Metal Pointe Chapter 16B

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It went beyond my mind's simple capacity for knowledge to absorb the last few days with Edward. I knew he was keeping something from me. I could see it in the way his eyes shifted away from mine, the way he would watch me when he thought I couldn't see him. My mind wanted to freak out about what it could possibly be in reference to, but my heart told me to trust him and let him come to me when he was ready to talk.

His nervousness only seemed to increase the closer we got to the Forks trip. I assumed he was nervous about taking me there, like it would bother me. I had news for him, I was fine. I no longer associated Forks with anything other than good memories. Years ago, I would say I blocked out the bad ones, but now I know I simply chose to let them go. I can't change them or go back and make them different, so I live my life for the here and now. I don't allow them to dictate the direction my life will now go. Renee no longer has a hold over me. Therefore, Forks doesn't have a negative hold on me.

Besides, all those times I went to the park and played with Edward. Our lives were forever cemented together there. The times we spent in the tree house, those were the times I felt loved and cared for. The dinners, cookies, popsicles, the birthday parties in the yard, and all the other things Ed and Liz gave us, they became my stable influences, the ones I went to. So, again, how could I not love Forks? It was a simple answer, and I couldn't help but love it.

When we drove into town and Edward stumbled over his words and stammered, I knew his source for worry was here for sure. I understood completely when we drove into the driveway of my old house. I tried to talk him out of going up, even though I wanted to see inside. I wanted to walk through the place one more time and feel like I had made it on my own. I wanted to have a positive memory I was responsible for in this house, but I was scared, scared I would feel small the moment I walked into the doorway.

Edward must have known this, because he took charge. He opened my door and took my hand, pulling me out of the car. It was my turn to stutter and stammer as he walked me up the front steps. I stopped speaking all together when he took his car keys and used a simple silver key to open the front door. He held the keys to this house. He owned this house.

I wanted to be pissed, flattered and freaked out all at the same time. Each emotion passed through my brain and none of them seemed to want to take up residence, so I allowed them all to pass by. Peace is the one emotion that stuck. It felt right, and I marched through the house with a smile on my face. I was proud of myself, and I knew Edward was proud of me as well. I had family, I had love and I was happy. This was what I wanted, I wanted to feel happiness in this house.

As I walked around, I remembered the happy times. Until we reached my old bedroom and Edward shared how he OD'd the last time in here. I wanted to cry for him. I felt his despair and loneliness as I watched his emotions crawl across his face until I remembered what Dr. Zafrina told me to do; if there is a place that holds a bad memory for you, go back, face it and make a happy memory so your brain will hold onto the new memories instead. So, I grabbed Edward and pulled him into my room. We would make a happy memory right here.

He gave in and came willingly. He held me and showed me his love, his devotion and I took everything he gave. We took comfort in each other. So, when I woke up alone I was slightly worried. I threw on my clothes haphazardly and went in search of him. I expected to find him downstairs, but he wasn't there. So, my next thought was he had gone next door to talk to his parents. I stepped out the back door and as I passed through the side yards from his house to mine, I knew exactly where he was. He was in the fort.

I changed direction and walked over to climb up the old ladder. He heard me coming and turned in my direction as I stepped inside. He was beautiful. His longer hair hung in his face slightly and was disheveled and messed up by his recent sleep. His face was clear, and his eyes were bright. They held a slight sheen, like he was close to tears as he sat here. When our gazes met, his smile was blinding.

"Hey baby, you okay?" He asked as he held his hand out to me. I was struck by how small the fort now looked with his large, fully grown frame barely contained inside. Years before, we could both sit in here with plenty of room left over for our toys. I sat beside him, but knew I would eventually end up in his lap, always feeling the need to be close to him. He grounded me and kept me sane when all the emotions that swirled around my head threatened to take over me.

"I'm fine. I just woke up without you." He squeezed my hand as I spoke.

"Sorry, I just felt like I needed to … I don't know, just something." He smiled sheepishly at me. I was struck by how at peace he looked. It was breathtaking.

"It's okay. I knew you were close by, and I just wanted to be with you." I shifted my leg so we were touching. He dropped his large, warm hand over my bare thigh.

"Look how small it is now. Was it this small when we were little?" he asked.

"I thought the same thing when I climbed up here too. I guess we're the ones that got bigger, not that it got smaller." I laid my hand over his, and we were quiet for a few minutes. "Are you okay now?" His eyes flashed up to mine, and I saw concern written there.

"What do you mean?"

"Well, you've been a little off for the last few days, and I assumed it was because of the house and all. But now I find you here, and I'm worried there's more." He sat still and silent. "You can tell me. Where you go, I go … remember?" He looked up at me through his eyelashes and a few stray hairs that fell over his forehead. He just nodded. His face was calm and showed no signs of worry, so I relaxed and allowed him to take his time to gather his thoughts.

"I just … I just don't know how to be still and take it all in, you know?" He asked. "We struggled so hard for so long. I hurt, ached, suffered and hoped for this day, and now that it's here I just worry. I know it's stupid, and I don't know how to not worry." I tightened my grip on his hand and waited. I knew there was more. His fingers still ran along the seam on the inside of his jeans, a clear indication he was still nervous. "I can't be without you, Bella." He broke down and cried. I rushed into his lap. I wrapped my legs around him and let my arms hold him to me.

"Please don't cry, baby. I won't leave you. It's me and you from now on." I shushed and soothed him while he cried and held me. I knew his fear; I understood it, but I didn't know how to make his fear go away.

He leaned back and wiped his face.

"I'm sorry, I didn't mean to lose it there. I'm just overwhelmed here in this place, and I knew how happy I was and how at peace I felt." I smoothed his hair back and listened as he talked. "I know our history is not the best. We've lived apart so long that now that we're together, I worry Murphy, fate, karma or what the fuck ever it's called will pull us apart again." He took a deep breath and focused on our laps. "I know what it's like to hold you, love you and wake up next to you now. I've seen our child, and I want that. I want it more than I have ever wanted anything, so I can't lose you now, lose our future. I just can't." I smiled at him. His words were so honest. "I am at peace; I am happy, and I'm so fucking in love with you."

I leaned forward and kissed him. His warm mouth opened, and I sucked his tongue into mine. I loved the way he moved it against mine. His hands gripped my hips and pulled me forward and across his hardened cock. We both moaned in sync with each other, and I wiggled my hips across him.

"You don't have to be without me. I won't lose you again. We are meant to be together. We have both known that since we were four years old. We now have free will; we have a choice. No one and nothing is going to take me away from you as long as it's within my control." I kissed him again, this time just our lips touched. He shook his head as our lips parted.

"You don't know that, Bella." I stopped the motion of his head.

"You're right, I don't. I don't know what fate has in store for us. But I do know this, I love you, I'm happy with you and I want to spend the rest of my life with you." His eyes snapped up to meet mine. The doubt and panic fell away.

"Bella?" I just smiled at him and waited for his brain to catch up with mine. "Wha … what are you saying here?" I smiled even wider.

"Edward Masen, will you marry me? I want you; I want this," I waved my hands between the two of us. "Us, I want this. Like you said, we've known since we were four. Marry me?" I begged. He slammed his face into mine and nodded as he kissed me. His mouth devoured mine, and I gladly allowed it. I wanna say our souls touched and all that deep bullshit, but Edward just became horny. His hand wandered, and his mouth became more insistent.

He pulled my t-shirt up and moved my bra off my breasts. He lowered his head and took my nipple into his warm mouth.

"Come here," he spoke around my nipple that was still in his mouth as he pulled me closer to him. I began to pull my shirt up and over my head as he used his arms to help my efforts. His mouth was still attached, but his hands made quick work of my shirt and bra. When I sat bare from the waist up on his lap, he looked up at me and spoke to me again. "Isabella Swan, I have loved you since we were four years old. No matter how long or how often we have been apart, I have still loved you. No one else but you. I want you for my wife, and I want you as the mother of my children. I want to grow old with you, so yes, I will marry you. Whenever you want, no matter the time or cost. I can't wait to spend forever with you."

He pulled me back to his lips and kissed me again. I kissed him through the tears that poured from my eyes. They were happy tears, so I didn't bother to wipe them away. When I needed air, I slid back away from his body and stood up as far as I could under the short ceilings of the fort. I bent at my waist and unbuttoned my pants, slipped my shoes off and slid my pants down behind them. Edward fumbled with his belt and pants from where he still sat on the floor. He was just simply too tall to stand up with me. When he sat nude on the floor of the fort, I stepped forward to meet him. He stopped me and slid my panties down and tossed them off to the side with the other clothes.

Without words or preamble, I sat down in his lap again, on his hardened length. I watched as his eyes rolled back in his head for a few seconds as our bodies joined. I felt my body cry out and dropped my head to his shoulder to just feel, but I needed to see his face. I needed to see our connection in his eyes, in his expressions, in his body movements. I just needed to see how affected he was by all of this as well.

When his eyes opened, he looked me right in the eye and held my gaze as well. Once again, it seemed we were on the same page. He wrapped one hand around my neck, and his thumb gently grazed my jawline. His other hand held firm on my hip as he dictated my movements. Even as he sat with me in his lap, he was in control; he moved me, guided me, took care of me. He was always in charge. I trusted him to never steer me in the wrong direction. He never had, and I knew he never would.

I turned my body over to his, and I moved where his hand directed. I allowed him to kiss and suckle at me wherever he wanted. I simply reveled in the fact we were together and would be from now on. He wanted me as much as I wanted him.

That simple thought pushed me forward, and I fell freely over the cliff's edge into my orgasm. I heard Edward whisper and pant things into my ear, but my head was too busy maneuvering through my orgasm to actually hear what he said. It was all the same thing any way, different forms of I love you. It always was.

I felt his body tighten and pull me closer as his silent orgasm took over him. His face was so free and peaceful as his body shook with the aftershocks. Tears sprung to my eyes at the happiness of our situation. When his eyes opened and locked with mine, all I could do was smile and kiss his face. I hoped it was enough.

"When, Bella? When do you want to get married?" he whispered.

"Whenever. I don't care how or when, just that you're there at the end of the aisle waiting on me. That's all I care about." I kissed his lips again.

"Let's not wait. Let's do it soon, please? Here ... I want it here in the side yards ... here. We'll rent all the things we need, and we'll do it here, where it all started. Here." He seemed so adamant, and I had to agree it was a perfect idea. Here, where we got our start. It was us, and it was perfect.

"Okay."

"Then let's go and get you a ring and tell our parents. Call Charlie and tell him we're coming down for a visit. We'll leave day after tomorrow." Edward's hand rubbed small, soothing circles on my back as I still sat in his lap. I wanted to stay here with him forever; I never wanted to leave, but the excitement of beginning our forever now made me want to rush down and scream to the world that we were going to get married.

A/N: So, there ya have it….LOL. Peace. Love. Happiness.

These two definitely deserve it.

And, if you get a chance, I've started a new fic….a feisty, broken Bella and a somewhat weak Doctorward….it's called Uncertain. Give it a go?

And, if you aren't reading Hello Beautiful what's wrong with you? LOL, its in my favs. Give it a go.

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Kyla