There were doodles, pictures, and various lyrics to different songs that she probably wrote. But it was the first hundreds of pages that caught Toshiro's attention. Careful not to rip the tattered pages he started reading.

Mother gave me this today on my birthday! She said I could write things down when I get bored. So my first entry in this journal is to thank to whoever's up there for Mother, Onee-chan and maybel, my furry cat.

People in the streets look scared whenever I play outside. But when I asked mother, she told me not to worr y. That look on her face was scary. Maybel ate the neighbor's fish as it was cooling on the window. Thank goodness that mother didn't find out.

I'm sorry I didn't write in you for the past week. But there was a storm and I was afraid that you might get blown away or something. Today I heard mother singing. It was so beautiful and the birds gathered to watch. It was like that human story parents told their children. What was it? Oh I think it is called snow white.

There was blood on the next couple of pages so the words on the next pages are incoherent so Toshiro had to guess what they were.

I'm scared. Mother and Onee-chan died when I woke up. There was blood all over the floor and my bed. There was a message written in blood near Maybel's body. They told me to get out of Rukongai or this will be me in the future. I don't know what to do. Who would do such a thing? I swear I will kill whoever that did this.

I think I'm dying. People were running after me and they were holding torches and swords. One of them cut me on the leg today. I don't know how long I could keep this up. I also had a dream today. A beautiful lady appeared in the dream. She was pretty and it smelled like roses. She said something but I couldn't hear it.

More people chased me today. I heard one of them say that I killed my father and many more. But that's impossible , I've never been near a weapon in my life. It's getting harder to walk so I had to steal medicine from someone's house. I'm hiding in the abandoned shack by the river and its so cold. The dream happened again. The lady told me her name was Shirobarakaze, then I woke up.

I can't take anymore of this! What is wrong with these people?!?! I have so many cuts on me that it hurts to write this. I think I may passed out soon. So I better hurry and get away from these peop . . .

I woke in a fancy house in the middle of nowhere. A lady was rinsing my towel. She smiled when I woke up. Right know she is in the kitchen making something for me to eat. What a nice lady. It still hurts to get up but at least I could write.

I forgot that still had you but I must leave this place before they get me too. They killed Miss Saihete in front of me. I wondered if these were the men who murdered my family. But at that time I didn't care. After Miss Saihete's corpse dropped to the ground, I lost control. A huge gust of wind blew in and they died by cuts. Why, is this always happening to me? These men probably had wives and children but why are they hurting a girl out of all people? I can't bear to see another drop of blood again, especially others.

The men told me why they were chasing me. They told me that I tortured people when I was young and murdered my father in cold blood. I've never seen anyone else besides mother. But that can't be the reason they killed mother and Onee-chan. So why? But before I could think of an answer, they stuck something through my chest. The huge gust of wind blew this except it was stronger and it destroyed everything and everyone. The only reason I'm alive is that Shirobarakaze-san healed my wounds. I have trouble breathing though. I almost forgot I HAVE A ZANPAKTOU!!!!!!!!

I got accepted into the Shinigami Academy today. I finally can stop running and make friends! I start tomorrow. Yay for me!

I tried to talk to my dorm mates today, but they won't talk back. Oh well, I'll just try again tomorrow. I'm just so happy. I can't imagine how long this feeling has been absent in my life.

In class today, something weird happened. It was like I could read the guy next to me's mind. What a perv. I got sent to the nurse because my eyes changed color. Oh what fun was this trip. Whoopee.

I have so much work today. But I can squeeze a couple of minutes in. People gave me funny looks when I went to go get lunch. I wonder what I did?

A girl came up to me today and I tried to say hi. But she slapped me. What the hell? "Demon," she spat at me, "Witch, go back to your cave!" I felt like I was drowning when people pointed at me and whispered. I wanted to know what they were saying but I wanted to know so I did what I did the other day. I blacked out and I heard a girl's voice say "Is that girl the Witch?" Another voice chimed in and said "yeah, she killed a lot of people for fun and her mom and her sister were tortured to death by her. I immediately left that girl's mind and came up to her to give her a kick in the shins.

The last few days were horrible and the whispers wouldn't stop and now everyone cringe every time I destroy a target in target practice or when I land a hit on someone during sparring. To make things worst they all started to call me The Demon and The Witch. The only one who would talk to me is Shirobarakaze. I've also taken up a hobby to sing because I don't want to cry all the time.

Great, the teachers started to call me Demon and Witch too. The only one who doesn't is Hiashi –Sensei and god knows when he's gonna crack.

It's been a year since I wrote in you, journal. I like to spend time drawing and singing in a meadow. Hiashi-Sensei is the only one who uses my real name without flinching. Black Princess apparently makes people squirmish. He said I'm to graduate at the end of this year if I keep my grades up. There is only one person who has better grades then I sadly and when I checked his scores they were a lot higher then mine.

Its been a long time since I wrote in you. I mainly use you to draw now. In two days I be gone from this god awful place.

Toshiro closed the journal and went to sleep, thinking about what he just read.