Chapter 7 - Frustrated

BPOV

I loathed Monday mornings. Groaning, I woke up with a huge headache. I had been restless ever since Wednesday and as Anastasia would say, I was sick and tired of always being sick and tired, so I decided to just let everything go and try to forget it all.

And forget it all was exactly what I did. Apparently there was a calculus test I overlooked. Pretty sure I failed that.

The rest of the morning went by the same. I basically just sat there in each of my classes staring into space, not listening to what the teachers were saying.

I spent the majority of lunch in the library. It was free from noise, drama and Edward. It would have been obvious if I hid for the whole of lunch so when there was only five minutes left of lunch, I went to find the others in the cafeteria.

I walked over to Tyler, Eric and Mike discussing the get-together they were planning. Edward was sitting silently next to them. Ever since the encounter with Edward and those three girls at the movies, the boys have become much more welcoming towards him.

"You better come, Bella." Tyler said as soon as I sat down.

"Where?"

"We don't know yet, we want to go to the beach but its freaking cold." Mike replied.

My eyebrows furrowed. "We just went to the beach recently though."

"Yeah but we want to go somewhere warm where we can swim and stuff."

"In Forks? Yeah right."

"Hmmm…" Mike said, tapping his chin.

"Well uh…would you like to come to my place?" Edward said softly, though it was loud enough for everyone to hear.

Everyone looked over at Edward. He barely spoke when he was sitting with us unless directly spoken to first, so everyone was caught by surprise.

"Your place?" Mike asked.

"Yeah…I um…have an relatively large indoor pool…it's heated and everything." Edward explained.

"YES! YES! YES!" Eric shouted.

"Having an orgasm, Eric?" Rose joked.

Eric didn't respond. Most people were too frightened to stand up to her.

"Okay, Edward's place it is." Mike confirmed.

"Oh hell no! Bella and I aren't going anywhere near that place." Rose said.

Edward looked over at me and I quickly turned my gaze towards the table in front of me.

The bell went. Rosalie was the first to get up.

"Umm…we'll talk about this tomorrow." Mike said as everyone else started getting up.

I rushed to Biology, unsure of whether Edward would want to walk with me or not. Much to my dismay, I was still seated beside Edward because Lauren had occupied my old seat ever since I apparently ditched Mike for Edward.

I awkwardly sat in class, waiting for the lesson to begin. Edward walked in and sighed as he sat beside me.

Thankfully, Mr Banner made us work from our workbooks today so there was no need for any interaction with Edward. That didn't stop Edward from trying to interact with me though.

Edward slid his notebook towards me.

Bella, I miss you.

My heart seemed to skip a beat.

Really? I wrote before sliding the notebook back in Edward's direction.

Yes really. Did I do something to upset you? Why are you avoiding me?

I'm not.

Please come over this weekend. Even if Mike's plans don't go ahead, I'd really like to spend some time with you.

I looked up at Edward. He was looking down at me through his beautiful green eyes. I gave him a small smile but said nothing more.


Rosalie came over after school so I could help her with her biology homework.

After two hours of homework, we decided we'd had enough.

As I was working on dinner, Rose sat by the dining table playing with her silky, long, blond hair.

"So what are we going to do this weekend?" Rosalie asked, her attention still directed towards her hair.

"Umm…going to Edward's?"

"No we're not, Bella." Both Rose and I had stopped what we were doing at this point.

"Oh come on Rose…don't you want to see Emmett?"

"Doesn't have to be at Edward's place." Rose said bitterly.

"I…kinda already promised Edward." I lied.

Rose was silent for a while until she turned to me with a huge smile on her face.

"If we go Edward's, can I dress you?" She said, looking excited.

"I thought we were swimming." I said, confused.

"Yeah so? Can I? Please?"

Well, she did say please. "Fine, why not?"

Rosalie stayed for dinner, and then went to watch some game on TV with Charlie while I did the dishes. She and Charlie got on pretty well, which I found rather strange.

"Thanks for having me, Chief Swan!" I heard Rose say before coming in to the kitchen.

"I'm gonna to get going Bells. Thanks for helping me in Biology and dinner. You're awesome." She said smiling.

"Yeah I know. See you tomorrow, Rose."

"By the way, you're going to be wearing the cutest bikini this weekend…it'll be amazing! No need to walk me out. Bye!" She sang, enthusiastically.

I rolled my eyes as she walked out of the kitchen.


"No means no Rose!" I exclaimed, with my hands on my hips.

"Oh come on Bella, its cute." Rosalie said smiling at the tiny blue, two-piece bikini sitting on my bed.

"Not in a millions years."

"Your have a hot body. Let Edward see what he missed out on. I'm wearing a bikini too so you don't have to be afraid."

"All the more reason not to wear one! You have the body of a freaking goddess." I sighed.

"I know. But so do you! Besides you'll be in the water the whole time."

"Okay, I'm not going." I said stubbornly.

"Okay fine, I guess Edward will have to wait until Monday to see you. You broke a promise, Bella. I'm so disappointed in you." She said sounding more irritated than disappointed.

"Eugh! You hate me."

"No I don't. Now put it on." Rose said as she walked out of my room.

I stripped off my clothes, put the stupid bikini on and stared at my reflection in the mirror. There was no way I was wearing this in front of anyone.

There was a knock on the door. "I'm coming in!" Rose yelled from the other side of the door. Before I could protest, she opened the door and came in.

"I told you you'd look hot." Rose smiled with approval.

"I'm so pale, I look like a ghost! And my ass is practically hanging out!" I complained.

"No its not. You're perfect. Lets go, Babe." Rose said turning towards the door.

"Dressed like this? You have clothes on!" I accused.

"Wear a shirt over it if you feel embarrassed. I'll be in the car." I could hear the impatience in her voice.

As Rosalie got out I looked into the mirror again. I guess I didn't look that bad. I went to my closet and brought out a flannel shirt and dark jeans. I quickly put them on and rushed into Rose's convertible. Rose sighed loudly in disapproval as soon as she saw me.

When the car stopped in front of Edward's house, I turned to open the door.

"Hold it!" Rosalie said suddenly. I turned to look at her in a questioning manner.

She leaned forward and started unbuttoning my shirt. I moved backwards until my back was against the door.

"What are you doing?" I asked, shocked.

"A bit of trust please, Bella." She said as she unbuttoned all my buttons except for one in the middle.

"Rose…" I said as she took off her shirt. She was wearing a pink bikini top underneath. It was pink, frilly and made her breasts look bigger than they already were.

"Now you won't feel as shy."

"Actually, that's not true."

"Okay shut up. Lets go, Babe." She said getting out of the car.

I walked towards the door to Edward's home and rang the doorbell.

The door swung open and there stood Edward Cullen wearing nothing but a pair of board shorts. I couldn't help but smile.

"W-welcome." Edward stuttered. "Um…please come in."

Edward led us towards the back of the house. He opened the door to a room and went in. I followed closely behind and was awestruck as soon as I got a glimpse of the room. It was enormous and the pool that was located in the middle of the room was huge. Beautiful pots of plants were scattered around the room, which gave the room a more tropical feel and there were beach chairs around the pool, which were occupied by the guys from school. On the left side of the room, there was even a large rectangular table, which was filled with food. There was probably enough food to feed an army.

I noticed Lauren, Jessica and some of the other girls from school floating around the pool. They were wearing shorts and a t-shirt, besides some leg, there wasn't anything revealing about what they were wearing. I turned to Rosalie and glared.

"I know what you're thinking Bells, but you saw the way Edward reacted when he saw you. He was stuttering!" Rose said as she took off her shorts, which left her only in her bikini top and bikini bottoms.

I heard a wolf whistled and turned to see Emmett smiling at Rosalie. Rosalie lit up and ran towards Emmett, giving him a hug. I had to admit, they certainly had chemistry.

Emmett and Rosalie walked towards me, Emmett's arm around Rose's shoulder.

"Hi Bella, looking good!" Emmett smiled, giving me a one-armed hug.

"Quit being a tight ass and take off your shirt and jeans Bella!" Rose demanded.

I bit my lip and slowly took off my jeans. Thank god the flannel was long enough to cover my butt.

"Looking good, Bella!" Mike exclaimed.

I flushed. This was so embarrassing. I looked over at Rosalie to complain. She and Emmett were whispering amongst one another so I decided to give them some space. As I turned to leave Emmett called out my name.

"Hey, can I ask you something?" He asked.

I turned to face him. All of a sudden, Rosalie came towards me and pulled open the flannel. The middle button flew somewhere and Rose took off the shirt. I hadn't even processed what had happened when Emmett came and picked me up, throwing me into the pool.

As I lifted my head above the water, I heard everyone laughing. At least they were enjoying themselves.

"I'm so glad you invited us, Edward!" A girl squealed. I looked over to see three girls surrounding Edward. It was the same girls he was with at the movies. I can't say I wasn't jealous when I saw Edward with those girls that night, nor can I say I wasn't a bit jealous now.

Jessica swam towards me. "I never realized how hot Edward was until today. Good thing you guys aren't together anymore hey?" She said nudging me with her elbow.

I gave Jessica a forced smile. I then swam towards the edge of the pool and climbed out.

I looked around for my towel and realized I hadn't brought one.

"Can I borrow someone's towel please?" I said feeling quite exposed.

"We have plenty of spare towels upstairs. Did you want to come up and get one?" Edward asked.

Not really.

I was still bitter about all the attention Edward was giving those girls. Were they having a foursome or something?

"Uh…I'm dripping wet, Edward." I said, biting my lip.

"Yeah! Only I make you wet like that, right Bells?" Eric yelled out.

Everyone laughed. How mature.

Edward shoved passed the girls and walked towards me. "You must be cold, Bella. Lets go." He said, grabbing my hand and dragging me out of the room.

I followed Edward upstairs in silence. He opened one of the doors in the hallway and brought out a towel.

He wrapped me in the towel, pulled me in and hugged me against his chest. I was surprised to say the least.

Edward placed his left cheek on the top of my head. "Gosh Bella, I really miss you. And seeing you wear this attire definitely doesn't help me to control myself, that's for sure." He chuckled.

I stayed still and remained silent. The moment was so bittersweet, I loved the position we were in but I knew being so close to him wasn't helping my state of mind.

Edward moved back slightly to look me in the eyes. "Bella?"

"Yeah?" I said, softly.

"We need to talk." He said walking towards his bedroom. I assumed I was suppose to follow so I slowly trudged behind him.

No good ever came after the words: we need to talk. Was he going to break up with me? Were we even together? I really didn't want to hear what he had to say.

Edward walked towards his couch and motioned for me to sit. I shut the door behind me and sat beside him on the couch.

"Um…so…" Edward began. There was a long pause. This was so awkward. "You're avoiding me." He finally said.

I looked down at my feet. "I'm just giving you space."

"Why? I don't want space." He said sounding confused.

"Of course you want space, otherwise you wouldn't have room for those three bimbos downstairs."

Edward raised his eyebrows and I finally realized what I had said. I quickly moved my hand to cover my mouth, although I couldn't take it back now.

"They're family friends." Edward said after a long silence took over.

"Rosalie told me you thought I was too clingy." I confessed.

"I never thought that. I was really looking forward to returning the favor like I said I would." He said, his cheeks turning red.

I smiled and ran my thumb across his cheeks. I looked down and noticed his erection.

"I told you I couldn't control myself." Edward whispered, smiling. His voice was so sweet, so sensual that I couldn't help myself.

I let the towel fall and climbed onto his lap, moving close to him for a searing kiss. Edward wrapped his arms around me and groaned as I rocked my hips back and forth.

I pulled back. "Okay now I'm wet." I admitted. "And for the record, only you can make me like this."

Edward stroked my damp hair. "I think we should go back downstairs. We can finish this another time."

I nodded in agreement, now wasn't the time. We walked hand in hand back towards the others. This was probably one of those 'left high and dry' moments.

Everyone stared at Edward and I when we walked through the door. Unfortunately, Rosalie was nowhere in sight. I really wanted to give her a piece of my mind.

"Lets go for a swim." Edward suggested. I nodded, letting go of Edward's hand and racing in to the pool.

Whoever said not to run around the pools was right. I slipped, falling head first into the pool. Edward jumped in looking panicked.

He placed his hands on my shoulders. "Are you okay Bella?"

I shook my head.

"What's wrong? Did you hit your head?" Edward asked in alarm.

"No…you're gay, that's what's wrong." I said as I splashed him and ran. I guess I wasn't very mature myself.

Edward chased after me. When he caught up, he pulled me against his chest, holding me in a tight embrace and whispered in my ear.

"If I'm gay, does that make you a guy?"

I laughed out loud. "No, it means you're a girl." I smiled.

Edward chuckled. "For you, I'll be anything you want."

"And don't you forget it."

Everyone played and ate for the rest of the day. There were times when some of the girls would try to get Edward's attention, but Edward and I kept to ourselves the majority of the time.

I was laying on one the beach chairs when Rosalie came up to me. "Bella, we're going."

"When is this going to end, Rose?" I couldn't hide my anger.

"What are you talking about?" She asked, looking offended.

"You're always going out of your way to cause trouble between Edward and I! Can you please stop making things up? I'm seriously getting sick of it!"

Everyone was staring by this point.

"I didn't fucking make shit up. I'm just telling you what Lauren and Jessica told me. I'm fucking sorry for looking out for you!" She yelled back.

I rolled my eyes.

Rosalie sighed. "You coming or not?"

"No, Edward will take me home." I replied.

And with that, Rosalie turned around and left.


It turned out that I really did fail the calculus test I did on Monday. Charlie found out about it the following Monday and was fuming.

"How can you just forget about a test, Bella?" He asked, irritated.

"I had a lot of my mind." I replied without emotion.

"What am I supposed to tell your mother?"

"Nothing."

"You're grounded for a month." He said with finality.

"A month? It was one test, Dad! You're being unreasonable!"

"Want me to make it two months?"

"No." I muttered as I went to my room.

It was ten at night and I was in bed with a novel.

My phone rang. It was Edward. I smiled and picked up.

"Why hello. To what do I owe this pleasure?"

"Look out your window."

I walked towards my window and looked down to see Edward with a bunch of flowers in his hands.

"Aren't you a sight for sore eyes?" I smiled.

"Bad night?" Edward asked.

"Yeah, want to come in? I think Charlie is already asleep."

"Sneaking a boy into the house at night? Aren't you a bad girl?" Edward chuckled.

I rolled my eyes. "Meet you at the front door." I said, hanging up.

I tiptoed down stairs and opened the door. Edward was standing there, smiling down at me.

I smiled and wrapped my arms tightly around him.

"You smell good." I muttered into his shirt.

Edward chuckled and moved back slightly. "These are for you." He said, passing the flowers to me.

"I saw how beautiful they were…and thought of you because you're beautiful. Thought it'd be best to give them to you now, all fresh…and stuff." He mumbled.

I couldn't get rid of the huge grin that was formed on my face.

"Lets get you upstairs before Charlie wakes up." I said, walking back into my bedroom.

"So this is Isabella Swan's bedroom." He said as he stepped inside.

I went to sit on my bed. "Nothing compared to yours but I love it. It almost feels as cozy as being in your arms."

Okay, I had no idea where this weird mushy talk was coming from.

Edward went to sit beside me. "Yeah I have pretty great arms." He said as he cupped my cheek and pressed his lips with mine. I loved the confidence he was gaining.

Edward and I continued to make out for a while. I'm not sure how it happened but I ended up on top of him, kissing his lips, cheeks, forehead and neck. I could feel him getting harder beneath me.

I wasn't sure what was happening but my instincts took over. I sat up and I took off my shirt, revealing my white, laced bra to Edward.

"Wow." He whispered in amazement, placing his hands on my hips.

His reaction definitely pleased me. I threw my shirt on the floor and went to unclasp my bra. I threw my bra on the floor with my shirt and looked down at Edward.

"Want to touch?" I asked.

Edward bit his lip and nodded.

"First, you have to take off your shirt. So we're even."

Edward didn't even hesitate as he took off his shirt and threw in on the ground. I moved down to kiss him, our bare chests rubbing against each other.

I sat up and grabbed Edward's hands, placing them on top of my breasts.

It was an awkward position, for sure, but we were new at this and it was only the two of us, so it didn't bother me at all.

"Feels nice." Edward commented. I giggled.

Suddenly there was a knock on the door and Edward's eyes widened in shock. I got off Edward and pointed to my closet.

Edward rushed in and I shut the closet door behind him.

"Bella?" I heard Charlie say.

I quickly rushed under my covers as I heard Charlie turn the doorknob and open the door. Damn it, why didn't I have a lock on my door?

"Oh Bella, you're awake." He said as he walked towards my bed. He just stood there, looking down at me.

"Yup." I replied. Could he hear the nervousness in my voice?

"I couldn't sleep."

"Oh?"

"I'm sorry about before, Bells. This whole parenting thing, it isn't easy for me. I overreacted. I mean you're doing much better than me when I was at school and I am so proud of you."

"Um…thanks…so I'm not grounded?"

Charlie smiled. "No. Anyway, how about giving your old man a hug."

"Um…" Oh crap I'm screwed. This was so weird.

"Bella?"

"I'm kinda of err…not decent at the moment." I said, flushed.

Charlie looked down at the clothes on the floor then looked back up at me.

"No Dad…its -"

"No, its fine." Charlie said, cutting me off. "Its normal for people your age to uh…want to you know, explore your body." He slowly backed away.

What?

"Its not what you think…I don't…I mean its not…" I was lost for words.

"I'll leave you to it…Night Bella." He couldn't get out the door fast enough.

I sighed. "Night Dad."

As the door shut, Edward came out of the closet chuckling. I glared at him. He came back to lie beside me. His laughing didn't cease.

I groaned and buried my face in the crook of Edward's neck. All my sexual desires from five minutes ago had vanished, that's for sure. All I wanted now was to crawl under a rock and die. I had never been so embarrassed in my life.

Thankfully Edward kept me company for the rest of the night. We talked and joked and kissed and laughed the entire time. However, Edward was continuously bringing up the stupid incident with Charlie. It was fine though; I'd get him back later.

For now, I was happy just cuddling up with him and listening to his beautiful voice as he whispered sweet nothings in my ear.