you I thought that I could surprise you with a question." "what might that be?" "well I know were only 15 but I can't stand being away from you." Leo walked over to the drawer and got out something. Leo looked at Jimmy and smiled as he got down on one knee. Jimmy's eyes widened and began to water. "Jimmy will you make me the happiest guy alive and say you will marry me?" Jimmy looked Leo in the eyes and couldn't believe what he just said "Are you serious Leo you want to marry me?" "Yeah of course not right know but in a year I'll see you on the other side of the isle I'll be the one in the black tux, so what do you say?" Jimmy smiled wiping away his tears of joy. "I would love to marry you Leo." Leo smiled as he put the engagement ring on his fiancé. "Well Jimmy there's only one thing left to do." "What's that Leo?" "This." Leo leaned in and kissed Jimmy passionately Jimmy kissed back and felt the warmth he felt the first time they kissed. Leo broke the kiss and smiled at Jimmy. "I love you dork." "I love you too loser."
The End
